And my hand stinks of bleach... well its not totally green. Just a slight tinge of green... oh but that crop is very dear to me!
Anyway, what a great way to start a day. Woke up to the David Archuleta alarm tone since I changed it yesterday (I would always wake up when I hear that ringtone and not any other... Funny...)Then did my morning prayers 2 times... -.-" Flatulence... Then, went for a jog and fed on hundred plus lime and lemon. Well the climax was the hundred plus... Although it seems as if that was the conclusion... but hey! Guess what? Who the hell drinks hundred plus after a JOG in the morning?? Even a primary one kid was thought to drink milk or mineral water in the morning. NO GASSY DRINKS IN THE MORNING! as what my mom usually told me...
So what price did I have to pay? Guess what, I threw up the hundred plus and dang it hurts my throat! I feel much better though after throwing up... haha. I still don't get it... why the toots did I drink 100 plus when I had even TOLD ziza yesterday that I should drink mineral water instead??!! What the...
Anyways, I think I should do this more often... So new blog schedule would be? 8 am in the morning?? Just wait until I get my Wi-Fi phone ok... haha...
"Sebab tak boleh tahan..." - Amyra Azist upon why she had to do her prayers another time. -.-"
29 December 2008
Ok I was so tired I couldn't blog on the day... Shagged lah, Anyway! Hmms let's see... ouh it was 1 Muharram... So I fasted. Besides fasting in the month of Ramadhan, Fasting on the first day of the new year was another priority... just that it wasn't conpulsory... Just like the 5 time a day prayers (Fardhu) and Solat Tahajjud... Solat Tahajjud isn't compulsory but it was also a priority. Anyway...
So. Here was the deal. I helped mama alone at the shop while ziza and our big brother (adik) went to Johor. What was the motive? Massage. Haha. And also buy my contact lense... and theirs too... duh. Anyway. That was the deal. Tired and plus... I had to endure the heat from the kitchen, the drinks... hahaha. What the. Stll I did manage to fast... (wait, Interval: Gotta wake up my lil big sister)
(Ok back, its on speaker phone...)What the... Liat sey nak bangun ni budak. A'udzubillah So anyways... Oh then for my break fast, had magic wok... hehe. And met Govind-asamy and hortomo-bin ultraman. lols. Hortomo is like another 'Halim - a guy who works as a delivery guy for canadian pizza' and they are good looking. haha. And Mama never stops teasing them. lol.
So that was my 1 muharram.
My 31 dhul-hijjah was...
Had a mini Zikral Hijrah at Baba's house (Ziza's grandmother)
Wait I gotta call this girl again... ok at last she woke up!
Anyway. So I got a birthday present from Baba... yeay! And... Basically I spent time with the psp after that. Lol.
Dumb-belo.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
I Think I Am Free Now
Let me go
Off your hands
Subconsciously you are controlling
You are grasping
It's been hard to breathe
Stop holding on
Even for the slightest thing
I'm done, we're done
There are so many things
So many reasons, I just wanna leave
I learn not to apologize when it is not my fault
I'm gonna stand up straight now
You told me a lot of times not to blog about you
But guess what? I'm just like you.
A person who goes against all odds, provided it is within my beliefs.
And one of my belief? No one, except for my parents, control me.
I take and I heed advises. But I don't see why I should keep silent about you.
Dear Readers, This blog started with Mr.A
Now, the chapter has ended. As of 26 December 2008,
Me and Mr.A is over.
A new chapter of my life had started.
I don't think I should hide it any longer.
it's over.
Off your hands
Subconsciously you are controlling
You are grasping
It's been hard to breathe
Stop holding on
Even for the slightest thing
I'm done, we're done
There are so many things
So many reasons, I just wanna leave
I learn not to apologize when it is not my fault
I'm gonna stand up straight now
You told me a lot of times not to blog about you
But guess what? I'm just like you.
A person who goes against all odds, provided it is within my beliefs.
