Adduuuuhh!

My big toe hurt! internal bleeding. I was careless. I didn't know what's on my mind. I was climbing up the stairs then i kicked one of the levels. OMG! painnnnnnn!!!!! aduuuuh!

Ok. Just now. I was singing. The whole day slacking. On the com for like more than 1o hrs already haha... can? Ouch. Stupid lah my toe hurts alot!!!!!!

A beautiful call...

Yesterday I watched 'Kau Istimewa' on TV, Suria Channel. It was so touching. About lonely elderly... After that show, I felt like calling my grandmother who lives in Ang Mo Kio. She lives with my uncle. When my uncle goes to work, she lives alone. I pity her, but i also admire her strong will. To live independently. My family visit her maybe only three times a year. Of course her children visits her too. I love her though she is my father's foster mom. She cares about me and my family. So does my mother's mom. I love them both. There are some meaningful quotes I got from the tv show. "If we die, nobody comes with us except for our past doings", "If they (the children) can't come to see us (the golden age couple), it's alright, but at least give us a call. We miss them so much. I cry every time thinking of them."

I forgot about my grandmother in ang mo kio. She slipped off my mind. How could that happen? I regret. So i gave her a call. Damn she was happy. She laughed alot... we talked alot. Never have i called and chat with her for 10 minutes! OMG. I feel so happy larrrr.... omg.... Thank you Allah for giving me this opportunity! Thank you so much!

1. Were you smiling when you woke up
this morning?
- No..

2. When was the last time you met
someone new?
- I forgot...

3. When did you last eat pizza?
- Pizza hut with MDM MARINI!!! oh sooo fun!

4. Do you drink beer?
- no,lah..bt i drink root beer
countless of time..

5. Do you wash your own clothes?
- the washing machine does it for me. I just dump my clothes there.

6. Are you any good at poker?
- yea can say soooo

7. What do you want more than anything?
- To be with my loved ones forever and ever and ever...

8. Are you tired?
- duh!!..wt qn is tis...

9. Besides your bed, what is your
favorite thing in your room?
- Mirror, mirror on the table..

10. Pepsi or Coke?
- coke...

11. Would you ever take someone back
if they cheated on you?
- see first..if they change, i`ll give
them one more chance..i`m a gd person
k.. but if they do it again. Sorry no cure...

12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
- NOoooo
scared uhh....

13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
- Macdonald... i love!!!! been eating there since i was born!

14. Are you restless?
- YES!!!!!!!!!!!!..

15. Is your computer desktop or a
laptop?
- laptop... my desktop's cpu exploded cos i accidentally off the reboot switch without turning it off! nyaha! luckily my father nvr found out abt HOW it broke down...

16. How many friendster views do you
have?
-210 can? no lah 209 since 1st sept. Wheeee thats alot huh???

17. Want to be a prince/princess?
- Princess. I am one... haha.

18. Do you believe dreams come true?
- yeaaaa when i beleve, it'll come true... Dream believe achieve! heard that b4?

19. Last song you heard?
- Keep holding on.... yea baybeh!

20. Do you like Batman?
- no. Its irritating when i can see the eyeballs but cant see the skin surrounding it. Go wear shades or something pls!

