When I'm gone...
So long as you read this...
I miss you badly

It hurts...

I know how you look at me now...
I can't commit.
Neither am I ready.
I don't know what you think of me just now when you saw me.
Maybe you were okay with it.
Maybe you are not...
How can I get this into you...
How can I get my thoughts so that you'd understand????

Now I made up my mind...
I'm really going to know you better.
I don't want this to be the end for us...
I'll make you like my special friend.
If you really want it.
Until I get back from this holiday...
Until I get your answer...
Then We'll see...
You want me to treat you like how I treat my special friend...
I'll do it.
You'd just have to be prepared.
Get ready, Nafi...

But until then...
I'd cry to sleep tonight...
Tmr night...
Tmr Tmr night...
Cos I miss you badly

Stop treating me like this.
Don't make me regret ever accepting you.
Just Don't!

What A Day!

Today... Is a day of mixed emotions.
Just name me all the emotions...
I faced all of them in one day...
But since it was like a lot...
These emotions did not affect me that much.

Okay. So here's what happened.

Met up with Azeez and Emi. Were supposed to be having lunch with Aeynn in town. (Excited) First time jumpe budak kecik tu...
But when I got out of the house, I told myself "I look like a nyonya today and it sux. But nvm, nobody is gonna look at me... I'm not gonna meet anybody else I know...

Sure enough... I went to the MRT station and I saw Liyana, n Muhaimin and group. WTF?! (Embarrassment)

Met loads of people actually and here's the list...
Liyana, Muhaimin and grp - Pasir Ris MRT - Paisey LAr....
Harry - Bugis MRT - He is an IDIOT! haha... showed me that tongong face somemore! (Feel like i wanna fart on his face... can?)
Haziq - Topman - Huh? He work there? As what? why he standing beside the door? (Surprised)
Nuradee - Banquet Raffles hospital - Whoa...
Hanafi and moo! - Esplanade - Shocked! haha
Irshaad's bestfriend with his gf. - Citylink mall - Ok. Nasib korg shiok tgk kat mannequin tu...
Regina - Citylink mall - Tak recognise aku. k takper. Phew!
Rahima rahim (sr) - She taking the MRT?? - oh traffic!

Ok one wierd incident was at esplanade. there's these two guys not moo and nafi but just another 2 guys. Azeez looked at them and said they were checkin up on me. PFFT. Budak Kecik lagi lar korg! Pi main jauh2...

Yay PD TMR!!! Woohoooo!

Nauseous...

I want to vomit lah can??? I don't know exactly what is wrong with me...
Maybe it was because of the question Mr.BF shot at me.
I ended up dreaming of him yesterday... and GOD! It was a bad dream okay!

I dreamt of a snake which could talk. hmm snake??? Not really sure actually... cos there were different dreams and they somehow got mixed up. But i know this snake was green. haha. It was at night. There were 3 couples i think... including me and mr.bf. LOL. We were in a dark place. The other two couples were kissing, and... me and him was walking. Somehow the snake attacked me and mr.bf... I ran when a police car came and arrested me. For what i dunno. But then, my hands could slip off the handcuffs and i ran away from the police. Thats all I could remember... and i cried okay... Cos after that, I didn't see my MR.BF again... cos he ran away and the police couldn't catch him. So sad lahhh... Cryin in my sleep... lol. Woke up and i found it hard to open my eyes! PFFT. Thanks eh mr.bf!

My mom said if you dreamed of being attacked by a snake, it means there will be a marriage proposal coming. No. No marriage proposal today... maybe its because of my thought before i went to sleep last night...

Anyway... got new flip flops from ripples! PD! I Can't wait!!!

Aku Cinta Padamu, oh Puisi...

Mata Memandang, Terpaku...
Di atas lantai yang sejuk
Membuat tubuh bergetar...
Teringin sangat diri dipeluk

Patuh Agama, pegang adat
Tidak ingin menyeksa diriku
Lalu kulontar pandangan ku
jauh dari tatapan matamu

Yang menyenangkan
Yang penuh keikhlasan
Mengapa harus begini
Apa yang harus aku lakukan

Berikan aku kebebasan
Dari segala kerumitan yang membelenggu
Melingkar, merantai jiwaku
Aku tidak mahu dia tetap menunggu

Imanku kepadamu Tuhan
Lagi kuat, tak terdaya berdusta
Aku akan sabar, harapku begitu juga dia...
Tidak dapat dinafi kan, Jika benar dia cinta...

Christmas?!

Listening to: My December by Linkin Park :DD

Well happy birthday to Jesus(P.B.U.H)...
Happy Advanced Birthday to my mom whose birthday falls tomorrow. :D
Happy belated birthday to me, Farah Ashlina, Farhanah, Irshaad, My ex's mom, Taufik Batisah... who else? ouh Farhan, my Friendster friend... and all the December Babies! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y'ALL! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL CHRISTIANS... AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.
HOPE YOU GUYS HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT YOUR RESOLUTIONS... LOL COS I HAVEN'T!

So anyway, I can't wait to go to PD... EEEE Best nyer! But... I'd be darker when I come back. :( So sad then... Ah wth. Gonna have fun, man! Whats the use of going to PD and stay away from the sun??? The beach is calling me!!! I can hear it! Ahhhh....
WTH!

Its gonna be loads of fun larrrrr.... confirm cos Danny, my cousin, is following!!!
WOOT! PD HERE I COME!!!!
PS: padahal lagi 3 hari... PFFT!

I've got too much to say... too much to tell.
But you know what, some things are better left unsaid.
I'm a fickle-minded person also a forgetful one.
So I'm sorry if you think I'm a waste.
Cos im not!

Lol the last two lines are random. Don't mind me. I dun belong to the sewage anyway!

My new obsession... :D

Besides my new haircut... Another one of my obsession's is this.
I could only take a pic from the net cos i cant upload pics.
this pic is somekind similar.90 percent. The shape, color... blablabla...

My watch is called the scrolling tic i think... lol what a name...
But i love it :D thank you ibu!
Hope she likes the present i bought her *prays hard*

:DD

Mom bought me a fossil watch. :DD
For my birthday present.
My god.
My father told me she read my diary.
There was one page which I put there "I want a fossil watch... bla3"
I dunno what. Anyway that was years ago.
But anyway I'm thankful for that...

I was sad at first cos I thought my mom did not buy for me anything.
I cried for one night. Then I promised myself not to be sad about this anymore.
I love my mom no matter what.
My wish is that I can let my mother read my blog.


Anyways... had a good time just now. Went to school. To do project.
Then went to find my mother's birthday present.
Then went to changi airport to eat... with hanafi :D, alia :D, and Sarah :D.
Heh.
So fun!
Can we do it againnn??
Popeye's chicken for course meal and swensen's for desert.
And when i got back home...
A fossil watch was waiting for me.
Shocked like hell.
I wanted to cry but i couldn't...
Love my mom so... soooo much :DD

Was tagged by farah mardhiah so here it goes... Bloody hell...

Link to your tagger and post these rules. List eight (8) random facts about yourself. Tag eight people at the end of your post and list their names (linking to them). Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.


1. I AM RANDOM IN FACT...
2. I must fall in love with a 'Thing' before I buy it... lol.
3. My dream is to be known in this world in the entertainment industry. :D (revealed secret!)
4. I am a responsible person! hah. At least I think so.
5. I am unique? hahahaaha...
6. I love to make people laugh... its just addictive and works better than olay total effects...
7. I Am Vain... I love my reflection. :D
8. And I Am not whatever you ASSUME I might be... *how bout that?* :P

TAG! (I hate this!)
1. Uhhh Hanafi! Hehe... U have to do this!
2. Lets see... Azimah azman... heh...
3. you....
4. yes you....
5. the one sitting
6. reading this thing
7. Ya you!!!
8. You! You the person reading this particular death post! (hah mepek!)

*Please have the guts to do this bloody thing... haha... I did... i read my friend's blog and she tagged me saying "you! you the random person reading this blog! lol!" it was vague. There wasnt even my name. Just to have a clear conscience, i did this. See... im very responsible... haha wth

Cleaning Day

Cleaned the house lah sey!!! haha. Mop the floor. Tak tau aper mood. PFFT.
Self-volunteer maid. Maybe because i felt like one. I was left alone... in the house. With 3 small kids. I felt like a mom pon ader, a maid pon ader... haha... WTH

Nothing happening actually today... lol. Just that I can watch tv in my room. :DD Got Rtm 1, 2, tv3, ntv7, 8, 9, from malaysia and Tpi, SCTV, and RCTI from indo... Best seyyyy!!!! I love watching malysia and indo's shows... but i prefer malaysia... hehe... dunno y. If Indo, Alot of their drama's story lines are similar to hikmah... torture here, torture there... then happy ending... hey but I like the drama, Andaiku tahu. :DDD Acha, irwansyah and Rafi ahmad!!!! And the storyline... fuh! power! I cried for two episodes... cos so far i watched 2 only... lol... but so sedih lahhh... TT.... Wanna know more? Monday - Friday 7.30 only on RTM1! :D Saluran inforia anda! hehe...

Hari Raya Haji 2007

I will try my best to include every detail of what i did during hari raya haji which was like... so fun! ~At least I think so... haha... Look on the positive side... lol.
ok.. Where shall I start?

On the starting of the day, which was like when I woke up... The smell of Sambal Goreng greeted me... mmmm... so sedap... I went out of bed to find everyone slacking... ok. nvm. Thot this was supposed to be very... RAYA-ful... Anyway. My parents and matin(3rd bro) went out...for what i dunno. When they came back, they brought home a shaver and rice cooker! From harvey norman... Hmmm... weird! WTH. And then, We got ready and went out. First stop, Ang mo kio.

