3 days

Another 18 more days.

Maybe the gap is leaving us both depressed. That's why there's tension. I want to be happy, you want to be happy. We want to be happy like we always do. Its hard knowing that we can't talk so much on the phone now... I know. And I can't sleep, I can't eat... I just can't be normal. And my feelings, they are shaky. I don't have you to talk to. I don't have you to listen to me and my dreams. I feel like I don't have you like I did before.

But honey you know what? This is another new obstacle we have to go through. And I don't want to give up. After all we've been through... I don't care what you bring back for me cos bringing yourself back home is enough for me. I pray that you are safe and sound over there. I pray that tomorrow, I'd have the chance to apologise to you. I pray that I will start loving myself more than you love me... So that I will be healthy and lead a very happy life :D. Amin.

Regret for listening to you: A day. Regret for not talking to you: A life time.
Forever and Always... Missing you.

To the ENT

Had referral to Changi General Hospital for my ear implications. Guess what was the implications? There's like a stone in my right ear, and there's a heavy bruise in my left ear.

First, one of the doctors wanted to conduct a hearing test. But he told me that he cant do the test as i have to clean up my ear first. So, I waited for Dr Peter Lu. He told me to sit on this chair... And then he used like a vacuum thing to suck out all the wax and dirt. There was one point of time where he accidentally placed the sucker on my bruise and I almost cried. hahaha. All the way, I told myself, all of this is going to be over in a minute. But that 'minute' was like ages!

Moving on, He proceeded to my right ear. He started cleaning it like nobody's business... then suddenly, he stopped because there was a hard thing inside my ear. So, I had to go to the room with the microscope above my head. And there I was, lying on the bed. So. He sat beside me and took the microscope and then looked into my ears. There was one part, he asked the nurse for a hook. A HOOK??? What the toots is a hook man? I was scared. I was hoping he would put me on anesthetics or something... The scenario reminded me of the movie 'Awaken' I think. About that guy who did not fall asleep while he was being operated. Nice movie. Anyway. In the end, he took out that stone. Hahaha. Finally. No I can hear much better.

For my left ear, however... There is a hole in my ear drum... so the doctor gave me ear drops to fill it up. There's sponge in my left ear now. So its blocked... And, you wanna know what is the cause of all these? Flu. Because there is so much phlegm in my body, it had affected the ear, causing infection. :( See what a flu can do to you? And how did he know that I had alot if phlegm in my body?

The doctor gave me anesthetics for my nose.... and then he put in the microscope into my nostrils. So he saw a lot of phlegm.

Disgusting story... I know. But hey, you never know... It might just happen to you :)
*Insyallah tak*


Anyway, Thank you for loving and caring so much about me.
You love me more than I love myself.
And I thank Him so much for that.
Thank God for you and your sister :)

Dear Allah,

Ya Malik, Through your utmost powers and willingness, please bear him safety throughout his outfield days. Ya Rahman, Shower him with your blessings and guidance, such that he becomes your most faithful one. Ya Razzaq, Grant him his good supplications so that his family would enjoy his fruits of labour. Ya Aleem, Lead him to the wise and knowledgeable ones and refrain him from the sly and cunning. Ya Muhaimin, Bring him joy and laughter through is thick and thin, so long as he knows that You are always by his side, protecting him. After all, you are Al - Sami' of supplications.

May praises be to Allah s.w.t and His Prophet s.a.w.

Here comes goodbye

For three weeks at least.
No more late night calls, but more prayers for his safety.

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