And one of my belief? No one, except for my parents, control me.
I take and I heed advises. But I don't see why I should keep silent about you.
Dear Readers, This blog started with Mr.A
Now, the chapter has ended. As of 26 December 2008,
Me and Mr.A is over.
A new chapter of my life had started.
I don't think I should hide it any longer.
it's over.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Best Birthday.
I am so thankful for yesterday.
Although some things got into my way,
and even though I hated bbqs because its so tiring,
I was all worth it, I thought.
Family came, Friends came...
If there were anything important that we had achieved yesterday,
It was silaturrahim - A Bond.
If only some would get off their seats and join the bbq instead of having me to take for them their food, (Like hello its a bbq!) then I would not have the guilt of not feeding my guests... Haha. Anyway, it doesn't matter...
Even though some people complained, I don't really care. Because I know they are just jealous that no one wants to hold a bbq for them and prepare their favourite food even though he is unwell! They are just seriously, Jealous.
Thank you Azeez (probably the first time I blogged about you in a good tone -haha) for making me have a blast of a time - the CAKE, the kuay teow, the effort you had put in, and for the rain. I love rain when its not dangerous ;p. Thank you Ziza for coming down to help even though you were tired after helping mama. Thank you Ibu for sponsoring most of the expenses... Thank you Mama Gi and Ayah Aim for coming down, closing the shop early, just for me. haha. Thank you Mummy and Daddy for coming down even when you are suffering from the jet lag. haha. Thank you Mama Nur for the other cake. Thank you to the neighbors who had chipped in to some of the stuffs for the bbq at night. Thank you to the Beautiful Ladies (Includes Ibu) who had lightened their hands to bbq, thank you to the Handsome Gentlemen (Includes Ayah) who had the Gazebo ready... Thank you Also to Yati and Izzuan for logistics (Appreciate it very much - kalau you all takde, tak tau lah mcm mana) And to the remaining Guests, thank you! Zima! Thank you for the Camera! Dont forget the pictures k! Uhmm, Thanks for the presents.... And thank you to me also, for the food I've prepared... Hehe. I dun care! I want to praise myself for my hard work! haha.
Thank you Allah for making it easy for me to handle the bbq.
Alhamdulillah. We really had fun.
Although some things got into my way,
and even though I hated bbqs because its so tiring,
I was all worth it, I thought.
Family came, Friends came...
If there were anything important that we had achieved yesterday,
It was silaturrahim - A Bond.
If only some would get off their seats and join the bbq instead of having me to take for them their food, (Like hello its a bbq!) then I would not have the guilt of not feeding my guests... Haha. Anyway, it doesn't matter...
Even though some people complained, I don't really care. Because I know they are just jealous that no one wants to hold a bbq for them and prepare their favourite food even though he is unwell! They are just seriously, Jealous.
Thank you Azeez (probably the first time I blogged about you in a good tone -haha) for making me have a blast of a time - the CAKE, the kuay teow, the effort you had put in, and for the rain. I love rain when its not dangerous ;p. Thank you Ziza for coming down to help even though you were tired after helping mama. Thank you Ibu for sponsoring most of the expenses... Thank you Mama Gi and Ayah Aim for coming down, closing the shop early, just for me. haha. Thank you Mummy and Daddy for coming down even when you are suffering from the jet lag. haha. Thank you Mama Nur for the other cake. Thank you to the neighbors who had chipped in to some of the stuffs for the bbq at night. Thank you to the Beautiful Ladies (Includes Ibu) who had lightened their hands to bbq, thank you to the Handsome Gentlemen (Includes Ayah) who had the Gazebo ready... Thank you Also to Yati and Izzuan for logistics (Appreciate it very much - kalau you all takde, tak tau lah mcm mana) And to the remaining Guests, thank you! Zima! Thank you for the Camera! Dont forget the pictures k! Uhmm, Thanks for the presents.... And thank you to me also, for the food I've prepared... Hehe. I dun care! I want to praise myself for my hard work! haha.