*(OMG my sister is so annoying right now! Her feet is beside the laptop! Wearing that white pumps... Asking me what color would be nice if she were to buy another one. Damn, She had just pulled my headphone! Sometimes i wish i was an only child!)*

Nothing much to do there. Just send the sambal goreng and sit down... *(and my sister is dancing beside me and Singing! Ah noise pollution! Can i kill her?)* then... Tried so hard not to watch 'Chah'. The first time i saw it, it was torturous.... TT ok so. then made a move and drove to town. WTH. Town! hari raya haji?! hahaha.... Org buat korban, kite pergi shopping... ish3... But this was to shop for my sibling's school bag for next yr. Since this was... *(Now my sis is banging the small Gendang! so noisy! I am so prepared to be the only child!)* the perfect time to do so... Cos on the other times, my parents would be working. So... no time later. They bought billabong bags. At bugis junction... BHG. My mom wanted to buy for me that Nike bag which I wanted. Even though it cost 52 bucks ~for that bloody small bag which i cant even put an a4 file in!! omg... So... It isn't worth it. So I persuaded her not to buy. Cos i know if she would've bought for me that bag, she will use it as a reason not to buy for me other things and say its my birthday present! I dun want!!!!! OK. Anyway. Since it was a holiday, town was packed with loads of people. And my father... who didn't like to drive... Swore all his might in the car... Cos of the bloody jam. PFFT. We, acted as if we didn't hear anything. Luckily, my 2 youngest siblings didnt follow us... They are fast learners u know... What comes out from their mouth, brings u aback. LOL. Shall not elaborate...

Then went to my cousin's house (mother's side) where a 'Tahlil' was held for my grandfather's death anniversary... by the time we got there, my pringles was 90 percent finished, and the tahlil was 70% done... Sat on the floor and held up my hands. but did not really focus on reading. Was sleepy and there were some distractions... lol. Baca Al-Fatihah pun dah tak betul... haha... Astaghfirrullah. Then eat the remaining of my pringles. with my uncle and my aunty, lol. My fave. Aunty, Widya's mom, she told us jokes which were so funny about taufik batisah, hady mirza and asian idol... esp guy sebestian when he danced like skank liddat... Cos we were watchin asian idol... haha... The rest of my uncles and aunties also followed. Me and my cuz, lili, also followed uh, ape lagi... Funny. Funnier than TEATER KOMEDI. Lol. Dah 3 pelakon dok dlm satu rumah. Kecoh....

Then after some time, went to my cuz, Zalillah's house for a visit. The first time in such a long time, i went there and made the house like my own. LOL. Always did so when i was young cos we were kinda close... now after a long time of separation... Missed them. God granted our prayers (me n nina's). :D And Zalillah's sister, Adilah, Got into Greenview. -.-" Of all schools! PFFT! Haha... Fyi Zalilah and me was from Greenview. LOL. Over there, the adults talked about.... Haj and... ghost. -.-" Of all things. LOL. Anyway. In all I had fun... :D It was definitely diff from any other hari raya haji(S) after all the years of separation... UNITY... :D What i had craved for.

So sad i couldnt upload pics cos i cant... the cable sot... n no bluetooth :(

So so so so....

I am so dead.
My song that I've create for my special friend...
Its ruined....
I need to find a new melody for the chorus...
Cos its bland!
PFFT...

My special friend... hmmm... his name is... Zizi can? duwan la... Izzy... yea nicer.. haha
Ok so... He asked me to write something about him in my blog... lol!
well i did eventually... here im writing about my friend Izzy... LALALA
Ok. So. He asked me to do loads of things about him... well...
I did... I wrote a song for him. But. I'm not letting anyone who is close to me listen to it first.
Including You Azimah! hehe. I know u are reading this!
Okay... Im not letting anyone listen to it before it is done (except for my cousins. they r my trusted crits.... lol) cos its a SURPRISE!
WHEEEEE....
im crazy, lol!

okayokay...

Happy happy mood mood... i dunno y! hehe...
2years 6 months... eh? i need a calendar mannnnnn.....
no! don't get me a calendar for my birthday! i got loads already... Unless u wanna give me a notebook... the color2 one... the nice2 one... the one from that bookshop at citylink... (hint2) lol! haha... No lah kidding... If you guys wanna buy me presents make sure it cost more than 1000 sgd not rupiah okkkk....
hahahaha... see! im crazy! i know... hahahahahaha.... biol nyer budak...
Oh izzy look what you've done!
Anyway... About the presents... i was joking... i meant 'make sure its worth more than Sgd1000000000000000 ok...

You know what it means? Make sure its priceless... God knows, you guys have already gave me that... Our long lasting friendship... Whoever reading this... you know who you are. Promise me our friendship will last for eternity, infinity and beyond... It would be the best, most valuable present of all.... And Keep your promises once made... Broken, considered sold... Sell you at Indonesia or Thailand uh.... haha

CRAP CRAP CRAP! What came out of my fingers i dunno... haha... Minum todi agaknyer budak ni... haish

Merepek meraban taik apek dalam? JAMBAN! Ban ape? Bantal! Tal ape? Talipon! Pon ape? Pondan! Dan ape? Dan-sing! Sing aper? Singapore! Pore aper? Po-peye! Pai ape? Pai... pye pye? (bye bye) heh.... Gile budak ni Whatafark??????

Saturay's BBq

Lol as expected, We only went for my family bbq and not the other 2. Bloody hell. Was damn bored. My cousins did not talk to me that much. BORING. Just wished that we were much closer like before... ouh Those days... Miss them so... Anyway. Could see that they were shy... so was I. And Khairil Yusof came. Now I know. My sis say my uncle is dating Khairil's sister or something. Not sure.. Anyway. Ate a lot. My father and mother chatting the night away. Me and my siblings with kids. Bloodyhell. Makan lagi Afdal... I wanna be closer to my other cousins like we used to. After like what. How many years i forget already... Missed alot. That lil cousin of mine, adila, treats me as if I am like, not her cousin. She said it was "kak fiza's birthday". I asked "Kak fiza?" Shocked cos i did not know kak fiza's birthday falls on the 19th of dec... 4 days b4 me. (ouh so shes like 1yr 4days older than me!) haha wth. then adila said, "ouh kak fiza is our another cousin. uhh her sister! (points to shima, fiza's lil sis). I was like... wth! I know who is kak fiza unless there is another kak fiza. Like hello! I am the girl who used to play with you when you were small! go to your house, sleep over... dance, play. And me n ur sis used to bully u! remember? Whatever we did! Ah nvm... Maybe you were too young to remember... NVM. Then i turned around and walk away. Nvr talkedto her again for the rest of the night... haha. Bloody hell...

I miss those days...

ASIAN IDOL!

Woot! Hady won!!!!! whooooo! So happy! Did not regret voting for him... Lol. I had always wanted Hady to win. Just to prove that the Malay people have the nicest voice... :DD Malay people can do it lah! Who say we are lazy bums??? The judges wasn't convinced that Hady, Phong Vy, or Abhijeet (india) would win. But Hey!!! Look who's holding the title. I knew he could make it... hahaha.... I just knew it... Satu Lagi Insan Yang Dapat Dibanggakan Oleh Masyarakat Melayu Islam. Semoga Hady Mirza Dapat Membuat Ramai Anak Muda Melayu Islam Berazam Untuk Berkerja Keras Sepertinya... Dan Semoga Dia Tetap Memegang Teguh Pada Adat Dan Budaya, Juga Agama... Dan Semoga Dia Ingat Pada Mereka Yang Telah Membuat Impiannya menjadi Nyata. Lebih2 Lagi Allah S.W.T. :D
And he is from TP! :DDDD

Sixth Sense

I nearly forgot to blog about yesterday's disturbia... lol

Went to Changi to fetch my mom from CAAS territory...
Went to the beach before that.
Was in the car. Alone. Everyone els was outside.
That was when I saw some small black thing running towards a tree infront of me.
I thought it was a small kid or something. ok...
Didn't give a damn.
Then I scrutinized at the tree. Did not see a kid.
Ok maybe it was my imagination. Forget it.
Went to fetch my mom and drove of to Changi village to eat.
Fine. Back home.
Opened the door. Assalamualaikum.
Went straight to change.
Forgot to wash my legs.
Went to the kitchen to heat up my KFC chicken.
Went back to my room.
As I was listening to Ria Misteri Jam 12 and talking to my mom and sis,
I caught a glimpse of something which is black. On top of me. \
crawling on the ceiling. ZOOM!
It was fast... okay... MAYBE it was just my imagination.
Went to the kitchen to get my chicken.
Went back to the room.
Went back again to get a drink.
Then I found out that the microwave door was open. I know I have closed it. Maybe I forgot. Forget it. Then there was a gust of wind which blew into the kitchen and made the hanging things move and clink. Okay. This is it, It's following me. Damn.
Went back to the room.
While eating and talking, I saw it again.
This time it was crawling at the wall on my right.
'Ni takleh jadi ni! Korg dah cuci kaki belum? Tadi masuk bagi salam tak?'

Silence.

Went to the toilet and wash my leg.
It was gone.
I knew it would go and luckily there was a gap in the window.
It wasn't closed properly.
I knew it would go cos in the room(mine)there was 2 ayat Kursi which My father hung.
And Some other stuffs to keep these things away. Like... different kinds of things lah.
Told my mom and sis abt the disturbance.
And there we go, our own Misteri Jam 12.
:D

Kenanganku

Hati kelam tidak diketahui
Mengejar bayang seribu batu
Didalam kesejukkan musim tengkujuh ini
Ku sangat merindui dirimu

Ku toleh ke kiri
Batu putih yang menyempitkan ruang sepi
lalu ku toleh ke kanan
jendela yang memberi cahaya sepi

Burung kedidi patah sayapnya
Terjatuh pula kedalam paya
Hati runsing wajah gelisah
Entah bila dapat bersua...

Hari-hariku sangat memenatkan
Aku hanya bermimpi, dihias tangisan
Andai dapatku merenung matamu sepuasnya
Akan hilanglah segala kepedihan...

My Imeem acc was hacked like... for just a while... :(

Luckily... I don't have any heart problems... Haish.
I log in to imeem. Well actually, I never log out.
Okay. So when I went in, it said "welcome, I'm a Gay. Fuck la"
I was so damn shocked. I thot it was one of my bro's mischievious plans to get back at me... i dunno for what. Let's just say he hates me, cos i like to order him around. LOL. Anyway. Yea so I went to check if there was anything unusual about my page.
There were Chinese songs... Bloody hell. I did not listen to them. Somebody really hacked into my account or maybe, it was just an accident, but I know the page was a hacker's page. Cos at the comments part, the diff ppl used their hacked acc to shout vulgarities cos the hacker hacked their account... like mine... PFFT... Then I posted a comment too. but I swore, okay. I didn't use vulgarities. Just said that... "To whoever did this, you are so gonna get it. Not now but later when you die! My GOD is so gonna make your life miserable!!!" then i logged out, And logged in to my another account at imeem... luckily it was okay. then I log in bag to the hacked account and it doesn't exist. WTH! bloody hell....

