Mummy!!! I am sleepy!!!

Well, today, believe it or not, we stayed at the library for 10 freaking hours, doing our work! We are supposed to do some construction detail matrix as a group and dang, there were like 112 different details to be drawn. I feel like, we have done only a little. Is forty enough? haha. But we were supposed to work with another group so that will be 8 of us. Apparently, no one ones to be with our group as yet, so we had to stick with us four...

So. I am so sleepy right now, and it is funny why pasir ris is not raining, just as yet. Plus, tmr, we will be watching jangan tegur! yeay!!! malam jumaat tgk wayang... *ok that was sarcastic*

-Hoping that Ziza's hands will get better-

First Day Of School as a Senior...

A link to a particular video that moved me, and made the hair on our back stand.
Susan Boyle - I dreamed a dream
I could not embed the video because it was not allowed -_-"

First day of school was not that bad, just a morning filled with happiness as we saw long-time-no-see friends, laughter as we made fun of people and also induced by our so-called funny jokes. And a tinge of jealousy as we saw those who had got the CDI projects and the Director's list... And the fun that the Freshmen and some of the juniors/seniors had after orientation. Maybe, like Moses (our director) said, I am not well-connected. Well... Not that well-connected as I used to be... maybe. So shall we start coloring our portfolio with some cool stuff this year ZizyZieza?

I am so gonna make use of this one year wisely. I will put my money in my mouth.
But I'd rather, get some sushi before I do that. At least sushi tastes better... Sushi anyone??

Decisions

I have made my decision.
I have made a stand.

I will put money into my mouth whenever it opens.

This time, Trust me.

Happy 17th, Nina!

I would like to 'preach' this to you, but I'd spare you from the 'lecture-like' speech or wish. Well, its a wish but its also something that I would like to write down into the birthday card but I'm afraid, I would need a big birthday card... So, we shall just pen it down into a blog post now, shan't we. ;)

Basically, now that you are 17, I would like to share some things with you. When I was seventeen, a lot of things happened. Since I was a December baby, I would be in Temasek Poly, a freshman indeed. I got my 'o' level results, I felt success, got into the course of my choice... (First one, indeed!) Seventeen... I can say, I was a little bit playful still... Had a lot of guy friends who liked me... Well maybe it was only 3? But still. A lot of things... This is the time when we think, we know what we are doing. But, my dear, it is not. We are still naive. This is the time, that we think we can live life independently. Still, my dear, we have a long way to go.

This life we share, in this family, is a unique one. We are like kites. Kites with long strings. Which I hope, would not snap. And Ibu and Ayah would be the ones pulling us when they think we are going to the wrong direction... And one thing about kites; as the kiteflyers pull them, they would soar even higher. Good kiteflyers would take huge risks to let their kites soar higher. But good kiteflyers are so good, their kites would not snap. Because these kites are attached tightly onto strong strings - in our case, our foundation. Alhamdulillah, our parents may not be good kiteflyers... but they sure are responsible and the best. :)

In my life of 18 years (gonna be 19), there are a lot of things that I've seen, I've learnt... And I've noticed. I am quite a forgetful person, as you may have already know, so when I see things happening before me, be it good or bad, I would summarise them into 'lessons learnt'.

I'll share with you three things that you might wanna know, or take notice of in the mere future...

Firstly, the richest man is always the man who is thankful. Do not regret, for everything happens for a reason. Do not sigh, for each sigh is an opportunity for failure and weakness. Always smile, even if you had the worst day of your life.

Secondly, respect. Respect yourself and people would respect you. Never give in to guys at this age. Never let people bully you. Never let your friends pressure you. Do what you feel is right.

Lastly, Dreams are not meant to be games in your sleep or in your free time (daydream). Chase after your dreams. Do not let anything stop you. Not even love. Family yes. Love as in guys... no. The one true love, is only love for Allah s.w.t. And then love for Rasulullah s.a.w. And then Ibu, Ibu, Ibu. And then Ayah. Remember that!

