I'm sorry....

I know I sound harsh in my tag. After reading your latest post... I feel so bad.
OK so now you know I hate it when people tell me not to do stuffs and not have a reasonable reason to why I should not do so... I just hope you understand how hard it is for me to tell you that I don't like. Its hard for me to tell people what I don't like about them (when it affects me) straight to their face... So. I turn to my blog. :( I'm sorry. You know who you are...

New phone for my mom...

Well my mom just got a phone. Pda phone. So... jealous lah! haha... ok anyway... I shall buy anything I want when I start working... lol...

So... Forget about that phone, My mom is getting me a new phone! yippeee! lalala...
(Don't think too much,m don't get you hopes all high)

Ok. I had many things in my mind just now. But i seem to forget.
Somebody... Msged me. He asked a lot of questions. Mcm interrogation!
LOL. Dun like uh... Ever heard of phone etiquette?

So. been thinking a lot i guess... Pimples/acne are appearing. Bloody hell! just got rid of them! now they come back! tsk!!! (mom says: Dont think about it! stop touching it!) Okay... I'll heed your advice mom... Go away buzzers!!! haha...

How to cure pimples/acne? Don't think! hahaha.... What the toots.

Living in the present now... Making the best out of everyday...
Not going to think about guys... :)
Just waiting for a gentleman to realize something.
And I shall not think about it.
:DD Just wait till he comes to me.
That day... I shall be the happiest gal on earth.
Just for that day...

Whatttttt?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE IT!
why people tell me stuffs which I can't do?
Can't dye hair...
Can't laugh...
Can't 'gendang'...
Can't do this...
Can't do that...
All of these relating to religion.
Like do I look like a kid to you?
And when I ask them if they know why it is wrong,
they tell me... "oh my uztaz says so...", "oh my uztazah says so..."
I know why It is wrong to do such things.
But it isn't haram! So don't tell me like I'm a small lil kid!

I read books. I read any sources I could find about religion...
Hadith and all... And I mostly refer to the Quran.
If you can't handle the Halal and Harams... Don't teach people hadith!
I don't even tell people they shouldn't do this nor do that...
Don't make it sound as if you know everything just because someone powerful to you says so...
The only powerful one here in this world is Allah. Some Uztaz are not even real!
And always! Always find reasons to why you should do and don't do things!
Don't follow blindly... And before you teach people or tell people...
Look at yourself first...

Moral of the story: I Hate people who thinks they are so religious!
Well nobody is so perfect in this world ok... only Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.
Only him!

Ya Allah ya khudayah...
Kau terangkanlah hati mereka...
Jauhkanlah mereka dari kesesatan...
Jauhkanlah mereka dari keriyakan...
Amin.

Which guy would I fall for?

You would fall for a Gentleman
You like a man who knows how to treat a lady. Your guy will be suave, sophisticated, and dashingly handsome. He remembers the little things that matter: holding doors open, offering his jacket to you when you're cold, and giving you flowers when you're down. Your Mr. Perfect will respect you, love you, and make you feel beautiful, because you are! So even though you may find yourself attracted to bad guys sometimes, save your heart for your very own Mr. Darcy.
(From Facebook)

Lol! So true!!! hahahahaa.... Plus! The guy has to be knowledgable :D

lol

My guitar skills aint that good.
Live with it... :P
My voice was Diff...
I was crying... (Putting my soul into the song:P)
My pronunciation is off a bit
Bit my tongue a lot...
Wow. I do have a lot of reasons huh...
so enjoy...
lol...



I've always needed time on my own...
I never thought I, need you there when I cried
And the days feels like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie, is made up on your side
When you walk away, I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it okay...
I miss you...
(I really do...)

He

I've learnt to play Avril's song with the guitar... Her songs are significant to me cos they very much describe my life... Love life especially... Lol. From her first album... The most significant song was Skaterboi... lol. Adelah cerita... Then 2nd album, Under my skin, was My happy Ending. That part was damn sad. Lol. Then here, this new album, comes When You're Gone.

Well what's done is done. I can't turn back time now can I. All I know, I've made a very big mistake and I'll never do it again. (Promise Myself) For now... Let bygones be bygones. I can't change people's feelings.:I

I just wonder. Why does he uplifts my music spirit? I know we are not together anymore. But what I did for him just now... It was like... The first time I sang for him. More than words... Sang and recorded many times until I almost lost my voice... but today... I sang and recorded... Umpteenth times... bit my tongue a lot of times and now... It's sore... How does he do that?

All I could say now is just... I miss you...

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Long time no post!

Yay! Thanks Azimah for introducing this to me through your blog. Lol. I kind of find it funny... Majority of my answers for this Multiple Intelligence are 'usually'! I tried my best to click 'rarely'. But hey! I hate lying to myself... Well... At least I know I'm intelligent... haha... But don't worry... My head isn't as big as you think. Thank God for this gift. :D Alhamdullilah is all that I can say.