So many bad people out there... Bully poor girl like me. I know I'm too cute that you can't resist not bullying me... But Can you at least give some face??? :p
Kat skola, kawan2 nak campak aku kat dlm fountain... kat rumah adik aku bully aku... kat dalam internet pon org nak bully aku?!?!!

Final Destination 2

The movie... again and again. So gross. Thats why I'm blogging. My siblings are watching in and just by hearing them scream... I feel nauseous... OMG... I want to eat! Can? Haiz... Quite bored actually... My auntie just called. She's treating us to KFC today! hehe. So best. Anyway it's been a long time since we went to her house. And this weekend, there's my mom's friend's chalet. Then there's also a bbq planned by relatives from my Father's side. OMG... Confirm best punyer... haha... Dah tak jadi gi Melaka... Initially thot of staying at A'Famosa. But my mom's friend went to survey the place but it was boring. LOL. So maybe we go some other place in Malaysia. Bukit Merah maybe? Can we just go Johor... Johor pun okey aper... Haish... Ni nak pergi jauh2... Den the next day im schooling okay?! PFFT!

My current condition is: My head is spinning. Thanks to FD2. And you know what? I want to eat. But you know what? I dunno what to eat. There's food. I'm hungry. But I don't feel like I have the appetite. Can I save my stomach for later??? haha... WTH.

Happy birthday December Babies!

What baby are you?

---------------DECEMBER BABY ----------ME---
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character.!
one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music.

This is so truee lahhhh! If you wanna know what baby you are... tag and i'll forward you the e-mail. :D

----------------JULY BABY --------HIM---
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people ' s
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.
Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be with friends .. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never!
looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.

What?!

God! Is this true??? got this email from a friend

Dear Frens
All the below Masterfood Company Chocolate Products (Mars) are no longer Halal. They started using Animal product rennet(pork) in it for products that have expiry date after 1 st of October 2007.

Check this article from BBC News
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/business/6653175.stm
And this from the Vegetarian Society
http://w ww.vegsoc.org/news/2007/mars.html

· Bounty
· Celebrations
· Dove Chocolate
· Flyte
· Galaxy
· Kudos (North America)
· Lockets
· M-Azing (North America)
· Maltesers
· M&M's
· Mars Bar
· Mars Delight
· Milky Wa y
· Minstrels (UK only)
· Mars Planets (newly inroduced in UK)
· Skittles
· Snickers (The top-selling candy bar in the United States. Known in the UK as Marathon until 1990.)
· Starburst (Originally Opal Fruits in the UK.)
· 3 Musketeers (North America)
· Topic
· Twix
· Snicker's Marathon Energy Bar
· AquaDrops

Please forward this message to your friends.
Thanks

TSK! Majority of the chocs in the list are my favourites larrrr! Agh! Nanti macam pringles pulak, tak halal tapi actually halal... uhhhh mcm mana ni? My head was spinning before i log in to the net... now... It's spinning even more! Can I chop it offff???!!!! argh! pening nye!!!!

God!

Imagine. Searching for a perfect holiday and chatting with fidz about relationships is making me starve. And I can feel this hypotension coming. Gosh. Believe it or not, I coughed out blood. But was not serious. Just a lil bit... Maybe its the lack of sleep. For the past two days, i haven't been sleeping quite well actually. The day before yesterday, It was because I was waiting for a message. You jolly well know who you are. (Siape tertidur tu, terase lah ya! :p) Yesterday, was because my sister had her sinus prob. And mom was sleeping in my room as well. Imagine. I was in the middle. And both of them were SNORING!!!! OMG...

Chatting with fidz have resulted on me, writing the prev post. And somehow, Chatting with him has matured us in our thinking... hehe... Thanks fidz. Fie(Hanafi), Thank fidz cos if he didn't chat with me today, I won't post the prev post ok... Good boy!
hehe.....
K I wanna eat before I die.... bye

A new chapter in my life... A new book.

I am going to forget the past memories.
I am going to love like I have never did.
I am going to give my heart to him.
Because I know he deserves it.

I am bringing the lessons from the past with me.
And try my best to not repeat the mistakes.
Try to improve myself and my partner.
Its our love, maybe our lives at stake.

I am sorry to myself cos I kept reminding myself of the past.
I am sorry to him cos he suffered without me realising.
But I promise to myself I will not do it again.
I promise to him he would end the days smiling.

I'll Love him more... More than any guy whom I had loved.

I am so in love with you now.
I am not afraid to fall.
As long as you stay by my side.
You were all that I've wished for.

Hanafi.
I will treasure you,
every moment with you,
every letters you write for me,
every I Love You's you've said...
Everything of you...
I'd treasure them...
Dear in my heart.
For now, I'll promise you Forever.
I know you will too...



I am so fuckinly in love with you so badly even the bad words can't describe it enough!

WTH....

My father is like being some kind of shit now. He suck... I don't know what's wrong with him. Like one hr, he is okay, the next he comes shooting people down with his fucking mouth. He made me cry first then he made my sister. Bloody hell. What's the matter with him??? Because of him... Fie is affected. I have no mood to do things I was currently doing. I just feel like burying my head somewhere. Find my little corner and just CRY! I think he got pms or something. Menopause maybe. Bloody hell. Now he is okay... I guess... First, he did not wanna fetch my mom. And now he is going out. To fetch my mom. PFFT! Whattt is the matter with him?! Now he is out. I have my life back some how. Gonna check on my sis to see how he is doing...

....

ouh great she's okay. Few tears left in her eyes. Could see them though she was like trying to hide it. LOL. She's watching heroes s1 on channel 5. I'm watching heroes s2 online. Sisterly love... Awww....

Forgive me.

in 1 minute... hehe...

This is done to help my friend. LOL.

selagi ada cinta didalam benak ini,
sanggup aku merangkak kehausan,
menentang segala batasan,
merentas segala rintangan...
demi mencari cinta sejati.

pheeewit! i LOIKE! haha

Bloody pimple

I have two bloody pimples. Gonna get 3M's Nexcare tmr. Hope they work. They worked last time. Tried washing them off but no successful results... Anyway... This wont stop me from writing a poem... or puisi to be exact. :D

Kepala ku berpinar
Adakah in benar?
Segala apa yang ku inginkan
Dimabrurkannya dan kini dikesalkan...

Apa yang aku inginkan sebenarnya?
Kebahagiaan yang tidak seseorang pun dapat kecapi
Dimana perginya bumi yang kupijak
Segala yang didepan mata kupajak

Dengan apa?
Kebahagiaan yang seketika
Yang tidak dapat kurasa dengan hati nuraniku
Yang mungkin akan pudar membuatku kaku

Dimana dapatku cari semula kebahagiaan seperti dulu?
Seperti kera dicukur bulunya
Aku malu
Tiada Seorang pun tahu

Namun aku berjanji pada diriku sendiri
Kini... Aku kan mencari erti kebahagiaan itu
Kebahagiaan yang akan dapat aku kongsi bersama yang tersayang
Dimana aku tidak akan terlena akan kuasa yang Maha Penyayang...

Aku berlutut merayu
Akan keampunanmu Oh Tuhan
Berilah aku pedoman
Agar aku tidak akan sesat melayan syaitan

Wouldn't It be nice?

-If one day... I could make an album... with a band... I don't know which band but... with a band. LOL. Ahhh... Then we will bring many songs of different genres or something... Or... We'll stick to a genre at most.

-If one day... I could be a heroine of one of Datuk Yusof Haslam's movie? Just like Erra Fazira, Ziana Zain and Hetty Sarlene?

-If one day... I could set up my own cafe... Be my own boss... Hire workers and have fun...

-If one day, I could work with M.Nasir... Maybe he could write my songs... Hahahaha...

-If one day, I could buy a big house in KL, And live there with my family... No need to work... cos we have more than enough money... Hahaha...

Wouldn't It be noce If those dreams would Come True... But funny ain't it? I'm into design also... But to tell you the truth, the Arts flow in my blood more than design... How I wish people could see that...

Dream, Believe, Achieve (heard of that before?)

Singa vs Malay

LOL. watched Asean games just now, my sis, arina, was like so kecoh! haha. Cos one of the singapore strikers kept falling. and she was like "oi! lembek ke pe???!" and many more comments which was so funny! haha... i thot malaysia would win. LOL. But ended up its a draw. And singapore got to go to the semi finals too... wth. I am so PISSED with nothing! I'm kinda bored actually and i have not done my solat Isyak which I will be planning to do later. After I blog... Lol. You know... Solat is making my hypotension come back rather than be healed. Cos of the change of position... quite depressing actually... haiz... But no matter what, I would still do it. :D
My head is still spinning actually. but not that unbearable. LOL. Oh ya! that malaysian striker! Amirulhadi... OMG! So cutee laaar. The goalkeeper also! OMG!!! AMIRUL! I LOVE YOU!.... haha. He scored the goal for My. hehe. Fi... jgn jealous... hahah... I'll love amirul for a while only.. nanti kalau lama sikit, dah luper. confirm... hehe. Sorry Amirul. Wait... Why the heck am i loving somebody who i see on tv but he doesnt see me??? WTH. Amirah giler. K. I wanna do my solat oready. hehe. Bye!

crazy job

I've been playing this game while waiting for Rapsodi 2007. Verrry funny larrr. Crazy Job hahaha... conferm gerek... hehe... My dear, he's online... wheee... tak jadi tgk uh... dgr je... can? hehe

Hypotension

This is what I had found from Wiki. Thank you Wiki. Love Wiki so much. lol...
These are only some. not all... if you want to know more, go to this wikipedia.org and search yourself... haha.