I wish, I could share with you more. But this post is getting too long already! haha.
On a last note, Happy 17th Birthday, adikku sayang.

I Can't Stop...

Ziza's post about 17 again just sums up what I want to say about the movie tonight. Totally agree with you babes!

Hmm... I guess I've had it with people controlling my life... Although, indirectly... or unintentionally... I feel that my self-respect is being fooled-around with. And they just don't understand. Because they claim to love you. And that is why you have to follow what they say. But you know, it is wrong. I guess I took a wrong turn somewhere? I do not know. But I'm not regretting. I still believe things happen for a reason. And for this case, it means that I have to learn to stand up. :)


*Human, being human, they are just difficult to be satisfied*

Sore Eyes...

Listening to: Yesterday Once More by The Carpenters

Well, Sore throat for her... and sore eyes for me. Coolio. My eyes were swollen when I woke up. I guess something must have got itself stuck inside my eyes at night. And I had a bad dream last night which had caused me to startle or 'meracau'. God. I dreamed about two small cute ants helping each other out. And then suddenly there was a big ant... The one which you can see especially at graveyards... That particular thing fell onto my head... And I was like... Nvm. Anyways. I guess, I am very much influence by her. I think about her everytime. But, too bad for me I guess. Had the best days of my life...

Yipee... Watching '17 again' later... With Ziza and her bros... And also Hykel, that little rascal whom I find cute sometimes... Except when he asks me for mango cake... And also Uncle Key lock Pad.

Okie dokies. I gotta go... Gotta get out of my 'plumber's assistant' uniform and get ready to be 'Quirky Me'.

"It is more shameful to distrust one's friends than to be deceived by them."
- Duc de la Rochefoucauld (1613 - 1680) French writer.

Plans...

just a short post...

I want to bring my siblings to watch '17 Again'... also in celebration of nina's 16th birthday...
And I wanna eat sushi!!! Who is with me???

Clear conscience

I am a person of that type. That's why I get easily intrigued by small things.
I will work hard to gain back trust. Will do it for anything.
Oh only He knows how much I love you.

Nur

The girl who can make me laugh my heart out...
The girl who can tear my heart into a gazillion pieces...
The girl who brought light...
The girl who guides.

I also know her as a very patient person.
Whose life-companion should protect her like a gem.
Never take her for granted.
And guide her more than she'd ever expect.

*Slowly, I will pull you back into my arms...*

If only you knew

That I regret whatever I did till it made you to be like this.

I do not think I am at that stage where I can solve a 1 million piece jigsaw puzzle yet.

But one thing for sure, I believe things happen for a reason.

Insyallah, one day, you will realise...

That you are no better than me. 

-I knew that a long while ago. I'm prepared.-

Ayamas

Maybe it was because the ayamas was bought from singapore?

Maybe it was because I micro-ed it... I did not follow the conventional directions of cooking it.

Maybe these was why it turned out dry. 

Still, my Mr.Sleek makes the best Ayamas... hee. 

I was so touched that you woke me up today, dear. Alhamdulillah.

If Only I could know...

I would brave the storms to know what is in your head.
I would wrath in the coldest sea just to see you smile again.
Because when you are on the verge of losing someone dear,
You would want to hold tight and pull them back in again.

I guess, I was too caught up with my own problems.
And so I paid less attention to you.
You have every right to be unhappy or upset.
Can we talk? I really want to talk to you.
Can I lie on your shoulders and cry like before?
I have a lot to share with you.
But you seemed withdrawn. Me, being me... I had to face everything myself with no one to talk to. I thought, life was the hardest when there was no one to talk to. It has always been.

I want to share my problems with you, only you. But again, you seemed uninterested. Why? I always wondered if dating your brother would be the biggest mistake. But I know it was not. You just have to accept it. But if only I could know this was bound to happen, I would not say 'yes'.

I know this is unrelated to being trusted and all, but I just want you to know today. That you are a big part of my life. And I can't bear to see anyone I love, not trusting me or they are pulling themselves away from me. I will do anything for you because I love you like my own sister.

