Tocco Here I come :)

I hope all goes well later...
First and foremost I would like to apologize to those who tried to reach me but could not get through, I have to renew my plan or something like that... Anyways, I will do the necessary changes later, don't worry, my number will not change. I will retain it for my own convenience and also yours... haha~

I have been thinking a lot about if I should get a wi-fi phone or not. Basically a wi-fi phone costs more. Duh. But actually, you do not really use it until there is available wi-fi and that is if the connection is strong. Why not just get an internet surfing line for the non-wi-fi phone?? I mean if you are not going to use it excessively, there is no harm right? Haha.

I'm only getting this for her. I don't know why. Sometimes I think I am stupid, Haha. Actually, it's love that made me this way. :) - Btw, I'm not talking about the bgr kind of love ok... its the sister love kind of love.

Rashes lah sey!!!

First the sneezing... And then the running nose... Now, the rash...
What the heck? Baik uh.
And since when... nvm.
I am freakingly sick. Bah! I hate being sick. But they say, Sick is good.
Ia adalah satu peringatan (It is a reminder). Therefore, Reflect!!

It came back. :'(((((((

Should I go admit myself into the ward?
Can I ask for the bed beside baba's? Hahaks.
Die lah you, Amyra. Talk shit in the wee hours...
Don't wanna sleep summore. TSK!

Did I just tell myself to die???
GOD what is happening to me..........
After effects uh?? Putus cinta per?
Abih? Nangis?
Buat ape?
Kental.


One question.
Dah kenape dengan aku ni?

Insomnia

I am soooooooooo sick.
But I will be okay later I hope.
I can't sleep.

I think I took so many wrong turns... My health starts to deteriorates.

Why, why... Tell me why... WHY? Why lah faggot. Tell me!!! Faster tell me!!!
What's your rationale to all this?? I'm not giving up.
WHAT Amyra wants, Amyra GETS. GOT it?

Now, its the two of us.

After having our favorite meal,
We went on a search on the mountain up high...
Along the way, there were a few people whom we saw...
Fun and laughter we had, throwing pebbles, skipping the waters...

And then you followed me home...
You held my my hand...
Looked me in the eyes...
And asked me to be yours...

Willingly,
you had your answer...

Don't tell me the sky is the limit. There are footprints on the moon.

First and foremost, happy Birthday to my darling sister, Putri Nur Ariani AKA AYU. Hahah.(FYI, She is the 'ayu' in the Suria drama series, 'Wak Burn'. Best thing was that, I did not even know she was acting!!

Anyways, I feel bad I was not there to pray for her well being along with the others, but my heart had always been there. Imagine that it is your sister's birthday and you are not there with her...

But a promise is a promise. Once made, can't turn back. Amanah... Right. Thank you for those who came just now, although it was already late... But still, you came. :) Glad you did. Hope you people had enjoyed your time.

Its a pity that I did not get to join the party earlier.

Only God Knows.

Citra Suria

Citra Suria - Taufik Batisah



Namamu seindah sang suria
Memukau setiap mata
Merangsang cinta
Dan mengaburi jiwa
Kelautan asmara

Siapapun terjerat dan pasti tersengat
Dengan gaya tingkah lakumu lincah dan keliru

Chorus:
Pulanglah sayangku
Ikut haluanku
Perubahanmu
Ku nantikan
Kembali cahaya
Kepada suria
Letakkanlah diri seindah namamu

Hidup pasti bermakna
Cinta pasti abadi
Harapan iniKu junjung tiap hari
Bawa ke sana sini

Sehingga kau berjanji
Tak mengulangi lagi
Ku sentiasa menunggu
Hingga akhir hayatku

(chorus)

Dengan rela
Aku ingin cinta menjadi nyata
Anggaplah pengalaman itu
Satu kesilapan yang indah
Sayang...

Aku pimpin tanganmu
Kita genggam erat-eratMenyusuri kenangan lalu
Dan terima hakikat

Bersinar kembali
Dalam dakapanku
Cahaya hakiki
Penawar rindu

Bersinar kembali
Dalam dakapanku
Cuma hanya itu yang ku ingini

Can I Complain??

Shall I say that Today is a pretty bad day for me?
Three things happened, 'BAD' things. But eventually, I believe things do not happen for no reason.

Well something happened at 3 plus in the morning... And... I shall not elaborate on it for now... Some good stuffs came out from the 'bad' thing. hehe.