What is it?
In physiology and medicine, hypotension refers to an abnormally low blood pressure. This is best understood as a physiologic state, rather than a disease. It is often associated with shock, though not necessarily indicative of it. Hypotension is not hypertension, which is high blood pressure, the opposite of hypotension. Hypotension is a fairly rare problem, hypertension is a much more common problem. Hypotension is usually not a serious problem, although in some cases it can be life threatening.

MECHANISM AND CAUSES
Reduced blood volume, called hypovolemia, is the most common mechanism producing hypotension. This can result from hemorrhage, or blood loss; insufficient fluid intake, as in starvation; or excessive fluid losses from diarrhea or vomiting. Hypovolemia is often induced by excessive use of diuretics. (Other medications can produce hypotension by different mechanisms.)

SYNDROMES. (some parts I comprehend, some parts I don't. Head is not helping...)
Orthostatic hypotension, also called "postural hypotension", is a common form of low blood pressure. It occurs after a change in body position, typically when a person stands up from either a seated or lying position. (some may experience it, I do. Always. But today's experience is not normal. It was worse... Really) It is usually transient and represents a delay in the normal compensatory ability of the autonomic nervous system. It is commonly seen in hypovolemia and as a result of various medications. In addition to blood pressure-lowering medications, many psychiatric medications, in particular antidepressants, can have this side effect. Simple blood pressure and heart rate measurements while lying, seated, and standing can confirm the presence of orthostatic hypotension.

Neurocardiogenic syncope is a form of dysautonomia characterized by an inappropriate drop in blood pressure while in the upright position. Neurocardiogenic syncope is related to vasovagal syncope in that both occur as a result of increased activity of the vagus nerve, the mainstay of the parasympathetic nervous system.

SYMPTOMS
The cardinal symptom of hypotension is lightheadedness or dizziness. If the blood pressure is sufficiently low, fainting and often seizures will occur. (well, I was about to...)
Hypotension, depending on one's own body chemistry and genetics, may often cause mild depression (damn! its really depressing i tell you...), mostly in regard to taking other medications which do not fit one's personal unique needs.

FYI: those in italics are what I personally experienced 2 yrs ago and today! Bloody hell...

See hanafi... your GF's life is threatened. Haha... But no worries. Mine is not at the severe stage yet. But its obviously not at the 'slight' stage. its some where around 2-3/5 since I have been experiencing dizziness when changing posture and when not. The shock part is true. And the irregular heart beat too. I can feel it.

Just so you know, the reason why my head is not really spinning now is because I had eaten. Gonna eat again and take some medication. My mom will buy me some vitamin B. Hope its like sakatonic ABC. you know got flavours.... mmmm yummy...

K so long... :D... Oh yeah 16 more days! (hint: Click :me:... hehe)
And 29-30 i'd be going melacca. Cant wait. Confirm on the 31 at school I'd be half awake. Or best still. At home sleeping. LOL... can't wait larrr. Get out of this boring vacation. Wait. Hope this hypotension won't hit me again!
Pray,Pray,Pray....

Head BANG!

Went to school this morning. The plan: To put my model in the studio, pay my fees and have breakfast with Sarah and Irshaad. But in the end, Sarah and Shaad did not turn up or call. PFFT. Then on the way home, BANG. My low blood pressure attacked. Well... I did not eat in the morning. But... Its no excuse... I can manage without eating breakfast. I just don't know how come It could attack me after being M.I.A for like almost 2 yrs! I was in the bus and I started getting dizzy and all... I had to stand! OMG. My head was spinning and I had to stand. Bloody hell. How great could my life be? I seriously don't know where did I go wrong... My head is still heavy... just slightly. well. What can I do? But this thing is sure bothering me lah. I can't go out with Fi today because of this. thought of following him to shisha. And he asked me out to play pool ok. Damn. I've been longing to touch the cue. Argh... My head.... Want to go and check out wiki about Low blood Pressure. '_'. Tatah.

Love what you do, Respect what you love. :D

PFFT

dum dum dum...
17 more days and I will be 17. whee. wow.
17... sarah is going to be 19 in january next yr and me?
17. uhhuuuu.... how young can i be?

theres too much to say.
but i dont know where to start.
Well... At least my darling knows it all.
Sarah... Where are you?
I miss my friends lar.
Miss them so much.
Ziza, Sarah, Fidz, Shaad... Farah... All the evd ppl. Harith...
Argh! Pls time... Go faster!!

Water Babies...

Ouh great. My neighbor's daughter came to our house.
I mean she is still in here somewhere now.
This is kinda bad and good. I don't know.
She's very cute and adorable.
But she likes to talk. Talk non-stop!
I prefer kids who don't talk a lot.
Why can't kids today become like me when I was a kid?
Chey... haha
I mean. Serious. I just sit down some place and play with my polly pocket.
In MY own damn world. I do not disturb anybody okay.
So why are these kids bothering me?
Why must they seek attention??? Go seek someone else attention lar.
I don't have the mood. Cos your mouth had just screwed it up.
It's not that I hate kids. But I hate it when they act too smart when they are not.
At least my lil bro, mikhail, can live in his own world and maintain being cute.
That neighbor's kid was like so irritating. She wanted to use the computer to play games. Mikhail was using it. Ya. So she thought she had to use it too. Its like, "if you play, Then I'll have to play too." Pfft. Kids. Ok fine. I let my bro use first. My lil bro knows how to control this computer. He knows what to touch and what not to. And when it came to this girl's turn, she started right-clicking, clicking every damn thing she could see when the game wouldn't work. She's like 1 yr older than my lil bro. OKAY! So I was freaked out. Luckily, I got hold of the situation pretty well and Phew, Luckily nothing went wrong. I told her "See! thats basically why I did not let you play games. What if you did something wrong and the computer crashed?!". She gave me this very funny look. Like her eyes went big. Her lips was in a circle.

Then I came to my senses. I'm talking to a 6 year old girl for goodness sake! Wth. Of course she won't understand. So I rephrased my sentence such that it became quite childish and she could understand. And you know what she said? "But I NEED to play the game..." 'What? NEED??? Are you sure? haha. You won't die not playing that bloody game you unruly little brat. Trying to act smart aren't ya. Can I flatten those chubby sheecks of yours?' That was what came to mind... haiz... Luckily she gave me that water babies. Lol.

And today... Ayah has a shooting with Screenbox. Can I follow? Who knows I could stand-in as extra? haha. LOLZ.

I so miss him.

Pretty or Beauty?

Which would you prefer?
Some would prefer pretty.
I'd prefer Beauty :D
What about you?

To me Pretty is just Face.
Beautiful is inside out.
It's beauty which makes a guy fall head over heels over you.
Cinderella wasn't pretty initially.
She was claimed to be ugly.
But she was beautiful.
Thats why even children believed her step-sisters are uglier!
Get what I mean? If you don't, Too bad you missed the train!

My pretty boy is here and His beautiful is coming!

Yessa!

Finished reading this book by Patrick Redmond. The puppet show. Very nice...
Hehe.
So now I'm chatting with my dearest Farra Hanan. :D Miss her so much lar.
Helping her with her DnT artefact....
Whee.

Anyway my head still hurts and I am hungry.
Confirmed. Melacca on 29 and 30. Damn. and 31 I'm schooling!
Argh... change date lar!

I miss you. Miss you so bad.

Yay!

I got a new slide show y'all! go and check it out! click :you:! :D enjoys!

OMG

Believe it or not.
He blogged about me.
LOL.
Bloody toots.
Not wrong.
But Calling me bontot berat?
Pfft!
haha!
I'm so gonna get him for this.
Well. At least he blogged.
Thankful for that.
At least I know that my trips to his blog aren't worthless.
:DD
Love you laa sayang.
But right.
I dunno how to show it to you.
I Can only say.
How can I show you.
We hardly meet.
And I am afraid.
That if these three words are said too much,
They would not be enough.
But in a nutshell,
I want you to know this.
I love you. :D

Gosh

Mood: Crazy (In a bad way)

Gosh. I am so lethargic today. Planned to go to school to pay my fees and meet hanafi:D but the plan was backfired by my physical state. Didn't feel good today. Argh. Ended up watching Vietnam vs Singapore's game. Bloody hell... Singapore kencing manis... though the score right now is 3-1 with Singapore leading... but Vietnam also kencing manis... Own goal. LOL! like wth. I can play better. Nyeahahaha. Ok wtf. I'm talking about soccer? Many things happened yesterday but I did not get to blog. Server down. LOL.

My Cussies from Australia are coming down this Jan. Woohooo! yippe yay yay! And now I'm tutoring one of them online...
wtf! ahha

Oh did i mention... We're going to Melacca with my mom's cliques at work -.-" Y not KL??? But I'll enjoy the company though! wheeee. Cant wait! Convoy Convoy...

Little Miss Happy

Was on the phone with Hanafi:D yesterday night. He played the guitar lah sey! woot! Sooo sweet lar his voice... One of the songs he played was cancer and we sang together. heheh... Sweeet...

I think We have some telepathic communication going on here. LOL. Cos everytime I wanna give him a text, I'll receive one from him. The SAME time! Just now, When I log in to MSN, He logged in too. LOL.

I wanna go out with him lar can? Heh. Imagine.

A day out.
Just chilling in some open space.
Enjoying Nature at it's best.
Bring my sandwiches, snacks and drinks.
He'll bring his guitar.
We'll sing a song.
I'd hope very much for that special day to come.

Sing for me everynight before I go to sleep
Will you?
I love my bassist lar... heh.

Damn! He's eating Ritter Sport! Bloody hell...

wait. I got an email. It says men are hard to please.
"If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u."
Issit true? If it is true. Then... Can I not love hanafi?
Cos I don't want him to leave me.
Please?
Cos if he does... Then I'll cry a river.
DAMN.

3rd post in 2 hrs

Lol. This is how bored I am.
Listening to songs. "If that's okay with you" by shayne ward is nice. Totally!
If only he would sing it to me...
Wouldn't it be nice.
Haha no shame. But seriously its nice.
Esp this part.

im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you

Done some thinking.
Gotta go to school some day to pay the fees.
Broke.
But Mom's not! nyayayaya.
LOL.
Want to go to town to Enjoy the scenery.
Wouldn't it be nice?

Gosh. Can't wait to give him a call.
Can't SMS. Call larh.
Haha.
Gosh.