Brightest shining star of my life who would light up my darkest nights. Without fail, you are always the one who is right. That's why I love you.

The best gift from God, who would teach me and guide me... We learn together. But most of the time you were the big sister... And I feel so secured.

If only I could know what is in your mind right now. Oh how desperate I am, wanting to know what is it that I have done. I am so forgetful... And I am not a great person. I know. So please, Guide me like you had always done.

On another note, I Love You. :')

- When you are on the verge of losing someone dear, you would do anything to pull them back in-

Ok whats happening in life?

Basically, these are my life's updates.

1) I have switched to M1 mobile plan instead of starhub because, starhub is eating up a lot of my money! -wasted.

2) For this week and the rest of the weeks, my granny would not be visiting my house anymore... So I have a new addition to my routine, which is to send my brother to my neighbor's house. cos no one is gonna take care of him before he goes to school...

3) My cousin went to Indo! I wanna follow!

What else...

4) I had just realised something about myself. I detest stinginess... And I don't really like people intruding into my affairs when they do not know anything.

5) I am so not disciplined nowadays.

6) I can't wait for EVD outing and 17 again...

Lastly, 15 May.... Damn, thats freakin long!!!

Craving...

Whats with Bisexual-ism, Lesbian-ism, Gay-ism... I saw one of my friend today, who is kinda... soft. He was with a group of friends, exactly like him, and there were like 20 of them? Kekek!! Should have recorded it.

Oh then I had just found out my former-bestfriend is a 'les', and the 'lass' is like damn cun. Alas...

Maybe its a sign. The world has turned around. Repent.

Anyway, another thing would be, whats with people, craving???

I had my cravings too... And fortunately for me, I got to satisfy myself... With the help of Mr.Sleek... I had my Cheese Fries, Zinger, McSpicy, Hotdog pretzel and I got him... heh. (Cheeky sey)

Dang I am Hungry yet again.

'Let's not care what others say. As long as we know our stand and ground.'

dreams Dreams Dreams.

They say, dreams are games in our sleep.
Some say, dreams are the opposite of reality.
And He says only dreams that come around three plus in the morning would be true.

I had good dreams last night.
I dreamt I was caught by the police for doing something I did not. But the police department and the government is one nasty one. They take advantage of women prisoners. Sounds like a bad dream. Yah. The thing is, I looked at being imprisoned as a situation. Not a problem. Heh.

Ok then. This is when the cool part comes. I fell in love with a prisoner that I was on duty for. He was my long lost childhood crush. Lol! Usually (in the dream) prisoners would hit the escorts (like me - in the dream!) in revenge or anger. Thats why the stupid police gave the women prisoners or detainees the job. And mind you, I have not appealed and had my verdict yet. And was already punished. Luckily God protected me. If not, I don't know whether I would wake up from my sleep.

So yeah. And I had to escort my long lost lover to the court for his verdict. He too had not done anything wrong. I think in the dream, we were standing up for our rights and for the truth but ended up being imprisoned. Thats life in my dream. Sad? nvm. ah kay... so. Let's continue.

Not once did he touch me. He said to me. 'Amyra, Run away with me. We have to get out of here.' Then I agreed. I wanted life, but not in prison. My love is in front of me. I just had to say 'Yes'.

You know, the song 'Love Story' by Taylor Swift really compliments this dream!
So. Back to the dream...

We got out in the end. I forgot how. But. Yeah we did. But I remembered, I left my hand bag at the prison. I wanted to get it back because I could not live in peace without my wallet and handphone... and make up... all the things in my bag. Haha. Even in dreams?? But he insisted that we should not go back. But I was stubborn. And he was stubborn. But we kept running forward. The police never knew we were out until...

I don't think they knew at all. Because they are stupid remember?

- We were both young when I first saw you... -

BEST DREAM EVER!!!

Hectic-ness

Taylor swift and david archuleta. What do they have in common? They are not that good looking but i don't know why the toots I find them cute!

