3rd post in 2 hrs

Lol. This is how bored I am.
Listening to songs. "If that's okay with you" by shayne ward is nice. Totally!
If only he would sing it to me...
Wouldn't it be nice.
Haha no shame. But seriously its nice.
Esp this part.

im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you

Done some thinking.
Gotta go to school some day to pay the fees.
Broke.
But Mom's not! nyayayaya.
LOL.
Want to go to town to Enjoy the scenery.
Wouldn't it be nice?

Gosh. Can't wait to give him a call.
Can't SMS. Call larh.
Haha.
Gosh.

The night when I just can't let myself hang up the phone is coming.
I can hear it knocking on the door of my heart.
Pleading to go out.

Random shit:
Harith has very good memory. At least he doesn't forget things about me :D
suker. suker!

In PAIN

Cool. Just finished reading Farah Ashlynna's blog. Very Nice. Hope she doesn't stop blogging. Her entries are like sometimes short and sweet. Sometimes Long but it keeps you reading. Unlike Mine. I don't know if you guys really read the whole thing. Haha. But I do believe some loyal readers do. Haaaah. After reading Farah's blog. I don't know what exactly I should do. My tummy is really not helping. M. Its red week. Blugh. Ouchouchouch.

Tell me what should I do to kill time! Go out with him? Meet him? Argh. So troublesome. I love to stay at home. Can I just ask him to carry me everywhere? WTH. Sorry for being so lame.

Im in pain. Remember? Excuses. Argh Boring Shiet.

Looony

Ok. The title is so random shit.
Anyway.
Helped Siti Sarah obtained a Web Counter For her blog.
At last! After 5 Damn long Months of Procrastinating!
Nyayayayaya....
So. Today... I found out about something.
SHOCKING!
My bill went up by $60. From 30 - 90. DAMN.
I Distinctly remember Sarah asking me.
"Hey. If my hp bill goes up to $60, is it okay?"
I said, "Yea! Of course, I think... Mine is usually 30."
Now it's 90. PFFT. Luckily my mom did not scold or nag or do whatever mother's might.
GOSH.
I feel so bad.
I'm now going to send 10 Sms a day. Receive only incoming calls. Make outgoing calls lesser. Like less. I don't know how less. I think I make calls through my home phone. Better. Unless if Im outside and it is impt.
Ugh! This sux.
My stomach is in pain. Bloody hell...

In Pain. Really.
In Need. Of a company.
I wanna go to town to sketch.
But It keeps Raining.
DAMN.

In PAIN. SeriousLY

Vivo and Sentosa...

First we went to Sentosa... :D the plan to Mt. Faber was canceled... cos Mt. Faber is too far. Though it seems near but hey... Other people go to Mt. Faber from harbourfront by cable car and you want us to walk? Are you sure??? haha... ok anyways... the entry fee was on Harith. Whee... People do work, me, ziza and sarah took the two trams. First to Siloso Beach, the next to Tanjong and Palawan Beach. :D Had fun riding the trams. The drivers were 'friendly'... Sarcasatic sia. Sarah asked how long would a tram ride take to go the whole round... The driver said "three to four Days..." Thanks eh! haha... but he was joking... we know that. heee. Then sarah wanted the class to take the tram ride together. after much assuring and pleading, heh, we got to ride the tram another time. wheee... haha. (tu pon suke) then went back to vivo by the skytrain. The guys working there were cute but non of us girls said anything. until... harith, our lecturer said "eh, mamat2 kare sini cute2 eh?!" Shocked uh at first... then sarah said... "Tapi pendek. lagipon mamat kat marina tu lagi cute! bawak model of his work... very nice..."
"Ya! he is like the taller version of you" i said. "But with no...." then sarah did some finger wiggling to show hair. hahahaha... she means facial hair. so anyway. Vivo was quite okay too... The guys who were supposed to do work didnt do lah. Like what they were doing i dunno... lol. For the three and other some of us, we didnt have to do cos we did our stuff yesterday. much expected, today was quite boring. Not as fun as yesterday. Thats all then ate at banquet. ya... that all... boring right? but the tram rides were fun. I can sit at sentosa for a day just taking beach tram rides... hahahaha.... bedek sey!

We met... At last...