21. Who is in the room with you?
- Im in the living room. Safe internet surfing. haha....

1. Have you had your birthday yet?
Nope. still counting!

2. Are you with the same person as you
No! thank GOD!

3. Are you still in the same job?
yea n forever. heheks

4. Is your favorite color the same
color?
yea... black brown grey white.

5. Have you got the same style/colour
hair?
yea.

6. Have you bought a new car this year?
no. I wish i could drive!

7. Anything exciting happen this year?
uhh alot!

8. Have you been involved with the
police this year?
nolaaaa

9. Favorite all time drinking place
for 2007?
simpang bedok... coke. :D

10. Is your best friend still your
best friend?
of course. YEA!

11. Got any tattoos or piercings this
year?
nooo

12. Had a haircut?
yeaaaa

13. Been in a hospital this year?
no.

14. Lost someone you cared about this
year?
wheeeeee. no

15. Been on a vacation this year?
nope. not yet.

16. Been in love this year?
noooo....

17. Fallen out of love this year?
noooo

18. Been kicked out of a pub this year?
uhhh i dont go to such places ty.

19. Completed any studies this year?
what studies? Social studies? haha

20. Read any books?
yea! malay novels can?

21. Worst thing to happen this year?
Haha... oops. Cannot say. i fasting larrrr

22. Best thing to happen this year?
meeting my friend Peed. Thot she would not exist in my life story.

23. How many times have you gotten
drunk?
NEVER

24. Has this year been a good one so
far?
When i was 14, it was darn good. It was when i was in sec 3!

My life is 85.5% happy!

[ ]You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[x]You are in love (? dunno not sure.)
[ ]You have your own room.
[x]You own a cell phone.
[x]You have an ipod/ mp3 player
[x]Your parents are still married.
[x]You have more than 1 best friend.
[ ]There is a swimming pool in your
backyard
Total: 5

[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You slack with friends more
than once a week
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in
your room
[x] You have never been beaten up
[x] You NEVER cry more than twice a
month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the
music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
Total: 5

[x] You have over 50 friends on
friendster
[ ] You have over 500 friends on
friendster
[ ] You have over 1000 friends on
friendster
[x] You have pictures on friendster
[x] Your parents let you have a
friendster
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going
to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone
else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
Total: 9

[ ] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your
mom
[>] You are happy with your
appearance (can? haha)
[ ] You have never gotten a failing
grade in your life
[x] You have friends
Total: 1.5

[x] You know what is going on in the
world.
[x] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5
songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies
[x] You are a generally nice person.

Total: 8

Overall:28.5

Now count your numbers and multiply by
3
Then title this 'My life is _% happy'

Geylang still the best...

Went to Geylang on Sunday. Saw lots of familiar faces. Saw Cik Attie, former owner of Attie's corner at Kampung Geylang. Now she owns a stall at East Coast. Saw her there before we went to Geylang. At Geylang, we saw Alias Kadir at Banquet sitting on the same table as S.Effendy and The Unsangkarables' drummer i think. Then after some time, We saw Aiyee and family. Shocked to see my cuz danial, kak lili and her bf with their parents. Rare occasion. haha. Till here. My mind is in a blank right now actually. Things are happening at one shot. I barely have time to breathe. Haha. bedek sey... oh ya then WE went to simpang bedok for supper wth Aiyee and family. Aiyee is danial's mom. then we saw... Fendi from live the dream! haha. When I see popular people, i dun go bonkers like some girls do. I dunno y they do that... seriously...

Some pics...

Yesterday, 22 Sept at my auntie's house celebrating my cus' b'dae.
This pic proves that lighting is an essential for a perfect pic and that Wudhu' mekes your face glow... (My aunt asked, "why suddenly your face glows unusually. You look more beautiful suddenly. Oh maybe because of the Jema'ah prayers we had just now.) Ehem...



I wanna go up to the highest level of this building and shout out loud, "I'M BREAKIN' FREE!!! WOOT!!!" can? nyaha!



Ring Round The Roses, Mustafa's Full of Flowers! Wait. it rhymes? yea it does!!!



Pilih pilih! Ambik jangan tak ambik! 3 for 1, 1 for 3!

As what my favourite Bugs would say, "That's all folks!"

Gimme the last laugh. Can?