Here's a MV of this song Zieza intro-d to me.

So addictive. She is like the 'kellie pickler' in the MV as she had insisted... Enjoys.

On a personal note, I think that the guy is stupid cos obviously, kellie is much more prettier than that girl he went away with. Looks and brains. Do they match?

Long time.

It has been such a long time since I've blogged.
Well, at least it feels like so.

Anyways, there is something that I would like to share with you people.

"Everyone has their own set of problems. I hate it when I am faced with a problem. But I detest it most when I choose to run and not face it. We have a choice. Look at it as a PROBLEM - still - and maybe you will overcome it. Thus, achieving happiness. But. Look at it as a situation and we will definitely grasp a handful of wisdom and contentment... Even if we have failed to overcome it."

Chicken Popcorn Rice, So Nice!

Simei banquet is the best...
haha.

So tomorrow planning to go NUS... Architecture show or something like that...
Then, we go... watch David Archuleta!! Yeayy.... Thenn... We go... Eat at Amirah's grill or Amiran's grill i dunno....

But yeay! I will be a hell of a time, I hope... hehe.

Gonna dress up, take loads of pictures... Update, update and more updates!

Let's go baybeh!

So long No slack.

Yeay!

I've edited some things on my blog template. Of course they are only minor changes... No biggie...
But the changes made - at least - makes my blog pleasing to the eye. No more stupid google ads blocking my content and what not. I actually added a few more stuffs to help organise my sidebar... but it all went haywire so I had to revert. But anyways, this will do for now. I so love my blogskin, i can't find any replacement!

Anyway, moving on to what I have done today...
Basically, the trip to NUS had been cancel because our babe, Farah Hannan, had sore eyes! I was like getting ready halfway when Zizy called... So changed clothes and went to Elias Mall... After that we wanted to go survey Tampines 1. Guess what, it is not opened to the public yet! hurhur...

'Let's go find a rich life partner after this :)'

Humility.

Like the quote I frequently use,
“Humility is like underwear, essential, but indecent if it shows” - Helen Neilson

When you tell people that you are humble, it defeats the purpose. You are not humble anymore.
Trust me. Its showing. Without you knowing.

I don't know why am I blogging in the middle of the night right now. I guess I like reflecting at night? haha. Reflections, reflections.

Lesson #1: God is great. Put Him first and all your tasks will go smoothly. Never think that because of praying, it will make you lose time. Tested. Proven.

Lesson #2: At the end of the day, it is the wisdom that matters. You do not have to impress. Just do what you think is right. Don't follow blindly, work smart and plan carefully.

Lesson #3: Time Management is verrryyyyy important.

Lesson #4: Be grateful with what you have. The lesser things you own, the lesser things you want.

Lesson #5: Cherish the people around you. Always try to make time for family. I guess it is harder for me since I have two families right now. Luckily their timings don't clash. I just have to deal with the tiredness. But as long as it makes me happy, I don't really care if I am tired.

Lesson #6: Communication in a team is essential, necessary, vital, important and what have you. A mis- communication can lead to chaos and disaster. 2 hands work better than one. Let alone 30 pairs...

Lesson #7: Think before you act. Sometimes things that you do unintentionally can leave deep bruises in hearts. Although you had apologised for your mistakes, there will still be marks.

Well, that is all that I can share... The rest are for myself to know. Not for you to find out. I wonder what is there written for me in the future. Well, I guess, I should just wait for it. Maybe try to change it a little bit to make it better. I don't know. But I really believe in Fate.

Always look at the glass as half-full and not half-empty.

Long time no blog...

Let's start over.

It's been such a long time since I've blogged...
What happened to me?
I dunno. Seems like time has been moving so fast for me...
I don't know. Where has my time alone went?

Slumdog is good... Too bad I did not catch it earlier... But still, I caught it!
hee~ I shall not elaborate on the 'controversial' issues now. I'm still on cloud nine...

'Just put yourself in my shoes'