Wheee... (this 'mimpi illyana' is really bothering me... it's nonsensical. her English is like so the kampongish...) okay... here's what I did just now. Ate spring chicken at 2 am in the morning, slept at 3... (Hey! i'm talking about today... 2 am in the morning is still considered TODAY! hehe) woke up at seven. Got ready by 8. slacked and packed my bag until 8.50. Head to the mrt station. Reached city hall MRT with Ziza, met those people at the escalator part outside the mrt station...

~oh yeah. This is like one occasion which happened in the MRT. We were somewhere after Paya Lebar... And In the morning, as i was slacking, i read the yesterday's Today paper and there was an article about the MRT after Paya Lebar being so noisy... Well it's true... cos fidz called. He asked if he had to 'tap-out'. I think he was like covering his mouth and shout at the same time, so it wasn't clear. anyway it was noisy... I was like "HUH?! LAPTOP?! HUH?!" haha all i know it sounded like eh-oh... u know like teletubbies... haha. Passed the phone to ziza n dier pon 2 X 5 dol! ahha... But she managed to figure it out. Lucky her.

so. back to my schedule... Went to have breakfast. Harith brought us to this Muslim restaurant in which the food was totally disgusting... haha... harsh uh... but serious... rabak dok! eeee.... wont eat there anymore in my life. waste my 3.50 and i ate like a couple of spoonfuls... omg. The restaraunt was like, formerly Islamic something... Ok anyway... next, we went to the Esplanade Park, then Merlion park, then singapore river... Ate ice cream... whee... then... went walk2 with the 4 kids to marina square to meet alia... then go millenia walk then city link mall and meet Hanafi :D Thanks to SARAH! then... Went to school with him to take my model... It rained.. lol... We wanted to walk to the interchange cos i did not want to board the packed bus... Don't want my lovely model to be squashed... haha. lol. 2/3 to the 291 bus stop, it drizzled. my model had a new polka dot design on it. -.- He helped me alot in managing that model... haha... luckily he followed me... Thank you darls.... yea... so he waited till I board the bus. Then got this bloody idiotic guy hit my model! luckily, nothing was damage or impaired. I don't want it to look bad during the open house showcase... haha.... wtt...

Weiiii....

I am slacking mannn.... I am rotting... You know, I got a lot of things to put in my blog... A lot of Ideas... but then I forgot them... haha... So sad larrr...

I wonder what the guys are doing... Fidz, bola... Sarah, kerje? Ziza, Rot at home... Shaad, tah... tv kot.. Farah? HuAllah HuAlam... haha... Koosmangat... Anyway, Let me see... I am bored. you guys have any Idea what I should do? Anything legal besides working... Go online, watch movies? Watched movies just now, Kuntilanak and GGPP... So scary man kuntilanak! Want to watch enchanted uh... later uh... When I'm busy, It gets too Busy, and when I'm bored, It gets too bored.... How is Mdm Marini doing? Long time since I've heard from her... Random sia... Haha! anyway... gtg now. Ran out of Ideas and Inspiration lah... k tatahs!

Gosh... Apologiesss

Read his post... Damn... I feel so... Useless... Many things are running through my head, my emotions... It's all going haywire... !@#$% Damn! I am so so so sorry... Seriously I didn't know.... I thot he was having fun with moo, and tom, and all... but turns out that he was like... BORED? Well... He watch enchanted with someone... I dunno... He told me he was with his friend earlier at bugis. So, I did not think it would 'kill' him... Damn I feel so useless...

Its not that I don't want to go out with him, he knows I'm busy... Well at least I'm not now. But I'm not totally free... I also have somethings... DAMN! I don't know how I should make it up to him... Oh GOD! Difficult having a Boyfriend isn't it... But this was my choice... What can I say? To whom can I complain? Just finish off where I started... I'll try not to let him hang on breakable threads... Peels my heart to read his post... So there are some things this r/ship lacks. Seeing each other physically for him, and for me, Its showering words to me. I love it when he showers me with caring words in his messages. It puts me to sleep, in happiness... If can, those are the words I'd like to hear when I'm lying in my deathbed... The words besides 'AsyhaduAllah Illaha Ilallah, Wa'asyhaduanna Muhammadar rasulAllah' The words which he'd create on the spot, or he found in his outbox/drafts, or he took from a song... I'd love to hear or see them every night before I close my eyes... At least if I die in my sleep, I'd die smiling... I care for him, I really do... I really, really do... I don't know how I can prove it to him, to myself... I'm not in the place to do so... Somethings are bothering me... I prefer to run... I know, he once said, I could not keep things to myself, this is no longer me alone... whatever happens, it affects him too... I still put his words dear to my heart. There's this thing about him. He never lies. The only lie, is when he is sad but he still laughs. maybe i do that too... Thats why... It's hard for us to see, to imagine how the other would be feeling because there are always laughter. Esp in our smses. Thats why i did not know that he was feeling down just now... It's been a month+... We'll be happy for a long time... I'll do my best :D

Wheeee......