He's running away from me? Whenever he goes online, and when I'm online, He'll go offline or appear offline, i dunno. Got this from the bulletins. Gemini - The LIAR. See... I'm good at this. I hate liars soo sooo much larr.... No wonder he couldn't make it no matter how much he tried. Best thing is, maybe, he is too embarrassed cos his love or whatever feelings he had towards me wasn't return. Hey boy, you were damn lucky I didn't act like a bitch and treat you like you were crap in the middle of my ***. I could if i had wanted too. But I can only act. My heart is not as hard as that. That is why I had to give you hints. Knowing that my hints didn't get through your big head, I thought I'd just follow the flow. Your flow. See... you were the one wasting my time actually. I had to act dumb so "we" could be on the same frequency. And when I say I cry for you, Its not that I cry of what you thought I would cry for. It's because I can't get us over and done with. But now we are done, as you solemnly said. Trust me, I'M BREAKIN' FREEE!!!! No player wannabe's and no Hip-hop + emo shit.

I Don't Argue With IDIOTS!

Damn he is so irritating. Got a message from him this morning or when I'm not sure. (cos i delete his messages whenever he sends me one... And its usually early in the morning!) So read his blog just now. trust me it was damn stupid. Look at the person uh. Stupid. Mesti uh blog dier pon stupid kan? Since its fasting month and I have to be really really patient, patient than I ever did before, I shall not reveal his name cos he doesnt like it. I dunno how many of you r reading my blog. But those who really follow my life, will get the idea who he is lar. D'oh. It's so obvious. I don't know whats is so wrong with revealing names. Wouldn't it be better to reveal names than to just use, what, him, her and all that kind of stuffs. Like just say my name if you want to talk bad about me. What a contradiction. You hate hypocrites but you yourself is a hypocrite. wth. Nonsense. I can't stand really stupid and slow people. And people who are full of nonsense. You want to move on with your life, move laa. What are you waiting for. Macam lah aku hadap sangat tengok muke dier, layan sms dier, call dier lagi, kerenah dier yang degil na'uzubillahiminzalik! From the first starting of when we knew each other, I gave him signs that i only want to be friends with him. Syarat2 aku bagi belambak. Tapi dier mcm sultan bodoh dalam cerita puteri gunung ledang tu fikir aku memang nakkan dier. Hah. Padan lah Puteri Gunung Ledang tak nak sultan tu. Harap kan otak jer pandai. Buta dalam soal hati. Muke tak seberapa, otak selow melow. Ada hati nak suke aku. Pelik2.... Irritating uh orang macam gini. Susahkan hidup aku. Pertama kali kite kenal, dier dah tipu aku. Sekarang dier step aku yang salah. Aku buang masa dier lah. Sekarang siapa yang buang masa siape ni? siape suruh dier gi syok sendiri suke aku. Degil pulak tu. Benciiiii! Nasib baik Fie ade. Jujur ikhlas. Banyak tolong aku hilangkan stress dalam hal aku ngan budak biol ni.

Bila aku minta IrsyaadMu Ya Allah. Aku tahu serta-merta dia bukan untukku. Dan aku juga tahu apa yang harus aku lakukan. Aku terlalai buat seketika lalu Kau sadarkan aku dan ku kembali jua ke alam yang nyata. Dan Kau, Ya Khudayah, telah membuatku percaya, bahawa keputusanku setahun yang lalu memang tepat. Dia tidak boleh dipercayai. Tidak terlintas didalam hati ini pun untuk menghormatinya sebagai seorang jejaka. Terima kasih Ya Allah, Kau telah membantu aku mengakhirkan segala penderitaanku. Semoga teman baruku, jauh beza dari dia... Amiiiinn

some more bulletins! Boy I'm really bored...

1. What phone are you using?
` LG320

2. Single, Taken or Married
` Single

3. What did you do today?
` Play games and blog and surf the net.

4. Who's the last person you talked to
on the phone?
` umm... MY MOM!

5. What time is it now?
` 16 05 hrs

6. Any plans for the weekends?
` Tutoring and go to my cuzzie's house i guess...

7. Who's on your who I want to meet
list?
` you, them?

8. Who's the 3rd person that sent you
an sms?
` Hanafie!!!

9. What song are you listening to now?
` When angels cry - Janis Ian. Feel like crying sia.

10. What are your nicknames?
` Amyra, amy, Putri, Putz? mira, Mirra, Seed, babi? nyaha. Ziza calls me that. dang her!

11. Who's the last person that sent
you a testimonial?
` maurice. That botak guy who doesnt smoke. Fie said his nick is Moo. So I think its COW.