Thank you Allah for making it easy for me to handle the bbq.
Alhamdulillah. We really had fun.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Weird!
ok... Weird stuffs are happening on the eve of my birthday!!
First, When me and my sis walked to Elias mall to withdraw money from the teller, A group of mats called my name! MY name!! What the... Aku tak kenal pun. I thought if they were to call out nina's name, it would be normal uh. Cos she has a lot of mats and minahs who knows her.
And guess what? Someone had just threw an egg into my brother's room!! What the!!! Sakit betul. hahaha. Matin was already pissed off and all I could say "Aik? Kakak punye birthday, kau yang kene sabo?? hahahhaha"
Tanda-tanda kecil.
First, When me and my sis walked to Elias mall to withdraw money from the teller, A group of mats called my name! MY name!! What the... Aku tak kenal pun. I thought if they were to call out nina's name, it would be normal uh. Cos she has a lot of mats and minahs who knows her.
And guess what? Someone had just threw an egg into my brother's room!! What the!!! Sakit betul. hahaha. Matin was already pissed off and all I could say "Aik? Kakak punye birthday, kau yang kene sabo?? hahahhaha"
Tanda-tanda kecil.
To be better
When a man says he wants to be a better man,
I wonder how better, specifically.
They say... Clarity is power. So? Define a better man, please.
So. Resolution for 18 years of living this temporary life?
To be better.
How better?
I don't know.
I just don't want to hurt as much as I hurt this year.
I want to work harder than I've worked this year.
I want to cherish as much as I have cherished this year.
I want to believe as much as I had believed this year.
I want to use my ears to listen. Listen to advices.
I want to use my eyes to see. See whats happening and hope I could make things better.
I want to use my mouth to share. Not gossips but knowledge.
I want to feel life like it is now... And I shan't regret later.
So that when its time, I shall leave contented.
Self-love, Self-peace, Self-respect.
I know I dream. Sometimes I do believe but its rarely I achieve.
I will always believe that things happen for a reason.
And I'll always take things a step at a time.
In the name of Allah, the most gracious and merciful.
God, may You protect me from disaster, sins and sufferings. May you protect my family and empathize my parents like how they had empathized me when I was young. May You make my prayers permanent, and may You put me along the believers. Repay and bless those who had done good to me and my family and I always hope for Your guidance. Give me strength to face all Your challenges. And I am thankful for everything that You had presented me with. God, I am thankful for the family You presented me with and my companions. I am thankful for having the chance to be able to see Your creation and Your greatness. May You protect us in this world and the hereafter... Amin amin takkabal ya kariim...
Seal my eyes, seal my ears, seal my mouth.
I may be legal in exactly 11 hours time. But will I be ready to go?
I wonder how better, specifically.
They say... Clarity is power. So? Define a better man, please.
So. Resolution for 18 years of living this temporary life?
To be better.
How better?
I don't know.
I just don't want to hurt as much as I hurt this year.
I want to work harder than I've worked this year.
I want to cherish as much as I have cherished this year.
I want to believe as much as I had believed this year.
I want to use my ears to listen. Listen to advices.
I want to use my eyes to see. See whats happening and hope I could make things better.
I want to use my mouth to share. Not gossips but knowledge.
I want to feel life like it is now... And I shan't regret later.
So that when its time, I shall leave contented.
Self-love, Self-peace, Self-respect.
I know I dream. Sometimes I do believe but its rarely I achieve.
I will always believe that things happen for a reason.
And I'll always take things a step at a time.
In the name of Allah, the most gracious and merciful.
God, may You protect me from disaster, sins and sufferings. May you protect my family and empathize my parents like how they had empathized me when I was young. May You make my prayers permanent, and may You put me along the believers. Repay and bless those who had done good to me and my family and I always hope for Your guidance. Give me strength to face all Your challenges. And I am thankful for everything that You had presented me with. God, I am thankful for the family You presented me with and my companions. I am thankful for having the chance to be able to see Your creation and Your greatness. May You protect us in this world and the hereafter... Amin amin takkabal ya kariim...