Edited some pictures to upload at Friendster.com and to print... I want to frame them up... so cool... :D Anyway, here's some sneakpeek, the rest, go see at friendster okay?
heh...



Anyway, was supposed to eat Pizza today... but canceled... Damn I'm bored already... You know I have been doing one particular thing today, of all the things that I have to do, write "THE QUICK BROWN FOX JUMPS OVER THE LAZY DOG" like a lot of times... haha... To practice my architectural handwriting that is... Cleaned the kitchen and toilet up just now... Cooked... Wash my face umpteen number of times like a sick person... Beware! I am suffering of OCD! (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder!) Whheee! haha... NAQIA, My sec 4 classmate always claims that I have that disorder cos I'm vain... Can't see a mirror... If I do, I'd look at my reflection and embrace it! Jahaaaa! But I think I still have that disorder now. But I was not that obsessive for the past few months during my P1... Cos I was like in that bloody studio approximately, 10 hrs a day! 8 hrs sleep, 2hrs break/eat, 1 hr journey, 1 hr wash-up/refresh, 2 hrs tv... that was my pathetic schedule during P1! haha... Bloody hell...

Whoa... tired... "Wo hen ley!"

Just came back from my grandma's house in Ang Mo Kio... It took like what... 17 songs = 4mins x 17... approx. 42 mins +-... bloody hell... did I mention that I hate to ride in the bus for too long? Went to Nenek's house and then help her clean up some stuffs cos she's going to shift house soon... yea... so we cleared her store, threw away at least 4 big black bags of things. The bags are like BIG, mind you... And I'm so tired... Then now waiting for my father to come home soon so that we could go out again, to S.Effendy's son/daughter marriage... Damn! Hope to see familiar faces there... :D

Very BAD DAy...

I apologize to those who were affected by my attitude today. Maybe I had a rough start for today. Woke up late for school and shit happens. So yeah. My model was selected for open house. Going to persuade my dad later to drive me to school at night. So here's the list of the bad events today.

-My course vice-chairman was acting like a bloody fool. Bombarding that poor Lydia (the girl whom I helped with her project cos I had some empathy for her.)though she never 'touch' him. Okay maybe she called he and his friends CMI (cannot make it) but that was because they were teasing her and her model. Thats so bad, man!

-Were supposed to take down our pin ups at 12.30. 12.15 we had to do some reflection. But... these group of girls took down their pin ups at 12.15 and everybody followed suit. Instructions were given but we 'defied' them. Harith, our lecturer, was so upset, he told us to pin up our drawings again in 5 minutes. At first no one owned up when he asked who took down the pin ups first. I wanted to own up cos I didn't want the whole cohort to suffer because of some childish behavior of someone not owning up to their mistakes and the others have to carry the consequences along with them. But I didn't when I thought for the second time. This is because, I had told Harith that when my group had stepped in, the room was half empty already. If I were to own up, it would be obvious that I am lying. Anyway, its done though and the girls have apologized... But still the vice did not do his damn bloody job! I recommend that Harith change the bloody committee. In a Malay saying, Harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi atau makan gaji buta.

-I was with Ziza and we were at level five, heading to the studio. Ziza was bringing my model. The width of the pavement for us to walk was really small and that bloody Leonard and Sean was like in front of us and leonard go and ride the skateboard Sheryl was holding and BAM! He broke my model. FARK! Bloody hell... At that point of time I was so angry that I swore that he'd fall down from the skateboard and fall down from the fifth floor. Then I was like cursing him. Like Fuck lah! I help your stupid friend, the one they suck-up to a lot, to bring his model up before the MOI people destroy it, and this is the treatment? Where is the damn bloody respect man??? Go AND FUCKING JUST DIE LAH!

-Just got a nagging from my mom because my 4th sis complained to her that my 3rd bro hit her. Fuck lah. Just go and DIE, people... Stop Bothering me and my FUCKING life can??? FUCK YOU!