12. Do you like your school?
` yea i guess.

13. Any teacher you hate?
` No. Ban Soon! pizza hutttt!

14. What is your weakest subject?
` 2D art fundamentals i guess. I suck. The arm in my painting doesn't even look like a hand lahhhh can?

15. What do you want to be?
` MAny2... Prime Minister of Singapore can? Singer, Actress, Somebody in the Islamic Architecture industry. And many more lahhhh can?

16. Any plans later on?
` Uhh... Cook?

17. Where would you like your future
house to be?
` KL. The avare. can? or at the top of the reef. Nyaha. or better, somewhere near putrajaya. as long as it is not in singapore. Gonna rent my flat in singapore and work in singapore until i get a good offer or i have owned my grand empire, but I'll live in any other country where they pray five times a day.

18. Do you have any interest in
politics?
` Yes. Y? Got a problem? See MP uh. Don't think he can do much though...

19. Where's the last place you've been
to?
` Streets around town and the fountain of wealth. I always go there but i dont know y i don;t get rich.

20. What time did you wake up today?
` 11.

21. What grade are you in?
` Not sure. serious. And i dont care.

22. Are you racist?
` haha. Depends. Sometimes.

23. Who's talking to you on IM right
now?
` No one. Dun wanna talk to anybody can?

24. What's your favourite date?
` 31 august, and 23 december and 1 syawal.

25. Why?
` Malaysia's freedom day, MERDEKA! birthday, and hari raya lah deyyyy.

26. Do you have myspace?
` yea

27. Would you rather be a popular btch
or a nerdy geek?
` nerdy geek

28. What do you own?
` Huh. Haha. Merepek. I don't own anything in this world. Everything i have belongs to Allah Swt.

29. Do you like to spend alot on
clothes?
` err.. depends.

30. Do you buy expensive stuffs just
for the sake of it?
` I don't know. I'm not that much of a spender.

31. Will you spend alot for the one you
love?
` Yea.

32. Your definition of money:
` Some stupid thing that everyone wants to have more of it. Its stupid. like soccer, every one wants the ball. But soccer is not stupid. People don't die because of soccer. People don't leave their responsibilities as a parent for soccer, people don't create war because of soccer, people don't forget God because of soccer. Sometimes, they only forget to sleep. But hey, That only happens once in 4 yrs. True?

33. Basketball or Football
` The ball with black and white pentagons lahhh.

34. Do you always log in to friendster?
` yea

35. Is this your 2nd or 3rd acc?
` I dont know. I create and delete and create again. A lot of times.

36. What are your current interests
right now?
` Cars, Islam, Music, Performing arts, My Fasting!

37. What's the font your using for IM?
` haettenschweiler. Its small. But i like it. Its cute...

38. What are you supposed to do right
now?
` defrost the chicken.

39. Who are your bestest friends?
` alot. But for now, its BARA. especially PEED! I sooo love her! can?

40. Are you done?
` Nope. Can I have more?

To Do Today...

Life without school is boring. Well it won't when you have company, cool company. I prefer to go to school then rot at home. I love school! (chants 3 times) Nyaha. Haven't return library books, haven't cook, haven't upload pics and download songs from my com to phone. Aiyyyak! How I wish there was someone to entertain me when I'm bored. Life like this ain't meaningful you know? People always said, live a day at a time... At this rate, it looks like gravity will take a toll on me soon! What in the name of God am I crapping about??? huh? huhuhuhu... Ok this is the reason why I am so acting like this. First, I am online. But! No cool guy is chatting with me. Cool as in "great"? I mean, "Gerek"... Nyaha. Oh! yea. Should look at my friendster profile. Who knows there are testimonials or comments for me??? you know what? TMR, My mom is going to buy paint to paint up the walls! OMG! nooooooo! Dang, I hate painting!