Seal my eyes, seal my ears, seal my mouth.
I may be legal in exactly 11 hours time. But will I be ready to go?
I hate it when I feel this way
Why is it always like this???
When you have a friend and he changed, You wanna make him the same person back again. That's what you take me for? Haha. Can, No problem. I love games for two!
Please don't change.
My God, I look like... I need to sleep.
"Think positive. Things might not go your way. But darling, why don't you take this as a step for heaven?"
When you have a friend and he changed, You wanna make him the same person back again. That's what you take me for? Haha. Can, No problem. I love games for two!
Please don't change.
My God, I look like... I need to sleep.
"Think positive. Things might not go your way. But darling, why don't you take this as a step for heaven?"
In those eyes
I see a rainbow after a dark stormy night
I hear birds chirping melodiously after a loud thunder
I feel joy after the crystal tears
And happiness lies deep down under.
The moonlight shines
Till the sky was blue
As and when silence falls.
I would be reminded of you.
The hurt deep inside
Only time could heal
And as tears fall down
I would be reminded of Him
I hear birds chirping melodiously after a loud thunder
I feel joy after the crystal tears
And happiness lies deep down under.
The moonlight shines
Till the sky was blue
As and when silence falls.
I would be reminded of you.
The hurt deep inside
Only time could heal
And as tears fall down
I would be reminded of Him
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Vivocity :D
This time, It was only me and Ziza :D
We walked around the whole three parts of vivo until harbourfront shopping centre to get my birthday present(s). How nice was that?
I got a cropped jacket, bangle (I loved that alot) and necklace... Actually, sincerely, I love all of them. So nice :DD
Then we went to breeks cafe for lunch/dinner (i don't really know) And that was the first time I had an Ice lemon tea which costed 4.20! how ex was that? hahaha. What the.
I am so happy today. :DD
I know why, but I can't explain.
Because it can only be felt when you are with the ones you love.
And this, I'd treasure it for a lifetime.
God, give us life.
We walked around the whole three parts of vivo until harbourfront shopping centre to get my birthday present(s). How nice was that?
I got a cropped jacket, bangle (I loved that alot) and necklace... Actually, sincerely, I love all of them. So nice :DD
Then we went to breeks cafe for lunch/dinner (i don't really know) And that was the first time I had an Ice lemon tea which costed 4.20! how ex was that? hahaha. What the.
I am so happy today. :DD
I know why, but I can't explain.
Because it can only be felt when you are with the ones you love.
And this, I'd treasure it for a lifetime.
God, give us life.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
More than a normal sister love
Review after both of our posts. (hahaha)
: Princess of Radiance :. says:
i really have no comments my dear
ZizyZieza says:
so do i
ZizyZieza says:
after reading ur blog
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
they say
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
the ones who deserve your love, is no one except for those who need you as much as you need them
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
As for my love to that one irritating smart little girl, I have no doubts
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
thats why, I'd become a doormat or even fishtank if i have to
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahaha
ZizyZieza says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
what abt halo??
ZizyZieza says:
but oh tk leh
ZizyZieza says:
tu aku
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
u become the wand uh
ZizyZieza says:
hahahah
ZizyZieza says:
wond
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
wand ?
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahaha
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
angle ade wings kan?
ZizyZieza says:
ouh ya
ZizyZieza says:
hahaha
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
then I'd be the wind beneath your wings
ZizyZieza says:
~you give me wings when im falling
ZizyZieza says:
hahahahah
ZizyZieza says:
kau lagu lain
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
akulagu lain
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
ya!!!
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
kene uh tu
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
that was what i was thinking
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahaha
ZizyZieza says:
hahaha
ZizyZieza says:
tk yah bbl uh
^ that was our conclusion! aghahaha....
I did not steal her from heaven. Trust me.