Hahahahaha

I was laughing, reading my previous posts. As you can see, I had added my Past and archives... Hahaha... they are like so funny. Couldn't believe it was me typing all those words. My english was better then though... Hope it's not that bad now... Is it?
Anyway... F.Y.I for those who read my previous posts... I wanna inform you guys that things between my relative in my father's side and my family are going out well... We are starting to be closer. And hell it feels quite good to forgive and forget. My only problem now is Hanafi. Well... not exactly problem... maybe i should give him a call tonight... cos i haven't been answering his calls... nyeheh... sorryyy awak... :D

Presentation... the second day...

Bloody hell!
you know what? know what?
just now... presentation was quite okay... entered design space, listen to people's presentation... etc etc... comments was allowed from the floor. so basically, me, hafiz and sarah did most of the 'bombardings' for the malays and then for the chinese, it was leonard and sean who did most of it. That was fine until it was some guy's turn to present. He presented okay, though he was quite nervous. But when sarah asked him why he chose to abstract something unrelated to the site, he was... lets say, quite mad. He thinks his work is great and that he is the head, so he should be feared? like who the fuck are you? i dun care what you are, who you are or where you are from. As long as you are not good, i'll give you a straight-forward comment... and if you and your so-called 'step-cool and step-funny' friends don't like it, then convince me! Don't pull faces or stare like as if you are unhappy cos it spells "C-O-W-A-R-D" on your forehead when you do so. If you don't understand the question, ask... we can repeat. Don't act like a smart Aleck and throw us down cause you are subconsciously pulling yourself down! Bloody idiotas. Don't you understand what Constructive Criticism means? you are suppose to accept and learn when you can't answer or convince. Don't tell me when you become a designer one day, and when the client isn't convinced, you'd pull your face! Then you'd be labeled "UNPROFESSIONAL"
So, as what my lecturer would say, "If you want to be a smart Aleck, then you are in the wrong place. Go to a JC then. Don't come here. In design school, we have no time for smart Alecks" ni uh k.d....
ok i chow first!

Mommy! Its over!!!!

At last! as what the title would suggest... yes! it's finally over! two fluking months of dreadfulness and doginess... Well I'm tired and i need to pay my beauty sleep! i got panda eyes, oily skin, full of blemishes on my forehead and cheeks. but not that obvious though! thank god! Ya soo... at last i went shopping... for shoes! :DDD and also my facial wash. the current one is so like not helping! Like, like, like duh! haha... just now when i present, i use a damn lot of "like"! FARK! ahah... the lecturers bombard me with quite a number of qns, but i could manage!... nyaha... the only minus point was my storyboard. i knew it sucked... anyway... harith liked my idea! so did kk! haha... harith said i'm sensitive to the site... Wheeee.... i know... haha. so cool lar sey.... then kk said overall, my presentation was okay. i dun care, as long as i like my idea and as long i dun get to repeat this p1 thing, im doing just fine! at last its over!!! woot!!! im going to have fun like I never had before.... i dun care! haha.... so happy lar sey... but at the same time tired... going to sleep... sleep and... SLEEP! haha wooot! imagine how happy I am!

but then right, I feel sorry for sarah, farah and candice... their presentation rabak seyyyy.... sarah pon ngah bad mood... haizzz ape khabar kau sarah? its okay... i don't think they'd fail lah. hope for that... i mean imagine uh... you done the work for like 2 bloody fuckin months but then when you submit, the lect says that he doesnt like your idea and that you have a long way to go... i mean if i were to get that comment, I'd feel wasted too... sacrifice your sleep and health... and this is what you get! it's like FARK! but anyways... i'm happy!

:D

sorry i haven't been blogging... been busy with projects... nyahaha... okay... i have one thing to talk about... jeng3... relationships... Nyahaha... recently... i met alot of people with dating problems. One of them is my cousin. Now i have a question to ask... If you guys go out with your bf/gf... would it be a cheap one or a very expensive one? for me... maybe at this point of time, it would be cheap. First, I'm still depend on my parents financially, secondly, I think cheap dates may be more meaningful. Cheap dates, to me, are the kind of dates where you bring your partner (or vice versa) to the beach or sight seeing... you know those kinds of things where you don't have to pay or at least, a lot... instead of going to fancy restaurants, doing fancy stuffs like horse-riding, golf? bla3... anyway, who dates playing golf? okay maybe there is... but... WTH? ok. ya back to the topic, maybe expensive dates can be sweet once in a while... ok lets change the topic!