So. Speaking Of Intelligence, Something came into my mind. Intelligence come in two different ways for me. One, Emotional Quota (EQ) and two, Intelligence Quota (IQ). Do you know that people with high EQ are more intelligent? Because they are... Street-wise. They tend to live longer... why? 'Cos they cook so much faster that when they have finish their deserts, the high IQ people are still struggling to read and comprehend the recipe book for their appetizers. hehe. Ok I made that one up spontaniously... Not sure if it is true but... Nevermind. I shall give it an observation.

So. There are so much difference between high IQ people and High EQ people. The High EQ people, tend to look much stupider... (FYI. I am a High EQ person... But my IQ is above average. And I am proud to be a High EQ person.) I mean really. I have a friend whose IQ is much higher than her EQ, that she becomes totally oblivious to the feelings of others. I on the other hand, feel so guilty in this one accident when my groupmates (including my friend here) made a schoolmate unhappy cos they did something to his things. I hadn't been on the site to experience what happened but after hearing the story from another groupmate, I felt guilty too... I mean. Yeah its not me.. but they are my groupmates and we were doing a project together. I can't be that oblivious! But this friend of mine, She went "Alah! Nevermind lah!". And that schoolmate of ours was on the verge of tears! OMG. What an experience.

Yeah. High EQ people tend to be liked by others too... :D Cos they aren't Oblivious to their surroundings. High IQ people think they are too intelligent and they won't listen to others. Cos they think they are right. The High EQ people would take time to evaluate. Think about what is right and what is wrong. Take notice of the surroundings and the people around them too before making a decision.

You know. I still hate the fact that they made the bicycle tracks inside and the pedestrian pathway nearer to the roads. I mean. Don't be stupid!!! I don't know how to explain it but it is just stupid. Bicycle tracks should be the ones nearer to the road. Cos they are faster... Give the people who are walking a shorter distance to travel. Take the Pasir Ris MRT station for example. The Pathway near to Bus stop with the service number 3. The Pedestrian walkway is inbetween the bicycle track and the road. But the pedestrians tend to walk on the bicycle track. Why? Because the distance to the sheltered walkway is much nearer! And people tend to jay walk too... Because the traffic light is quite a distance... Works of the High IQ people see? Luckily I am taking Environment design, so when I get to be an urban planner, If God will, I will make sure these stupid things do not happen. Cos they are utterly STUPID!

Mood: Hungry

Phone jammed...
Maybe it will get well in a week time...
*Pray hard*

Ok. So. Had a great time in school...
Although Perry plucked a nerve of mine... ok maybe it was more than one.
Bloody hell lah he. But nvm. I shall just smile and forget abt it.
Harith asked the class to give a clap for the 15 ppl who helped for the open house.
He mentioned about us doing more than expected and staying for 3 days...
Haha... I felt like crying. Soooo sweet. Swee hong is also cool... hehe. She is not biased la... Cool.
Uhm... Had lunch alone just now... Sad but nvm... Hungry mah. No one in sch want to accompany me. Ziza, Farah and Sarah wasn't in school...
But overall... Today was fun despite of the bad luck which i had.
I almost choked to death cos i had a hard time trying to find water.
LOL. The canteen drink stall was full of ppl. I was late. Went to lvl 5 but the vending machine sold out. Level 3 concourse... There were bottles but the machine kept saying it was sold out! bloody hell... Sarah saved me in class... She let me drink her drink... heh. Thanks sarah!

Voice out your thoughts

Today is a sucky day!
Elias Park Primary School has a Bloody irritating Security officer who should be FIRED!

I dun wanna talk about it here. I was so upset with that officer I cried.
LOL. I know.

I am moving on. Dropped by a friends blog. Then I realized. What is moving on without... PAIN?
Somehow, all these while, I forgot. With moving on, Comes PAIN. I hadn't realize pain, I mean, I experienced pain only sub-consciously. I knew I was crying. But I thought it was because of sadness. And that there is no pain in sadness. But hey. There's PAIN in sadness... That's why i cried. That's why i cried when I was upset with that bloody officer. Why I cried When I left him. Why I cried when I was afraid what the future might hold... I miss him. I do. I can't deny.

Every time I ask myself. Has he forgotten me? Would he be remembering me? Does he still love me?

I'm done with. I can't turn back now. Turning back might be the best thing to do.
But I am not going to. Its just not me. I know. People tend to do things which will make them suffer... Obviously ignoring the easy way out... Convenience = Wastage
Try that theory. Some how I believe it. Something I figured out while in the toilet.

If only I could show my heart to everybody as when it is crying...
Only God knows...

Rain Rain Go Away

It's been raining for quite a while now...
Thought the monsoon was over... But hey...
It's not.
Damn.

Couldn't sleep for while now...
Keep waking up in the night... And I...
Tried to sleep again, but...
I couldn't...
Shit.

This is all because...
The thoughts of you keep
Coming back to me.

Oh why now...
Why not in the other lonely nights
That I had...
Don't leave me all alone here..
Crying...
Back to sleep...
Praying all the thoughts of you...
Would go away-ayayayay.....
away...