: Princess of Radiance :. says:
i really have no comments my dear
ZizyZieza says:
so do i
ZizyZieza says:
after reading ur blog
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
they say
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
the ones who deserve your love, is no one except for those who need you as much as you need them
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
As for my love to that one irritating smart little girl, I have no doubts
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
thats why, I'd become a doormat or even fishtank if i have to
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahaha
ZizyZieza says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
what abt halo??
ZizyZieza says:
but oh tk leh
ZizyZieza says:
tu aku
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
u become the wand uh
ZizyZieza says:
hahahah
ZizyZieza says:
wond
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
wand ?
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahaha
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
angle ade wings kan?
ZizyZieza says:
ouh ya
ZizyZieza says:
hahaha
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
then I'd be the wind beneath your wings
ZizyZieza says:
~you give me wings when im falling
ZizyZieza says:
hahahahah
ZizyZieza says:
kau lagu lain
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
akulagu lain
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
ya!!!
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahahaha
ZizyZieza says:
kene uh tu
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
that was what i was thinking
.: Princess of Radiance :. says:
hahaha
ZizyZieza says:
hahaha
ZizyZieza says:
tk yah bbl uh
^ that was our conclusion! aghahaha....
I did not steal her from heaven. Trust me.
Waiting. Worried.
I am currently waiting for somebody to finish blogging.
Because I want to know what is in her head right now.
And since I have got nothing else better to do, I shall blog,
As I WAIT.
(I would be lying if I were to say that I am not worried)
Ok. Let's talk about what happened in the day!
Went to help Mama. Guess what?
I became an Idiot for an hour or so.
I was pressurized, I had to talk without thinking.
Basically what came out from my mouth can make people dislike me.
See... Thats why I talk slowly.
Eventually, I apologized and let silence and time calm me down.
-If there were any source to help me calm myself down or cure me from a heartache, it will be time. Just give me time, and I'll be okay.
These few days, my right arm and my left leg are not doing any justice to me. Pfft.
They hurt... Omg. They Ache, and they turn numb...
Anyways, my lips are dry and I am living on Vaseline's lip therapy...
I guess the wet monsoon has taken its toll on me.
My dear, when are you gonna click that 'publish post' button??
No matter how many times you hurt me
No matter how deep your words cut me
I will endure, I will persevere
Because this is what we do, when we love
And when the time comes for us to part
I will treasure every moment we had together
I will treasure those kind looks and words of encouragement
And mostly, the laughters we shared which helped me breathe.
Angel, you are life to me.
Because I want to know what is in her head right now.
And since I have got nothing else better to do, I shall blog,
As I WAIT.
(I would be lying if I were to say that I am not worried)
Ok. Let's talk about what happened in the day!
Went to help Mama. Guess what?
I became an Idiot for an hour or so.
I was pressurized, I had to talk without thinking.
Basically what came out from my mouth can make people dislike me.
See... Thats why I talk slowly.
Eventually, I apologized and let silence and time calm me down.
-If there were any source to help me calm myself down or cure me from a heartache, it will be time. Just give me time, and I'll be okay.
These few days, my right arm and my left leg are not doing any justice to me. Pfft.
They hurt... Omg. They Ache, and they turn numb...
Anyways, my lips are dry and I am living on Vaseline's lip therapy...
I guess the wet monsoon has taken its toll on me.
My dear, when are you gonna click that 'publish post' button??
No matter how many times you hurt me
No matter how deep your words cut me
I will endure, I will persevere
Because this is what we do, when we love
And when the time comes for us to part
I will treasure every moment we had together
I will treasure those kind looks and words of encouragement
And mostly, the laughters we shared which helped me breathe.
Angel, you are life to me.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Chasing nothing
Then,
I shall thank God for those who could wait for me silently as I speak slowly
And for those who had always been there for me even when they know their presence was being taken for granted.
Mistakes are part of being human. Appreciate.
Lesson Learnt: Do not take things for granted.