Yesss!

I found the song by Dewa! I love this song. The lyrics, whoa... menusuk hati! OMG. You guys should hear it, it's on my playlist. Satu by Dewa. Here's the lyrics.

aku ini adalah dirimu
cinta ini adalah cintamu
aku ini adalah dirimu
jiwa ini adalah jiwamu
rindu ini adalah rindumu
darah ini adalah darahmu

tak ada yang lain selain dirimu
yang selalu kupuja
kusebut namamu di setiap
hembusan nafasku
kusebut namamu
kusebut namamu

dengan tanganmu
aku menyentuh
dengan kakimu
aku berjalan
dengan matamu
aku memandang
dengan telingamu
aku mendengar
dengan lidahmu
aku bicara
dengan hatimu
aku merasa

tak ada yang lain selain dirimu
yang selalu kupuja
kusebut namamu di setiap
hembusan nafasku
kusebut namamu
kusebut namamu

I first heard this song when I was in my father's car. The Dj played this song. Quite catchy and my family loves it too.
If you open the track on imeem.com, people who commented on the song actually related the one, the songwriter is refering to, their lovers. You get what I mean? E.g, "kusebut namamu" The mu in this song is referred to lover and what not. But to my family, especially my father, this song is about God. Allah swt. He is One (Satu). In this song, if you translate it to English, it sounds like, everything of mine is yours. If let's say, the you in this song is your Boyfriend, It won't make any sense would it? If it was referring to God, then it would. Cos everything of ours, belongs to Him. "Disetiap hembusan nafasku" is of course an exaggeration to show or imply that we remember Him all the time. When we wake up, go into the toilet, eat, pray, sleep, etc, we will always say our prayers to him or at least we say "Bismillah" (In the name of Allah). Or when we yawn, We will always say "Allahu akhbar" (Allah the almighty) We do not say our boyfriend's name right? Am I not making sense?

I wrote this out of logic. No means to hurt anyone's feelings. I just want to convey what I feel is right. If you have any dissensions, that's up to you. But if you agree with me, LEavE me A taG Will Ya!!! nyaha... Happy Fasting, may all your good deeds be blessed by Him.

Relationship survey... (Found at the bulletins)

1)What type of person are you?
- Hmm, Wierd? Happy, family-oriented, truthful. Funny too. Random.

2) Single , Taken , Naked , or
Flirty?
= single

3) Are you happy with that ?
= yea I guess. But a BF wont hurt right? well, it depends...

4) Have you ever had your heart
Broken?
= yes. A couple of times.

5) Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating
is ok ?
= mmm yea. Tipu sunat?

6) Have you ever talked about
marriage
= ya. y?

7) Do you want children ?
= yea. d'uh!

8) How Many?
= don't know. don't mind.

9) Would you consider adoption?
= if i have to.

10) If someone liked you right now,
would you want them to tell you ?
= Why, Of course! Who knows if I'd like them back... haha. Life is unpredictable you know!

11) Do you want someone you
can't have ?
= Umm... Who? Alot!

12) Have you fallen in love?
= No. Crush maybe.

13) Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries ?
= umm yea.

14) Do you believe that you can
change for someone ?
= I believe if someone likes me, he will accept me the way I am. But it also depends, haha.

15) Is it a good day ?
= yup but tiring also!

16) Have you ever broken a heart
before ?
= Yes. Like just now I guess... But hey, wasn't my fault ok. If it was, then I'm sorry.

17) Does your ex still have feelings
for you ?
= I don't know...

18) Do you still have feelings for
them?
= No! Life has to go on rite? Dat's Life!!

Is it my fault? (niway, this is my 201st post!!)

Is it my fault that you love/like me?
I had never said I loved you or so
Nothing of that sort
Only that feelings were starting to grow.