The night when I just can't let myself hang up the phone is coming.
I can hear it knocking on the door of my heart.
Pleading to go out.

Random shit:
Harith has very good memory. At least he doesn't forget things about me :D
suker. suker!

In PAIN

Cool. Just finished reading Farah Ashlynna's blog. Very Nice. Hope she doesn't stop blogging. Her entries are like sometimes short and sweet. Sometimes Long but it keeps you reading. Unlike Mine. I don't know if you guys really read the whole thing. Haha. But I do believe some loyal readers do. Haaaah. After reading Farah's blog. I don't know what exactly I should do. My tummy is really not helping. M. Its red week. Blugh. Ouchouchouch.

Tell me what should I do to kill time! Go out with him? Meet him? Argh. So troublesome. I love to stay at home. Can I just ask him to carry me everywhere? WTH. Sorry for being so lame.

Im in pain. Remember? Excuses. Argh Boring Shiet.

Looony

Ok. The title is so random shit.
Anyway.
Helped Siti Sarah obtained a Web Counter For her blog.
At last! After 5 Damn long Months of Procrastinating!
Nyayayayaya....
So. Today... I found out about something.
SHOCKING!
My bill went up by $60. From 30 - 90. DAMN.
I Distinctly remember Sarah asking me.
"Hey. If my hp bill goes up to $60, is it okay?"
I said, "Yea! Of course, I think... Mine is usually 30."
Now it's 90. PFFT. Luckily my mom did not scold or nag or do whatever mother's might.
GOSH.
I feel so bad.
I'm now going to send 10 Sms a day. Receive only incoming calls. Make outgoing calls lesser. Like less. I don't know how less. I think I make calls through my home phone. Better. Unless if Im outside and it is impt.
Ugh! This sux.
My stomach is in pain. Bloody hell...

In Pain. Really.
In Need. Of a company.
I wanna go to town to sketch.
But It keeps Raining.
DAMN.

In PAIN. SeriousLY

Vivo and Sentosa...

First we went to Sentosa... :D the plan to Mt. Faber was canceled... cos Mt. Faber is too far. Though it seems near but hey... Other people go to Mt. Faber from harbourfront by cable car and you want us to walk? Are you sure??? haha... ok anyways... the entry fee was on Harith. Whee... People do work, me, ziza and sarah took the two trams. First to Siloso Beach, the next to Tanjong and Palawan Beach. :D Had fun riding the trams. The drivers were 'friendly'... Sarcasatic sia. Sarah asked how long would a tram ride take to go the whole round... The driver said "three to four Days..." Thanks eh! haha... but he was joking... we know that. heee. Then sarah wanted the class to take the tram ride together. after much assuring and pleading, heh, we got to ride the tram another time. wheee... haha. (tu pon suke) then went back to vivo by the skytrain. The guys working there were cute but non of us girls said anything. until... harith, our lecturer said "eh, mamat2 kare sini cute2 eh?!" Shocked uh at first... then sarah said... "Tapi pendek. lagipon mamat kat marina tu lagi cute! bawak model of his work... very nice..."
"Ya! he is like the taller version of you" i said. "But with no...." then sarah did some finger wiggling to show hair. hahahaha... she means facial hair. so anyway. Vivo was quite okay too... The guys who were supposed to do work didnt do lah. Like what they were doing i dunno... lol. For the three and other some of us, we didnt have to do cos we did our stuff yesterday. much expected, today was quite boring. Not as fun as yesterday. Thats all then ate at banquet. ya... that all... boring right? but the tram rides were fun. I can sit at sentosa for a day just taking beach tram rides... hahahaha.... bedek sey!

We met... At last...

Wheee... (this 'mimpi illyana' is really bothering me... it's nonsensical. her English is like so the kampongish...) okay... here's what I did just now. Ate spring chicken at 2 am in the morning, slept at 3... (Hey! i'm talking about today... 2 am in the morning is still considered TODAY! hehe) woke up at seven. Got ready by 8. slacked and packed my bag until 8.50. Head to the mrt station. Reached city hall MRT with Ziza, met those people at the escalator part outside the mrt station...

~oh yeah. This is like one occasion which happened in the MRT. We were somewhere after Paya Lebar... And In the morning, as i was slacking, i read the yesterday's Today paper and there was an article about the MRT after Paya Lebar being so noisy... Well it's true... cos fidz called. He asked if he had to 'tap-out'. I think he was like covering his mouth and shout at the same time, so it wasn't clear. anyway it was noisy... I was like "HUH?! LAPTOP?! HUH?!" haha all i know it sounded like eh-oh... u know like teletubbies... haha. Passed the phone to ziza n dier pon 2 X 5 dol! ahha... But she managed to figure it out. Lucky her.

so. back to my schedule... Went to have breakfast. Harith brought us to this Muslim restaurant in which the food was totally disgusting... haha... harsh uh... but serious... rabak dok! eeee.... wont eat there anymore in my life. waste my 3.50 and i ate like a couple of spoonfuls... omg. The restaraunt was like, formerly Islamic something... Ok anyway... next, we went to the Esplanade Park, then Merlion park, then singapore river... Ate ice cream... whee... then... went walk2 with the 4 kids to marina square to meet alia... then go millenia walk then city link mall and meet Hanafi :D Thanks to SARAH! then... Went to school with him to take my model... It rained.. lol... We wanted to walk to the interchange cos i did not want to board the packed bus... Don't want my lovely model to be squashed... haha. lol. 2/3 to the 291 bus stop, it drizzled. my model had a new polka dot design on it. -.- He helped me alot in managing that model... haha... luckily he followed me... Thank you darls.... yea... so he waited till I board the bus. Then got this bloody idiotic guy hit my model! luckily, nothing was damage or impaired. I don't want it to look bad during the open house showcase... haha.... wtt...

Weiiii....

I am slacking mannn.... I am rotting... You know, I got a lot of things to put in my blog... A lot of Ideas... but then I forgot them... haha... So sad larrr...

I wonder what the guys are doing... Fidz, bola... Sarah, kerje? Ziza, Rot at home... Shaad, tah... tv kot.. Farah? HuAllah HuAlam... haha... Koosmangat... Anyway, Let me see... I am bored. you guys have any Idea what I should do? Anything legal besides working... Go online, watch movies? Watched movies just now, Kuntilanak and GGPP... So scary man kuntilanak! Want to watch enchanted uh... later uh... When I'm busy, It gets too Busy, and when I'm bored, It gets too bored.... How is Mdm Marini doing? Long time since I've heard from her... Random sia... Haha! anyway... gtg now. Ran out of Ideas and Inspiration lah... k tatahs!

Gosh... Apologiesss

Read his post... Damn... I feel so... Useless... Many things are running through my head, my emotions... It's all going haywire... !@#$% Damn! I am so so so sorry... Seriously I didn't know.... I thot he was having fun with moo, and tom, and all... but turns out that he was like... BORED? Well... He watch enchanted with someone... I dunno... He told me he was with his friend earlier at bugis. So, I did not think it would 'kill' him... Damn I feel so useless...

Its not that I don't want to go out with him, he knows I'm busy... Well at least I'm not now. But I'm not totally free... I also have somethings... DAMN! I don't know how I should make it up to him... Oh GOD! Difficult having a Boyfriend isn't it... But this was my choice... What can I say? To whom can I complain? Just finish off where I started... I'll try not to let him hang on breakable threads... Peels my heart to read his post... So there are some things this r/ship lacks. Seeing each other physically for him, and for me, Its showering words to me. I love it when he showers me with caring words in his messages. It puts me to sleep, in happiness... If can, those are the words I'd like to hear when I'm lying in my deathbed... The words besides 'AsyhaduAllah Illaha Ilallah, Wa'asyhaduanna Muhammadar rasulAllah' The words which he'd create on the spot, or he found in his outbox/drafts, or he took from a song... I'd love to hear or see them every night before I close my eyes... At least if I die in my sleep, I'd die smiling... I care for him, I really do... I really, really do... I don't know how I can prove it to him, to myself... I'm not in the place to do so... Somethings are bothering me... I prefer to run... I know, he once said, I could not keep things to myself, this is no longer me alone... whatever happens, it affects him too... I still put his words dear to my heart. There's this thing about him. He never lies. The only lie, is when he is sad but he still laughs. maybe i do that too... Thats why... It's hard for us to see, to imagine how the other would be feeling because there are always laughter. Esp in our smses. Thats why i did not know that he was feeling down just now... It's been a month+... We'll be happy for a long time... I'll do my best :D

Wheeee......

Edited some pictures to upload at Friendster.com and to print... I want to frame them up... so cool... :D Anyway, here's some sneakpeek, the rest, go see at friendster okay?
heh...



Anyway, was supposed to eat Pizza today... but canceled... Damn I'm bored already... You know I have been doing one particular thing today, of all the things that I have to do, write "THE QUICK BROWN FOX JUMPS OVER THE LAZY DOG" like a lot of times... haha... To practice my architectural handwriting that is... Cleaned the kitchen and toilet up just now... Cooked... Wash my face umpteen number of times like a sick person... Beware! I am suffering of OCD! (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder!) Whheee! haha... NAQIA, My sec 4 classmate always claims that I have that disorder cos I'm vain... Can't see a mirror... If I do, I'd look at my reflection and embrace it! Jahaaaa! But I think I still have that disorder now. But I was not that obsessive for the past few months during my P1... Cos I was like in that bloody studio approximately, 10 hrs a day! 8 hrs sleep, 2hrs break/eat, 1 hr journey, 1 hr wash-up/refresh, 2 hrs tv... that was my pathetic schedule during P1! haha... Bloody hell...

Whoa... tired... "Wo hen ley!"

Just came back from my grandma's house in Ang Mo Kio... It took like what... 17 songs = 4mins x 17... approx. 42 mins +-... bloody hell... did I mention that I hate to ride in the bus for too long? Went to Nenek's house and then help her clean up some stuffs cos she's going to shift house soon... yea... so we cleared her store, threw away at least 4 big black bags of things. The bags are like BIG, mind you... And I'm so tired... Then now waiting for my father to come home soon so that we could go out again, to S.Effendy's son/daughter marriage... Damn! Hope to see familiar faces there... :D

Very BAD DAy...