Rain Rain Go away yeah hey

Pertemuan

Kehadiran insan-insan yang lama dinantikan
Tali persaudaraan tidak luput dek zaman
Bagai air yang dicincang tiada putus
Zahirnya jauh, rindu pun tercetus

Hari deme hari ku menanti
Saudaraku yang jauh, tapi dekat dihati
Kini sampai jua mengetuk pintu rumahku
Bersapa salam, terubat rinduku...

Okay... My Aussie cousins are here! What a surprise! haha... So cute lar they... haha... Now they are like playing inside my mom's room while watching Transformers The Movie. There are three boys and a girl. The two younger boys were break dancing just now... so I was like...
ME: Hey you break? Cool.. I mean I can do the freeze... (Oh... Did I just said that? OMG!)
Zaimi: Oh cool! let's see her do the freeze!
ME: Oh sure... Here it comes! (Oh shittt!)
Hairi: Oh cool! she could do it!! Cool stuff!
-And there comes my 6 yr old bro... pushing me to the back and i fell and my body hurts! ouch

Hairi is 6 years old, but he talks too much for a 6 yr old... haha...

Lalalala~

I am here right now... here...
Sooooo Depressed abt school
Even acnes are getting worse...
Mannnn i cannot stand it!
God pls help!

I vow

Not to be bored...
Never read my mom's msgs.


~They are disgusting! eWWWWWW!

Bring my shine back...

"Cos i couldn't handle the thought of you going away..."


....


Neither could I...

Maybe you dont get it

Once i spit,
I won't lick it back...

That's why i'm depressed



ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Step number one...

I am depressed.
At least I think so.
That is step number one.
Admit that you have a problem.

I am confused. This confusion of mine is sending me bonkers!

How I wish he did not agree to my wish.
How I wish he did something else instead of saying 'ok if that is what you want'.

Ah what the heck. What done is done, I'll just have to move on.
Bloody acnes/pimples keep appearing...
I need someone to just... Hug and cry unto...
Cry till I fall asleep...

I just wanna die in your arms~ why can't you see that?!
Bloody moron make my life difficult!!!!!! !@#$%!

Yay!!!!!

Just now Sarah bought for me the pants which I wanted... Awww sho shwww3eeeet lah she... Hahah... Bought it at 77th street... It was M lah... S size got brown only which was not my kinda taste... Black was much nicer. NVM take black only lah... later can alter... haha... LOL. Thanks sarah! I was shocked lahhh... Verrryyyy.... I thought wanna go window shopping for her bdae present... lol... then she buy for me lak... Terbalik... heh... Anyway... i love the pants larrr!

my 2008

1st jan is coming to an end in a few minutes time... and i havent post anything for the world to see... To see, to comprehend... what i feel towards 2008. PFFT. *roll's eyes* I feel like 'killin' this blog and give birth to another one... this blog carries too much memories. It hurts. But. You can't move forward til you look at the past, can you... Hence, I would not do it. :) I'm single people! For those who weren't informed. So dun come asking me about my bf again... oh... I mean EX. hate that word. I'm just going to be myself again. Only me myself and I. God and you and the world of mine. I'm gonna make me your role model! hah! LOLs. Dots.... I wanna be me when I was in sec2. People wanted to be me then. All those laughter... Kalah saiful apek. heh. But I know. As i grow, As experience matures me... I am a better person every year... At least... More than 70% good. heh. So lets go ppl. I ought to be walking this road alone this year. But I'm choosing not to do it alone, Instead I'm gonna do it wid you guys. Yea... The people around me. I'm so not gonna waste my time lurkin about the past and slit wrist. I'm done with that. Thank You Allah SWT for always guiding me... Amin.

Waaa So long nvr blog!

Port Dickson was fun la sia! woot!
It's not the place.
The place is 40% okay... The hotel has a nice view of the beach, and the apartment was quite spacious... But... the toilet got no spray water. We have to use the 'gayung'.
There were 3 cars in the convoy and the company was fun! :D It makes the whole vacation enjoyable.
Sat with Kak Mariana (kak ana), KAk Linda (kak lynn) and abg shahrin n nina... lol. Funnn Funn Funn! I wanna go with them again! Pls33333..... haha.
And danial, my cuz, he smokes.
Lol. And the time we were in melaka to eat seafood, Kak lynn offered him a stick in front of everybody including my nenek and mama. And mama was like warning him, saying, 'kau jaga'... and nenek was like... 'kalau aku tau kau isap rokok, aku pukul kau dengan besi'... Hahahahahah! so funny larrr. his reaction was like... uhhhhh ok. PFFT...

So then today... had a fun photo shoot with tarmizi, and his friends, amalina, hani, n another on chinese gal. Shall post the pics later k :D... then at night, countdown... lol. RC organized... used my father's sound system... :D
and ibu's friends were there! kak ana, kak lynn, abg sharin, kak nurul n abg nizam... wheee... so fun so fun... tmr maybe they coming down my hse to karaoke... more fun! wheeee!