Your parents.
Your friends who care.
Even those guys who likes you but you find them irritating.
Alhamdulillah, there is still something in me - Patience.
I shall thank God for those who could wait for me silently as I speak slowly
And for those who had always been there for me even when they know their presence was being taken for granted.
Mistakes are part of being human. Appreciate.
Lesson Learnt: Do not take things for granted.
Your parents.
Your friends who care.
Even those guys who likes you but you find them irritating.
Alhamdulillah, there is still something in me - Patience.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Mama or Ibu???
Major problem!
Tomorrow, Ibu has this kendarat thing and she needs my help.
At the same time, I've told mama I'd help her at Elias.
Toots.
I told Ziza about this. And she insisted on Elias. Though the money at kendarat was better.
But she pitied Mama. So Yeah.
I would not wanna go if she wasn't there. :( Then my heart wouldn't be in the thing. It would be wondering somewhere else...
I would help at elias, provided, I can find subs for me and ziza.
But Now I CAN'T!!! What had happened to all these people! What the!
Should I help Ibu even though I wouldn't be happy or I would not enjoy it??
Now how??
OMG... mama or Ibu?
ziza is not leaving mama at elias because she thinks its irrational for her to not help mama just because of money.
Me? Should I leave my mother to help my godmother because my bestfriend would not be with me if i help my mom?
-Is this how I prove to you that you still mean so much to me?
Tomorrow, Ibu has this kendarat thing and she needs my help.
At the same time, I've told mama I'd help her at Elias.
Toots.
I told Ziza about this. And she insisted on Elias. Though the money at kendarat was better.
But she pitied Mama. So Yeah.
I would not wanna go if she wasn't there. :( Then my heart wouldn't be in the thing. It would be wondering somewhere else...
I would help at elias, provided, I can find subs for me and ziza.
But Now I CAN'T!!! What had happened to all these people! What the!
Should I help Ibu even though I wouldn't be happy or I would not enjoy it??
Now how??
OMG... mama or Ibu?
ziza is not leaving mama at elias because she thinks its irrational for her to not help mama just because of money.
Me? Should I leave my mother to help my godmother because my bestfriend would not be with me if i help my mom?
-Is this how I prove to you that you still mean so much to me?
Friday, December 12, 2008
Twilight The Movie
We caught Twilight :D Initially we wanted to watch Cicakman 2 but due to some unseen circumstances, we had to change the plans. Last minute. So, we ended up watching Twilight, AND, I swear!!! It is a movie not to be missed. Perfect!!!
I sooo Like the hero. Edward Cullen (played by Robert Pattinson - He played 'Cedric', the cute guy who died in Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire)
This is what I call fate. Haha.
Thank God.
(Ok this is an irony!!)
Good News Bad News
Good news first, or bad news? *ok rhetorical*
Good news: It's our HOLIDAYS!!!
But still, obviously, I'll not be busy rotting at home.
I'd have my own plans still. Heh.
Bad news: Maybe, we'll not see each other this year...
They say "Sayang, sayang, seribu kali sayang"
And I'll say, "Mungkin, Tidak ada rezeki kita kali ini"
"Patience is a virtue"
"Sabar itu separuh dari iman"
"Good things might come to those who wait"
But one nice quote from someone:
"Biar berjauhan di dunia, tetapi disisiku disyurga"
Or the other one:
"Biar aku berjauhan di dunia, tapi disampingmu disyurga"
-Quoted from Mr. Kambing a.k.a M. Dubai :P
Biar mengalir airmata bisu
Tetap kupercaya kepada takdir
Segala dugaan akan ku hadapi
Dengan harapan hikmahMu hadir
Bila tiba waktu itu
Disaat kita dapat bersua
Aku percaya
Ia akan menjadi suatu saat yang indah
Kerana Sabar dan Tabah
Mungkin menangis itu tanda kelemahan
Tidak begitu kepada aku
Tiada khilaf menitiskan airmata
Kerana setiap kali aku menangis
Aku rasa teramat dekat kepadaNya
Good news: It's our HOLIDAYS!!!