I apologize to those who were affected by my attitude today. Maybe I had a rough start for today. Woke up late for school and shit happens. So yeah. My model was selected for open house. Going to persuade my dad later to drive me to school at night. So here's the list of the bad events today.

-My course vice-chairman was acting like a bloody fool. Bombarding that poor Lydia (the girl whom I helped with her project cos I had some empathy for her.)though she never 'touch' him. Okay maybe she called he and his friends CMI (cannot make it) but that was because they were teasing her and her model. Thats so bad, man!

-Were supposed to take down our pin ups at 12.30. 12.15 we had to do some reflection. But... these group of girls took down their pin ups at 12.15 and everybody followed suit. Instructions were given but we 'defied' them. Harith, our lecturer, was so upset, he told us to pin up our drawings again in 5 minutes. At first no one owned up when he asked who took down the pin ups first. I wanted to own up cos I didn't want the whole cohort to suffer because of some childish behavior of someone not owning up to their mistakes and the others have to carry the consequences along with them. But I didn't when I thought for the second time. This is because, I had told Harith that when my group had stepped in, the room was half empty already. If I were to own up, it would be obvious that I am lying. Anyway, its done though and the girls have apologized... But still the vice did not do his damn bloody job! I recommend that Harith change the bloody committee. In a Malay saying, Harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi atau makan gaji buta.

-I was with Ziza and we were at level five, heading to the studio. Ziza was bringing my model. The width of the pavement for us to walk was really small and that bloody Leonard and Sean was like in front of us and leonard go and ride the skateboard Sheryl was holding and BAM! He broke my model. FARK! Bloody hell... At that point of time I was so angry that I swore that he'd fall down from the skateboard and fall down from the fifth floor. Then I was like cursing him. Like Fuck lah! I help your stupid friend, the one they suck-up to a lot, to bring his model up before the MOI people destroy it, and this is the treatment? Where is the damn bloody respect man??? Go AND FUCKING JUST DIE LAH!

-Just got a nagging from my mom because my 4th sis complained to her that my 3rd bro hit her. Fuck lah. Just go and DIE, people... Stop Bothering me and my FUCKING life can??? FUCK YOU!

Hahahahaha

I was laughing, reading my previous posts. As you can see, I had added my Past and archives... Hahaha... they are like so funny. Couldn't believe it was me typing all those words. My english was better then though... Hope it's not that bad now... Is it?
Anyway... F.Y.I for those who read my previous posts... I wanna inform you guys that things between my relative in my father's side and my family are going out well... We are starting to be closer. And hell it feels quite good to forgive and forget. My only problem now is Hanafi. Well... not exactly problem... maybe i should give him a call tonight... cos i haven't been answering his calls... nyeheh... sorryyy awak... :D

Presentation... the second day...

Bloody hell!
you know what? know what?
just now... presentation was quite okay... entered design space, listen to people's presentation... etc etc... comments was allowed from the floor. so basically, me, hafiz and sarah did most of the 'bombardings' for the malays and then for the chinese, it was leonard and sean who did most of it. That was fine until it was some guy's turn to present. He presented okay, though he was quite nervous. But when sarah asked him why he chose to abstract something unrelated to the site, he was... lets say, quite mad. He thinks his work is great and that he is the head, so he should be feared? like who the fuck are you? i dun care what you are, who you are or where you are from. As long as you are not good, i'll give you a straight-forward comment... and if you and your so-called 'step-cool and step-funny' friends don't like it, then convince me! Don't pull faces or stare like as if you are unhappy cos it spells "C-O-W-A-R-D" on your forehead when you do so. If you don't understand the question, ask... we can repeat. Don't act like a smart Aleck and throw us down cause you are subconsciously pulling yourself down! Bloody idiotas. Don't you understand what Constructive Criticism means? you are suppose to accept and learn when you can't answer or convince. Don't tell me when you become a designer one day, and when the client isn't convinced, you'd pull your face! Then you'd be labeled "UNPROFESSIONAL"
So, as what my lecturer would say, "If you want to be a smart Aleck, then you are in the wrong place. Go to a JC then. Don't come here. In design school, we have no time for smart Alecks" ni uh k.d....
ok i chow first!

Mommy! Its over!!!!

At last! as what the title would suggest... yes! it's finally over! two fluking months of dreadfulness and doginess... Well I'm tired and i need to pay my beauty sleep! i got panda eyes, oily skin, full of blemishes on my forehead and cheeks. but not that obvious though! thank god! Ya soo... at last i went shopping... for shoes! :DDD and also my facial wash. the current one is so like not helping! Like, like, like duh! haha... just now when i present, i use a damn lot of "like"! FARK! ahah... the lecturers bombard me with quite a number of qns, but i could manage!... nyaha... the only minus point was my storyboard. i knew it sucked... anyway... harith liked my idea! so did kk! haha... harith said i'm sensitive to the site... Wheeee.... i know... haha. so cool lar sey.... then kk said overall, my presentation was okay. i dun care, as long as i like my idea and as long i dun get to repeat this p1 thing, im doing just fine! at last its over!!! woot!!! im going to have fun like I never had before.... i dun care! haha.... so happy lar sey... but at the same time tired... going to sleep... sleep and... SLEEP! haha wooot! imagine how happy I am!

but then right, I feel sorry for sarah, farah and candice... their presentation rabak seyyyy.... sarah pon ngah bad mood... haizzz ape khabar kau sarah? its okay... i don't think they'd fail lah. hope for that... i mean imagine uh... you done the work for like 2 bloody fuckin months but then when you submit, the lect says that he doesnt like your idea and that you have a long way to go... i mean if i were to get that comment, I'd feel wasted too... sacrifice your sleep and health... and this is what you get! it's like FARK! but anyways... i'm happy!

:D

sorry i haven't been blogging... been busy with projects... nyahaha... okay... i have one thing to talk about... jeng3... relationships... Nyahaha... recently... i met alot of people with dating problems. One of them is my cousin. Now i have a question to ask... If you guys go out with your bf/gf... would it be a cheap one or a very expensive one? for me... maybe at this point of time, it would be cheap. First, I'm still depend on my parents financially, secondly, I think cheap dates may be more meaningful. Cheap dates, to me, are the kind of dates where you bring your partner (or vice versa) to the beach or sight seeing... you know those kinds of things where you don't have to pay or at least, a lot... instead of going to fancy restaurants, doing fancy stuffs like horse-riding, golf? bla3... anyway, who dates playing golf? okay maybe there is... but... WTH? ok. ya back to the topic, maybe expensive dates can be sweet once in a while... ok lets change the topic!

which is better? meeting him/her everyday... like a river which doesn't stop flowing... or... give him/her an sms or two a day... so that he/she would remember/know that he/she's still yours... but still call or meet him... but not everyday... which one is better??

answer me!!! :D

*Sigh*

Damn I have been so busy this week... So busy, I didn't have time for MR.H... Sorry dear... :D make it up to you next week k? next week is my last week of school! yeah! but... I still have work to do now... BZ BZ BZ... Gotta get back to work... Tomorrow i'm going to watch pentas... :D

PENTAS & P1 !

OMG!!! I AM SO PRESSURIZED!!! How could this happen to me??? kenapa pentas have to be on the 16th??? why cant it be after my p1? ya Allah!!! Apa kejadah niiii.... Aku boley naik gilerrrr... that means i have to take one day off my production? kalau kerje aku tak habis, nak salah kan siape? siape???? the organizer? my friend who made me end up in dk? me? who? nobody! i can't blame anybody! but if i fail, it would be one BIG damn bloody problem for me! this is P1... MAJOR project... M-A-J-O-R... If i fail this, all my hard work will not pay off... i dun wanna retake this 2 month project thingy... I wanna proceed... to the next level with my other coursemates... I'm sooo dead! bloodyhell... what shall i doo? maybe i'll have to manage my time. VERY CAREFULLY... gotta prepare timetable... for my production.... lalalala.... go out of training by 8? haha what the toots... okay maybe 8... or 8.30? ok 8- 8.30... i still have to do my project ya know... then on the 16th, lets hope it doesnt take the whole day... maybe when im done with my performance, i head back straight to the studio to do my work... ask for early dismissal... :D can? After that, I QUIT! itu lah... cikgu dah cakap... jangan join cca yang high commitment...degil.... kan dah susah sendiri...

These few days

I have been a busy bee... finishing up my model and stuffs. Its project 1... major project ya know... been in school like 10-14 hrs a day... from 8 am to 10 pm and sometimes 11... haha... i have loads to blog about actually... but i dunno where to start... haha... i dunno lah... i am so damn tired today... sorry for not blogging... :D i promise i'll blog tmr! :D

Aiyee's open house!

Wheeeee.... had fun just now listening to uncle2's crappy ideas about how to make money... nyahaha.... One of the ideas was to become human statues at joo chiat during puasa next year. one pose like 'imam' with a tasbih so that people would give you money... cos you r an 'imam'... nyaha... wth... second one pose like japanese samurai who keeps saying potong kepala whenever people give him money... haha... met effendy (anugerah skrin)... my cuzzie's friend... :D

yippeee

today im so happy larr... finished my model but not my drawings... nyaha... then lepak at school hear the stupid band sing... drumstick pecah, cymbal pon jatuh... sound system dah lah pekak! (jahat nyer aku!) anyway... it sound real bad that when it came to the second song, we belah and lepak at pondok ok! Then rain... stuck at the pondok... ehem... then i sing... then the rain subside... haha... mcm betul jer aku! was stuck with moo and andi... cute guys! haha. see too many cute guys lah today... got another 2 more... oh so cute! haha. Ok stoppit! kecian nanti Mr.H kiter... jealous nanti susah tauu... haha... ok anyway... ate sardine puffs sold at the drinks stall with cold nescafe. OMG! POWER LAH SIA! woot! then chit chat with Harith, my fave lecturer! we chatted about EVD and what we should do to it like set up a committee... haha... give ourselves a name. EVD crew? Urban Guerillas! haha... I like that name. Guerillas are anti-system people. Thats what we are. System ok! not other things. Dont get the wrong idea and sue me! haha.... ok anyway... lepak in school till 8. Had a friendly debate about racial stuffs with jason and sean. Cute guys. Me, I was armed with my mouth and sarah was there too... we bombard like hell! haha.... serious... should have it recorded on tape or something. haha. tape eh! anyway, we won the 'debate'. Self-considered winners! haha... but really. Jason told us... the malays their wedding got kompang all... noisy sia... You know what i told him? I told him "eh hello! thats only a day... or less than a day! then the chinese, die also make noise... tong chiang2... 3 days 2 nights you nvr say!" Everybody laughed...was that a good point or what?? nyhahaa

:D

heyyey... watched HSM concert just now... like so fun like dat see the casts sing and perform on stage... how i wish i was one of them... surely... I'd have so much fun! woot! haha... (berangan pulak dah budak nie) Yikes! i'm happy today... dunno y... :D maybe because of the comment i received at friendster today... aye! vote taus jgn tak vote!