which is better? meeting him/her everyday... like a river which doesn't stop flowing... or... give him/her an sms or two a day... so that he/she would remember/know that he/she's still yours... but still call or meet him... but not everyday... which one is better??

answer me!!! :D

*Sigh*

Damn I have been so busy this week... So busy, I didn't have time for MR.H... Sorry dear... :D make it up to you next week k? next week is my last week of school! yeah! but... I still have work to do now... BZ BZ BZ... Gotta get back to work... Tomorrow i'm going to watch pentas... :D

PENTAS & P1 !

OMG!!! I AM SO PRESSURIZED!!! How could this happen to me??? kenapa pentas have to be on the 16th??? why cant it be after my p1? ya Allah!!! Apa kejadah niiii.... Aku boley naik gilerrrr... that means i have to take one day off my production? kalau kerje aku tak habis, nak salah kan siape? siape???? the organizer? my friend who made me end up in dk? me? who? nobody! i can't blame anybody! but if i fail, it would be one BIG damn bloody problem for me! this is P1... MAJOR project... M-A-J-O-R... If i fail this, all my hard work will not pay off... i dun wanna retake this 2 month project thingy... I wanna proceed... to the next level with my other coursemates... I'm sooo dead! bloodyhell... what shall i doo? maybe i'll have to manage my time. VERY CAREFULLY... gotta prepare timetable... for my production.... lalalala.... go out of training by 8? haha what the toots... okay maybe 8... or 8.30? ok 8- 8.30... i still have to do my project ya know... then on the 16th, lets hope it doesnt take the whole day... maybe when im done with my performance, i head back straight to the studio to do my work... ask for early dismissal... :D can? After that, I QUIT! itu lah... cikgu dah cakap... jangan join cca yang high commitment...degil.... kan dah susah sendiri...

These few days

I have been a busy bee... finishing up my model and stuffs. Its project 1... major project ya know... been in school like 10-14 hrs a day... from 8 am to 10 pm and sometimes 11... haha... i have loads to blog about actually... but i dunno where to start... haha... i dunno lah... i am so damn tired today... sorry for not blogging... :D i promise i'll blog tmr! :D

Aiyee's open house!

Wheeeee.... had fun just now listening to uncle2's crappy ideas about how to make money... nyahaha.... One of the ideas was to become human statues at joo chiat during puasa next year. one pose like 'imam' with a tasbih so that people would give you money... cos you r an 'imam'... nyaha... wth... second one pose like japanese samurai who keeps saying potong kepala whenever people give him money... haha... met effendy (anugerah skrin)... my cuzzie's friend... :D

yippeee

today im so happy larr... finished my model but not my drawings... nyaha... then lepak at school hear the stupid band sing... drumstick pecah, cymbal pon jatuh... sound system dah lah pekak! (jahat nyer aku!) anyway... it sound real bad that when it came to the second song, we belah and lepak at pondok ok! Then rain... stuck at the pondok... ehem... then i sing... then the rain subside... haha... mcm betul jer aku! was stuck with moo and andi... cute guys! haha. see too many cute guys lah today... got another 2 more... oh so cute! haha. Ok stoppit! kecian nanti Mr.H kiter... jealous nanti susah tauu... haha... ok anyway... ate sardine puffs sold at the drinks stall with cold nescafe. OMG! POWER LAH SIA! woot! then chit chat with Harith, my fave lecturer! we chatted about EVD and what we should do to it like set up a committee... haha... give ourselves a name. EVD crew? Urban Guerillas! haha... I like that name. Guerillas are anti-system people. Thats what we are. System ok! not other things. Dont get the wrong idea and sue me! haha.... ok anyway... lepak in school till 8. Had a friendly debate about racial stuffs with jason and sean. Cute guys. Me, I was armed with my mouth and sarah was there too... we bombard like hell! haha.... serious... should have it recorded on tape or something. haha. tape eh! anyway, we won the 'debate'. Self-considered winners! haha... but really. Jason told us... the malays their wedding got kompang all... noisy sia... You know what i told him? I told him "eh hello! thats only a day... or less than a day! then the chinese, die also make noise... tong chiang2... 3 days 2 nights you nvr say!" Everybody laughed...was that a good point or what?? nyhahaa