But still, obviously, I'll not be busy rotting at home.
I'd have my own plans still. Heh.
Bad news: Maybe, we'll not see each other this year...
They say "Sayang, sayang, seribu kali sayang"
And I'll say, "Mungkin, Tidak ada rezeki kita kali ini"
"Patience is a virtue"
"Sabar itu separuh dari iman"
"Good things might come to those who wait"
But one nice quote from someone:
"Biar berjauhan di dunia, tetapi disisiku disyurga"
Or the other one:
"Biar aku berjauhan di dunia, tapi disampingmu disyurga"
-Quoted from Mr. Kambing a.k.a M. Dubai :P
Biar mengalir airmata bisu
Tetap kupercaya kepada takdir
Segala dugaan akan ku hadapi
Dengan harapan hikmahMu hadir
Bila tiba waktu itu
Disaat kita dapat bersua
Aku percaya
Ia akan menjadi suatu saat yang indah
Kerana Sabar dan Tabah
Mungkin menangis itu tanda kelemahan
Tidak begitu kepada aku
Tiada khilaf menitiskan airmata
Kerana setiap kali aku menangis
Aku rasa teramat dekat kepadaNya
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Malas
In english, its lazy!
Malays are not lazy ok!
Cut it out.
Every body is lazy when it comes to the 'lazy' mood.
Ok, I have to blog. Some body asked me if I'm blogging.
I was like 'do i have to?'
I have one post which has yet to be edited and published.
So yeah, Thought of editing that, but Im lazy!
I want to sleep can?
Hahaha. Ok this Post is so redundant!
Malays are not lazy ok!
Cut it out.
Every body is lazy when it comes to the 'lazy' mood.
Ok, I have to blog. Some body asked me if I'm blogging.
I was like 'do i have to?'
I have one post which has yet to be edited and published.
So yeah, Thought of editing that, but Im lazy!
I want to sleep can?
Hahaha. Ok this Post is so redundant!
Pictures!!!
As promised, here are my pictures :DD
They are not edited by the way.
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^ A sneak peek of The kenduri. Look at nenek in blue,
she doesn't have any Idea what we are talking about. hehe.
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^ Me feeding Khairiah. Mind you, the bottle is empty!!
I'm feeding her air, wind, carbon dioxide, oxygen... and
what not.
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^ The first and the fourth generation. This is the part
when khairiah was wailing and nenek is like panicking!!!
hahaha. Cute stuff!!
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Ok, Now thats better :D Toodles!
And somebody had just told me to do something for our
project. Which has to be done by tmr.
Yeah. Thanks eh!
CAN I KILL YOU???
URGh.
Takpe. Sabar.
"Kakak, get your licencse! hurry-hurry!!
Why must your birthday fall on december sey??"
-Nina, being bored at home.
They are not edited by the way.
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^ A sneak peek of The kenduri. Look at nenek in blue,
she doesn't have any Idea what we are talking about. hehe.
.jpg)
^ Me feeding Khairiah. Mind you, the bottle is empty!!
I'm feeding her air, wind, carbon dioxide, oxygen... and
what not.
.jpg)
^ The first and the fourth generation. This is the part
when khairiah was wailing and nenek is like panicking!!!
hahaha. Cute stuff!!
.jpg)
Ok, Now thats better :D Toodles!
And somebody had just told me to do something for our
project. Which has to be done by tmr.
Yeah. Thanks eh!
CAN I KILL YOU???
URGh.
Takpe. Sabar.
"Kakak, get your licencse! hurry-hurry!!
Why must your birthday fall on december sey??"
-Nina, being bored at home.
Monday, December 08, 2008
Aidiladha
[Part 1] Aiyee's house.
We had a small kenduri (tahlil and doa selamat) and I've managed to squeeze my way into Danny's room to blog! haha. They are eating now anyways. Before I have no mood to blog and all, I'd better blog now right. haha.
