Uncontrollable

Why.
There are so many things that I can't control today.
In pain, my tears.
They are my witness.
In fear, my thoughts.
They are my enemies.

How.
I don't want to be sick.
My body is not listening to me.
But it is all my fault.
Why am I feeling this way?

No Appetite.
No strength.
So weak.
I wish this all would end soon.

*Pergi lah makan, tergoleng-goleng... Macam mana nak baik?*
-The words from Ibu which made me laugh while in tears.