Ok. So... Before I headed to school, I dropped by the bank to deposit some cash at the cash deposit machine. And guess what? The toot-ing machine retained my money! Dah aku kene join the long queue. Pfft.

Then I headed to school and as I reached Hassan's office to get the camera from him, he was already heading for lunch and I was told to come back at 2. Goddd....

Tell me why all this is happening? :))

Takpelah, dah nasib.

I was hanging on a steep cliff, before I decided to let go of my grip, then I realised how much I loved you and how I can't bear to see my future without you. Fortunately, you gave me your hand and lifted me up.
Alhamdulillah.

The sun is waiting for us... its the NEW HOPE

I think

when you feel like you are done making me cry every night, give me call.

Imperfections

I confess... I am not the perfect one for you...
every day... you seem to be further and further away from me...
I see a rainbow at the other side of the fence...
you see a beautiful ocean...
we have a similar perspective...
Alas, it is only... Similar

Heyyy ITs RAINING!!

Hey... I am back once again. Just to tell y'all that it is raining! How cool?!

and I won't be falling to sleep just as yet.

Who's that??

K. My father. Duh.

Byeessss....

Not Asleep yet...

I've just finished my work for today... I mean, Yesterday... I'm sort of a... I don't know what. But I'm just slow. I don't know why... oh, maybe its because my site is much larger than the rest's... Maybe. But anyways, ALASAN. Excuses, excuses and more excuses. Its like 5.20 now and I don't feel like sleeping yet. Stupid projects taking up my life... Hehe. First time complaining about p3?

Anyways, I am so afraid that I would not be able to finish my project on time... Cos we have like material sample board... my construction detailing, my story board, model and also process model. Not forgetting, we gotta borrow Hassan's camera cos we wanna get a good shot of boat quay for our perspectives. Speaking of which, reminds me of my matriculation card. For the second time! Where had it went? Maybe its inside my LV bag cos I remembered ziza putting it there. Shall search for it later. (ok now I'm starting to feel a bit sleepy.)

I can't believe that I have been awake for most of the time today. Like no sleep! Gosh... My face would look horrible tomorrow... I mean, later... Why does it feel like as though it is gonna rain???
Anyways. Ok Im getting draggy along here right? Heh. I shall stop here then, Since the 'rain-wind' is like sooo niceee.... I feel like going to sleep already... lol. And, I have no idea what the toots am I blabbering about. Haizz....

Nights :) (I mean, Morning!)

Do I have to do my model againnn??????

Ya Allah...
11 more days and everything will be over...
I can have my sleep...
I can have my hobbies...
I can have my time...
I can have my family...
And he can have me back :)

Long time no blog

After a week hiatus from blogging, induced by the time-consuming and energy-draining Project 3, I am back :)) Yeay... Missed me? Haha - Lame. Anyways.

Nowadays, I dream of nothing else but P3. I talk of nothing else but my design. I- Okay, actually these are all exaggeration... haha. I do not talk or dream or what have you about P3 all the time. Its just that, P3 is crimping out my life. Like the bi-atches would put it in their laser-like tongues... 'You are polluting my air!' - Oh it has been such a while since I've last used that phrase. Haha. The last person to whom I used that phrase to was Tarmizi Talib. Hehe. But that was ages ago. See, I've grown up to be a... better?? I don't really know. But point blank, I have grown out from that 'Past-me' days.

Just wondering - How come a boring topic like P3 could expand into bi-atches and 'past-me' and what not?? Anyway.

Back to the topic of P3. I seriously do not have any idea about my future as a designer. All I would like to do is Plan, Work hard and leave it up to Allah. I have to have back up plans you know. I can't really rely on just being a designer. I do not even know if I would have a 'career' as a designer. People are being retrenched and stuff. Oh God, If only 'these' people knew the consequences of their actions and how it would affect the world...

Humans can be really mean creatures when they turn themselves in to ego and greed. If only all the leaders in the world would lead like in the teachings of Islam...

If only these powerful people could be more humble.

Hoax Verse of the Quran

Probably, this email I received would have spread to a zillion mailboxes by now. I am very much disappointed that I had received this email regarding 'the number 11' only now. I wonder how many people in this world had been conned into believing this email? It really sounds convincing... The structure of the email is well planned... Even I, almost, believed the email. Until I figured out that something was not right.