Anugerah LIFE!

heyheyhey.... Vote for my father. L10... send an email to produksimatahati@hotmail.com and state L10. :D

OMG!!

What am I thinking??? I'm slacking from like morning!!! Like hello! I have submission tmr. Like TOMORROW!!! Argh! Amirah! Come on! Wake up! Somebody!!! HeLLP!!!! Yikes... I've been watching videos of Gol& Gincu Since last night. 2 series. So addictive. Funny and all... I guess I'm a bit of like Shasha... Haha. Cute girl... maybe bitchy sometime... but hey... I love the series... Anyway... Better head on to my assignments... they are so driving me crazyyyy.... ughhhh!

Slow melow...

I dunno whats up with youtube tonite... It seems to be downloading like slower than ever lahhh. OMG. Pls... When is that Mister gonna go online... im like damn bored already, I might just doze off... Okay wait! By def and Fendi were champs in live the dream! Gerek! woot! Taufik, Hady, Fendi, By Def. This proves that Malays are very good singers! Okay sorry... This sounds racist to you? Nah im not being racist... just stating the facts. Haha... Woot... Im so happy... And i cant wait for the gig on 3rd nov... he's performing! yayayyayaa....... lalalala....

:DD

Guess what? Today is the day... One very great day... The start of a new beginning. After a long boring chapter of my life... Now I do not need to search High and Low... :D It's here in front of me... :D

First met MR.H

eye to eye...
Went to WS to see him. Ate at KFC and he eats slow. Like me. When I see him eat, I can easily be full. Couldn't finish my O.R Fillet cos 1. The bread is not nice, 2. Look at him eat, 3. I was quite full when I went out. I dunno how I could be full uh. But I only ate 2 sardine curry puffs. :D Okay... Then we went to the arcade. That was when the paisey part came. We played daytona. Automatic gear. But I use the gear. Then he ask me why I use the gear when its automatic. I was like "ouh damn I forgot this is auto." But I did not tell him tt uhhh ahah... I was too paisey oready... -.-"

happenings....

Today... was so happening for me... My mom woke me up at 6.45 in the morning to cab to tampines mart to buy Lamb bones and some other stuffs. Went to school after that, which was like... at around 8.20 A.M. Went to school with nothing to present at KK's class. Then went window shopping with sarah and ziza. Findin sarah a new pair of specs. Which there was none which she was interested in. Im so tired. *yawns*. Then for ADT, we went to SMU and National Museum Of Singapore. Toots. I can't type anymore... I am sooo sleepy......

Cinta Arjuna - Aliff Aziz

ku peluk indah manisnya cinta, Semuanya terasa indah,
Bagai di alam cerita cinta,Hadir bahagia selama-lama

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami, Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya
Mengapa kekasih,Tiada kau percaya, Kebenaran cerita kita
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami, Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya
Mengapa kekasih,Tiada kau percaya, Kebenaran cerita kita
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri
Ooooh... Percayalah bidadari.....

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Only one...

Yipeee!

I don't know what am i happy about... Haha. CRAZY* I'm supposed to do my project but I ended up here instead... WTH... Going to eat later and Sarah's favorite word today is Taik! omg... She used that word a long time already but today she used it many times... I dunno y. Go ask her. Haha... Above are some pics of me and me family.
OK stoppit. I know my sister is so much better looking than me. But hey... Look who's the Big Sis!
Oh wait! Gosh i forgot i'm in the sch lib. So... soreee cant upload. shall do it lata!

Sneak peek

This is what i did during the first day of hari raya 2007. My uncle become the photographer, me... the model. Haha!

Hari raya 2007

OMG. Hari Raya this year is so happening! Met a lot of relatives from both sides of my family. :D so happy larrr can? Not forgetting my father's foster mom in Ang Mo Kio. My father's cousin who had just came back from Bahrain also came back! OMG! so fuunnnnn. If compared to last year... This year is better cos this year, i dun have 'o' level! haha... Saw Khairil yusoff at my cousin's house. He and his family came. He is my uncle's friend. Went to Deanna Manto and her family's house. She is my auntie's niece. Went into her room cos there was too many people in their house. Funny. her bedroom is like a kids room. Got so many toys. Power rangers and Teletubbies. WTH. haha. Sorry kak nana! ahah. My cousin and i got to cam whore too. (Chitot!! dah ceroboh bilik org, amik gmbr lagi!) Well... Adios!

@ Kak Nana's room



SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri!

Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir & batin. Kalau ada salah silap tu... maafkanlah ye... :D Kalau senang, ajak family datang rumah! haha. Semoga bahagia menyambut 1 Syawal yang mulia bersama orang-org yang amat tersayang.                                                                                                                                  sekian,   
                                                                                                                                        Putri Nur Amirah.
                                                                                                                                        Asalamua'laikum!

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OMG!!!!

The radio warna 94.2 just read out my msg, dedicated for my mom and dad! Haha. Embarrassing sia but my father liked it! he laughed and smile. haha... should do that more often huh?

Mie new friend, bestie and...

Hello! As people would say, skarang dah nak masuk 4 lekor. Langsir belum lagi digantung, cadar belum pasang. Kuih, tak tau cukup ke tidak. Kite buat kuih tapi bagi kat orang. Takpe. Hmm... lagi ape ye? Baju raya semua dah siap. Ok anyway... Have I told you about MR.H? hehe... Suker! Ok. I like him. He like me. We are still in the process of knowing each other better. I soooo like him cos he's cute. ME and Sarah (peed) was like 'kerang busoks' just now... tersengeh2... hehe... But... Peed is heartbroken. She msged me just now. I am not sure why. I would only know until tomorrow. Kesian kau PEed!

Think about it...

blinded by desire and often stupidity, they wun even realise the existence of hypocrisy. ignorance closes the eyes and fear shuts the mouth from speaking the truth. reality hurts and it simply sucks.
- www.soulconfessions.blogspot.com

Sheikh Ahmad Deedat

This guy, he sounds like my father. But of course, he is much better. I love his preaches. The subject he preaches about. And he preaches, so that people would read the Qur'an! May Allah give him Jannah. Have a look at my 'you' section... yea... there are some videos on one of his preaches. Challenges of Islam. What he said is true. Really true. My father says so. I have done a fair bit of thinking. And I do agree with him. If you do not believe him, what he says, Go and understand the Qur'an, Open your eyes widely and understand your surroundings. What is going on with the world. Understand. Or if you find it too tedious, just read the Qur'an. Ask for guidance from the Almighty. You'll find the truth.

Dupdup?

Hey hey hey!
Guess what I did today?
-Went to school
-Bowling
-pool
-Went to CDC with sarah
-Went to geylang with sarah
-Met sarah's friends at somerset

Baik keper???? haha.... reached home at around 10.30 uh... haha.
Sarah's friends were fun to be with... naqia, hakim, khairudin and aishah.
Very funny. and fun. haha. kecoh sey. Hakim was the knowledgeable one... yeah

Heyaaaaa! duppp?

Guess what? I got 3.21 for my GPA... Damn thats good. After all these months of running around school.... haha.... worthwhile... gonna stay constant. I'll try to do better next time too, if I can... haha. ok chiows...

The accident....

I was shocked when I received an SMS from Abg Khalid, my godbro+neighbour, stating that Hamidah, his sister+my godsis, had a motorcycle accident. Her skin was folded. I haven't experienced it before but I know... Damn it hurts... ALOT! She had to go through an op. Went to visit her after school. When she saw my family come in, tears had already rolled down smoothly from those almond-shaped eyes. We talked to her mom, and my other neighbor, Cik Ita was there too. Kak Ida was like so weak and her leg hurts and we wanted to move her up abit cos she was like falling to the front of the bed. So her mom, and my mom helped. Gosh she cried again. This time I am sure she was in pain. Then the nurse came in and gave her some painkillers. Was so hard for her to swallow them. She looked like she wanted to throw up. My head was spinning already. I squatted down... So did my sis, Arina, I knew she was experiencing the pain I was going through. Ok... cut story short... When it was time to go home... I cried. But I try to hide it lah.... I gave kak Idah a kiss on each cheek. Trust me... I wanted to say get well soon or something. But i couldn't. Trying so hard to hold back my tears. Verry hardddd! She saw a tear or two roll down my eyes i guess. I can't bear to see her like that. It peels my heart to see her like that... We used to be so close last time. But because of our schedule, we couldn't be as close as before.

Oh Allah. Please protect her. Give her the strength she needs. Give her faith.

"Ada hikmah sebalik segala kejadian..."

Adduuuuhh!

My big toe hurt! internal bleeding. I was careless. I didn't know what's on my mind. I was climbing up the stairs then i kicked one of the levels. OMG! painnnnnnn!!!!! aduuuuh!

Ok. Just now. I was singing. The whole day slacking. On the com for like more than 1o hrs already haha... can? Ouch. Stupid lah my toe hurts alot!!!!!!

A beautiful call...

Yesterday I watched 'Kau Istimewa' on TV, Suria Channel. It was so touching. About lonely elderly... After that show, I felt like calling my grandmother who lives in Ang Mo Kio. She lives with my uncle. When my uncle goes to work, she lives alone. I pity her, but i also admire her strong will. To live independently. My family visit her maybe only three times a year. Of course her children visits her too. I love her though she is my father's foster mom. She cares about me and my family. So does my mother's mom. I love them both. There are some meaningful quotes I got from the tv show. "If we die, nobody comes with us except for our past doings", "If they (the children) can't come to see us (the golden age couple), it's alright, but at least give us a call. We miss them so much. I cry every time thinking of them."