Is it my fault that I can't return your love?
You were to engrossed in your feelings and assumed wrongly
Have you read my heart thoroughly?
I told you so many times when you assume, you make an ASS out of U and ME

Is it my fault that your heart is broken?
You were always ignorant of my feelings
You wanted things your way
Did you ever noticed the quantity of my heart peelings?

So sad I can't lie to myself
I don't love you
I always followed the flow
But what can I do?

God made me believe you weren't for me
God made me realize we weren't meant for each other

Entah Mengapa

Setiap kali aku ingin jatuh untuk kamu
Ada sesuatu yang menarikku jauh darimu
Yang dapat membuat hati ine keliru
Akan isi hatinya sendiri.

Tuhan adakah ini jalan untukku
Adakah harus ku menerima dia
Mengapa Tuhan, mengapa harus aku
Yakinkanlah aku

Acapkali ku terbaca
Surat-surat yang dikirimkan
Hati menjadi senang
Ingin sekali aku berada disisimu

Tetapi setelah beberapa masa berlalu
Aku jadi keliru semula
Adakah ini tersurat untukku
Tolonglah aku

Pemergianmukan membuat rindu
Namun keberadaanmu kan membuatku rimas
Mengapa begini jadinya
Sejak setahun yang lalu

Tidak dapat aku jelaskan...

When the time comes...

My head is spinning
My heart is throbbing
My body is shaking
Every breath of mine is shrinking

Put the past behind me
Ease all the pain that had been hurting me
You come to me with regret
I'd open my arms so wide, you'll never forget

Forgiving is all that I could do
I don't want our time to be wasted
With you being one of my hated
Let's just ask what if we are fated?

Then if we are
You'd bring me to the moon
You would turn a tear of mine into a star
Such that everyone could see from afar

Then if we aren't
You'd promise to be my guardian angel
Not letting me fall from your eyes
Praying that he would give me happiness of a lifetime

But then you wouldn't know
That you are my laughter
That you are my sorrow
That you are my everything, would you?

Embrace me with your care
Our sorrows we will share
For when the time comes
We will be together again...

Amy©

Hey3...

Guess what? Yesterday my father sound me again. He asked why don't I go for the Anugerah audition next year since I am of age? Hahahaha! Is my voice that nice? I'd probably make a fool of myself. Ok, wait... maybe I should go and see my standard. But no way I'm going to abandon my studies for stardom. Haha... Though I love the entertainment industry... Maybe I'll go for shoots, modeling, or writing songs and singing them, put it inside the net so that people could listen and rate. I love entertaining but I don't look forward to being popular... Seriously. Let me tell you something. My family have links to the entertainment industry in Singapore. My father, auntie and uncle are into acting. If i wanna act, they can give me offers. Which they had but I turned them down. Haha. OK I know what you are thinking. My cousin is into the music scene, he has arranged songs for Khairil Yusof. I am also related to Deanna Manto, the First Lady model who happens to be an actress too... haha. Maybe the time has not come for me yet. I would like to study first laa... Show to people who looked down on me and my family that I can prove them wrong. OKAY?

Arghhhhh!!!!

why everytime i read his blog, i feel so happy??? argh... confuse sia... confirm!

I'm movin' on...

I'm leavin' him behind. There are others who wants to be with me. Cried buckets and now I'm going to throw that bucket out of my sight! OK now im chatting with guys i know at friendster. hope all goes well. but no matter what, I'll hold on to what mdm marini told me. Pelajaran harus didahulukan. :D thanks cikgu... and thanks zima.

okay...

Things are going on well right now for me. It's the vacations and I am like free. But I'm tired okay. Just now, So many things happened... It was submission. But we pulled it through eventually. That's quite okay. umms... so. I thought for the second time. I shouldn't be angry at him cos he told me the truth. That was what I had always looked forward too haha... but you know, I'm still disappointed. I'll go with the flow lar... just go with it. Follow God's will. People, if you know who I'm talking about here, go see his blog. Haha... so funny!!! I was laughing all the way. Cute sia...