There was this thing about a verse in the holy quran. Stating that;

'For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace.' (Claimed to be from 9:11 - At-taubah)

First thing that popped up into my mind was, why have I not come across with this ayat in the tafsir? Maybe there was this ayat but I forgot or did not take any notice of it, but it could not be. Second thing was that, yes, the ninth surah in the Al-Quran is At-Taubah. What relation does this verse have to the surah? It sounds violent...

Anyway, its wrong. The verse about the eagle and what not is a hoax. Pretty angry with the guy who changed the verse to impose a bad image on Islam and VERY sad that it was my uncle who sent it to me! A muslim, sending another muslim this kind of email... Subconsciously weakening the Iman of muslims who are not 'well-informed'... It is a very sad situation, and all of these only reminds us of one thing.

The end is near.

By the way, the actual quote is : 'But (even so), if they repent, establish regular prayers, and practise regular charity,- they are your brethren in Faith: (thus) do We explain the Signs in detail, for those who understand.' - 9:11

12 Rabiulawal

I miss blogging!

Something has been bothering me, something has been smothering me.
I'm just not being true to myself. I'm living a lie.
Things are not going my way, and I don't want to keep it that way!

So what do I do?

I would love to have my sleep :)

Ni'mat

If tears had rolled on my cheeks just now due to depression and uncertainty because of he whom I love,
Now tears of gratefulness sparkles from my eyes because of she, the one I love dearly.

Sesungguhnya, Tuhan akan memberi cobaan kepada seseorang itu hanya jika dia dipercayai dapat mengatasinya dengan sabar dan ikhlas.

Alhamdulillah, aku dapat menjamah ni'mat yang sangat berpelajaran dari sisi-Mu ya Allah. Syukurku hanya pada-Mu. Sanjunganku hanya kepada kekasih-Mu, ya Allah.

Aku bersyukur dianugerahkan Sahabat sepertimu, ya Azizah. Tingkah laku, boleh disamakan dengan Sahabat Rasullulah s.a.w. Bertapa mulianya kehadiranmu di sisiku, biarlah ia menjadi rahsia antara aku dengan Dia.

Dalam diam-diam, kau mengubati jiwa yang pilu dan resah. Yang selalu takut akan azabNya yang tidak terhingga. Tetapi keliru, di tambah dengan diri yang lemah. Kau telah membawa sinar cahaya kembali kedalam ruang hatiku, kau telah memberiku semangat sejati, terpatri dalam hati. Biar kau lakukan apa-apa yang kau rasa patut. Sesungguhnya hanya Dia yang tahu berapa bersyukurnya aku, berapa bangganya aku, untuk dianugerahkan Sahabat seperti kau. Tangisan ku tak terhenti sampai kini. Tetapi aku rela. Aku rela kerana ia adalah tangisan kerana kesyukuran, keinsafan dan memberi kesedaran. Biar lah ia mengalir. Aku lebih rela mengalirkan airmata sebegitu daripada airmata yang disebabkan dunia yang dapat melekakan.

Ya Allah, letakkanlah dunia di atas tanganku dan bukan didalam hati ku... Amin

Thon

The plan was to eat at McDonalds at Mistri Road, but since there was no parking space, we went to Marine Cove instead. There were like ten of us including baba and family, and after dinner we played the 'pass the message game'. so fun lah.

Then we planned to go to Johor but ended up playing bowling at Downtown East. There were 19 names in the waiting list and ours was the 157. But we also saw Ibu's friend - Abang Fauzi. And he had a cousin who could not play but his name was in the waiting list, no. 149. So we took that slot! Whee... Alhamdulillah. And then we played and Ayah, as usual had top score of 114, Ibu went in second and I went in third.

Bowling main ramai2 best!

Then we had 'breakfast' at the pond. Where I had teh tarik and kebab. Hmmm... Hungry lah. Then Baba talked about the perfect 'routine', which is practised by Mika, my brother. He sleeps at 9 and wakes up at 5 every day. Baba said that was good and he wants to have that habit of waking up at 5 everyday. But not sleeping at 9 because he claims that its deficient to sleep at 9. Lol. But yeah. Baba said to us, if Mika grows up to sleep at 9pm and he wakes up at 5 am, that is good. But if he wakes up in the middle of the night to do 'qiyamullai', it would be very good. Like the lifestyle of a 'Wali' already. Wah, can I train him to be like that?

But he is just a kid. Kesian dia. But still! Why don't I try doing that first?