I forgot about my grandmother in ang mo kio. She slipped off my mind. How could that happen? I regret. So i gave her a call. Damn she was happy. She laughed alot... we talked alot. Never have i called and chat with her for 10 minutes! OMG. I feel so happy larrrr.... omg.... Thank you Allah for giving me this opportunity! Thank you so much!

1. Were you smiling when you woke up
this morning?
- No..

2. When was the last time you met
someone new?
- I forgot...

3. When did you last eat pizza?
- Pizza hut with MDM MARINI!!! oh sooo fun!

4. Do you drink beer?
- no,lah..bt i drink root beer
countless of time..

5. Do you wash your own clothes?
- the washing machine does it for me. I just dump my clothes there.

6. Are you any good at poker?
- yea can say soooo

7. What do you want more than anything?
- To be with my loved ones forever and ever and ever...

8. Are you tired?
- duh!!..wt qn is tis...

9. Besides your bed, what is your
favorite thing in your room?
- Mirror, mirror on the table..

10. Pepsi or Coke?
- coke...

11. Would you ever take someone back
if they cheated on you?
- see first..if they change, i`ll give
them one more chance..i`m a gd person
k.. but if they do it again. Sorry no cure...

12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
- NOoooo
scared uhh....

13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
- Macdonald... i love!!!! been eating there since i was born!

14. Are you restless?
- YES!!!!!!!!!!!!..

15. Is your computer desktop or a
laptop?
- laptop... my desktop's cpu exploded cos i accidentally off the reboot switch without turning it off! nyaha! luckily my father nvr found out abt HOW it broke down...

16. How many friendster views do you
have?
-210 can? no lah 209 since 1st sept. Wheeee thats alot huh???

17. Want to be a prince/princess?
- Princess. I am one... haha.

18. Do you believe dreams come true?
- yeaaaa when i beleve, it'll come true... Dream believe achieve! heard that b4?

19. Last song you heard?
- Keep holding on.... yea baybeh!

20. Do you like Batman?
- no. Its irritating when i can see the eyeballs but cant see the skin surrounding it. Go wear shades or something pls!

21. Who is in the room with you?
- Im in the living room. Safe internet surfing. haha....

1. Have you had your birthday yet?
Nope. still counting!

2. Are you with the same person as you
No! thank GOD!

3. Are you still in the same job?
yea n forever. heheks

4. Is your favorite color the same
color?
yea... black brown grey white.

5. Have you got the same style/colour
hair?
yea.

6. Have you bought a new car this year?
no. I wish i could drive!

7. Anything exciting happen this year?
uhh alot!

8. Have you been involved with the
police this year?
nolaaaa

9. Favorite all time drinking place
for 2007?
simpang bedok... coke. :D

10. Is your best friend still your
best friend?
of course. YEA!

11. Got any tattoos or piercings this
year?
nooo

12. Had a haircut?
yeaaaa

13. Been in a hospital this year?
no.

14. Lost someone you cared about this
year?
wheeeeee. no

15. Been on a vacation this year?
nope. not yet.

16. Been in love this year?
noooo....

17. Fallen out of love this year?
noooo

18. Been kicked out of a pub this year?
uhhh i dont go to such places ty.

19. Completed any studies this year?
what studies? Social studies? haha

20. Read any books?
yea! malay novels can?

21. Worst thing to happen this year?
Haha... oops. Cannot say. i fasting larrrr

22. Best thing to happen this year?
meeting my friend Peed. Thot she would not exist in my life story.

23. How many times have you gotten
drunk?
NEVER

24. Has this year been a good one so
far?
When i was 14, it was darn good. It was when i was in sec 3!

My life is 85.5% happy!

[ ]You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[x]You are in love (? dunno not sure.)
[ ]You have your own room.
[x]You own a cell phone.
[x]You have an ipod/ mp3 player
[x]Your parents are still married.
[x]You have more than 1 best friend.
[ ]There is a swimming pool in your
backyard
Total: 5

[x] You dress how you want to.
[ ] You slack with friends more
than once a week
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in
your room
[x] You have never been beaten up
[x] You NEVER cry more than twice a
month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the
music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
Total: 5

[x] You have over 50 friends on
friendster
[ ] You have over 500 friends on
friendster
[ ] You have over 1000 friends on
friendster
[x] You have pictures on friendster
[x] Your parents let you have a
friendster
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going
to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone
else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
Total: 9

[ ] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your
mom
[>] You are happy with your
appearance (can? haha)
[ ] You have never gotten a failing
grade in your life
[x] You have friends
Total: 1.5

[x] You know what is going on in the
world.
[x] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5
songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies
[x] You are a generally nice person.

Total: 8

Overall:28.5

Now count your numbers and multiply by
3
Then title this 'My life is _% happy'

Geylang still the best...

Went to Geylang on Sunday. Saw lots of familiar faces. Saw Cik Attie, former owner of Attie's corner at Kampung Geylang. Now she owns a stall at East Coast. Saw her there before we went to Geylang. At Geylang, we saw Alias Kadir at Banquet sitting on the same table as S.Effendy and The Unsangkarables' drummer i think. Then after some time, We saw Aiyee and family. Shocked to see my cuz danial, kak lili and her bf with their parents. Rare occasion. haha. Till here. My mind is in a blank right now actually. Things are happening at one shot. I barely have time to breathe. Haha. bedek sey... oh ya then WE went to simpang bedok for supper wth Aiyee and family. Aiyee is danial's mom. then we saw... Fendi from live the dream! haha. When I see popular people, i dun go bonkers like some girls do. I dunno y they do that... seriously...

Some pics...

Yesterday, 22 Sept at my auntie's house celebrating my cus' b'dae.
This pic proves that lighting is an essential for a perfect pic and that Wudhu' mekes your face glow... (My aunt asked, "why suddenly your face glows unusually. You look more beautiful suddenly. Oh maybe because of the Jema'ah prayers we had just now.) Ehem...



I wanna go up to the highest level of this building and shout out loud, "I'M BREAKIN' FREE!!! WOOT!!!" can? nyaha!



Ring Round The Roses, Mustafa's Full of Flowers! Wait. it rhymes? yea it does!!!



Pilih pilih! Ambik jangan tak ambik! 3 for 1, 1 for 3!

As what my favourite Bugs would say, "That's all folks!"

Gimme the last laugh. Can?

He's running away from me? Whenever he goes online, and when I'm online, He'll go offline or appear offline, i dunno. Got this from the bulletins. Gemini - The LIAR. See... I'm good at this. I hate liars soo sooo much larr.... No wonder he couldn't make it no matter how much he tried. Best thing is, maybe, he is too embarrassed cos his love or whatever feelings he had towards me wasn't return. Hey boy, you were damn lucky I didn't act like a bitch and treat you like you were crap in the middle of my ***. I could if i had wanted too. But I can only act. My heart is not as hard as that. That is why I had to give you hints. Knowing that my hints didn't get through your big head, I thought I'd just follow the flow. Your flow. See... you were the one wasting my time actually. I had to act dumb so "we" could be on the same frequency. And when I say I cry for you, Its not that I cry of what you thought I would cry for. It's because I can't get us over and done with. But now we are done, as you solemnly said. Trust me, I'M BREAKIN' FREEE!!!! No player wannabe's and no Hip-hop + emo shit.

I Don't Argue With IDIOTS!

Damn he is so irritating. Got a message from him this morning or when I'm not sure. (cos i delete his messages whenever he sends me one... And its usually early in the morning!) So read his blog just now. trust me it was damn stupid. Look at the person uh. Stupid. Mesti uh blog dier pon stupid kan? Since its fasting month and I have to be really really patient, patient than I ever did before, I shall not reveal his name cos he doesnt like it. I dunno how many of you r reading my blog. But those who really follow my life, will get the idea who he is lar. D'oh. It's so obvious. I don't know whats is so wrong with revealing names. Wouldn't it be better to reveal names than to just use, what, him, her and all that kind of stuffs. Like just say my name if you want to talk bad about me. What a contradiction. You hate hypocrites but you yourself is a hypocrite. wth. Nonsense. I can't stand really stupid and slow people. And people who are full of nonsense. You want to move on with your life, move laa. What are you waiting for. Macam lah aku hadap sangat tengok muke dier, layan sms dier, call dier lagi, kerenah dier yang degil na'uzubillahiminzalik! From the first starting of when we knew each other, I gave him signs that i only want to be friends with him. Syarat2 aku bagi belambak. Tapi dier mcm sultan bodoh dalam cerita puteri gunung ledang tu fikir aku memang nakkan dier. Hah. Padan lah Puteri Gunung Ledang tak nak sultan tu. Harap kan otak jer pandai. Buta dalam soal hati. Muke tak seberapa, otak selow melow. Ada hati nak suke aku. Pelik2.... Irritating uh orang macam gini. Susahkan hidup aku. Pertama kali kite kenal, dier dah tipu aku. Sekarang dier step aku yang salah. Aku buang masa dier lah. Sekarang siapa yang buang masa siape ni? siape suruh dier gi syok sendiri suke aku. Degil pulak tu. Benciiiii! Nasib baik Fie ade. Jujur ikhlas. Banyak tolong aku hilangkan stress dalam hal aku ngan budak biol ni.

Bila aku minta IrsyaadMu Ya Allah. Aku tahu serta-merta dia bukan untukku. Dan aku juga tahu apa yang harus aku lakukan. Aku terlalai buat seketika lalu Kau sadarkan aku dan ku kembali jua ke alam yang nyata. Dan Kau, Ya Khudayah, telah membuatku percaya, bahawa keputusanku setahun yang lalu memang tepat. Dia tidak boleh dipercayai. Tidak terlintas didalam hati ini pun untuk menghormatinya sebagai seorang jejaka. Terima kasih Ya Allah, Kau telah membantu aku mengakhirkan segala penderitaanku. Semoga teman baruku, jauh beza dari dia... Amiiiinn