So we woke up at 11 45 am today. Thats like... Late? I woke up at 7 but since everybody was still asleep and the weatherwas so nice to sleep in, I went back to the embracement of my bed. Lol. *ader jer*
So we went to Aiyee's house. And Long Tika led the Tahlil for Arwah Atuk's 21st year of his leaving, and also the Doa Selamat for Kak Atikah's, Ibu, Mine :)) and Aiyee's wedding anniversary... Yeay. I'm so relieved that someone had read for me the doa selamat for my birthday. I have no worries already.
Nenek was kinda cute. Since she couldn't hear well, when Long talked to her in front of us, she wasn't paying attention and the funny thing was that... Long wanted to start the recitation but nenek was still watching tv! Worse, it was Son Of The Mask!! We ended up laughing at her. hahaha. Tak baik eh.
While reading the Tahlil, some were already shedding tears -of course and as usual, I was the first, Ibu second, Long's wife was third- and half way through, some were already yawning. Until one time, when Long had finished reciting a part of the Tahlil, he suddenly shouted... "Oi, Ajis! Baca! Minum pulak! Aku yang baca, kau yang haus..." And we went chuckling... Sam bin dol... But after that we weren't that sleepy anymore.
Hahahaha.
I wanna take picture with Kak Liza's baby!! SO CUTEEEE....
Will post some pics soon :D
We had a small kenduri (tahlil and doa selamat) and I've managed to squeeze my way into Danny's room to blog! haha. They are eating now anyways. Before I have no mood to blog and all, I'd better blog now right. haha.
So we woke up at 11 45 am today. Thats like... Late? I woke up at 7 but since everybody was still asleep and the weatherwas so nice to sleep in, I went back to the embracement of my bed. Lol. *ader jer*
So we went to Aiyee's house. And Long Tika led the Tahlil for Arwah Atuk's 21st year of his leaving, and also the Doa Selamat for Kak Atikah's, Ibu, Mine :)) and Aiyee's wedding anniversary... Yeay. I'm so relieved that someone had read for me the doa selamat for my birthday. I have no worries already.
Nenek was kinda cute. Since she couldn't hear well, when Long talked to her in front of us, she wasn't paying attention and the funny thing was that... Long wanted to start the recitation but nenek was still watching tv! Worse, it was Son Of The Mask!! We ended up laughing at her. hahaha. Tak baik eh.
While reading the Tahlil, some were already shedding tears -of course and as usual, I was the first, Ibu second, Long's wife was third- and half way through, some were already yawning. Until one time, when Long had finished reciting a part of the Tahlil, he suddenly shouted... "Oi, Ajis! Baca! Minum pulak! Aku yang baca, kau yang haus..." And we went chuckling... Sam bin dol... But after that we weren't that sleepy anymore.
Hahahaha.
I wanna take picture with Kak Liza's baby!! SO CUTEEEE....
Will post some pics soon :D
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Nikmat Malam Aidiladha
I am so touched, I can cry.
If someone were to tell me, Allah punishes those who does sins.
I will say. Yes. That's true.
But then, I will tell them, He is the most forgiving. Even for the most sinful things you do.
He is there for you. To guide you.
Today I feel His greatness.
Today I feel thankful to Him for His love.
Today, I feel belonged.
Aku ingin lihat kau bahagia walau aku tiada di sisi.
Maka, buatkan aku tersenyum dengan membahagiakan dirimu.
If someone were to tell me, Allah punishes those who does sins.
I will say. Yes. That's true.
But then, I will tell them, He is the most forgiving. Even for the most sinful things you do.
He is there for you. To guide you.
Today I feel His greatness.
Today I feel thankful to Him for His love.
Today, I feel belonged.
Aku ingin lihat kau bahagia walau aku tiada di sisi.
Maka, buatkan aku tersenyum dengan membahagiakan dirimu.
This is it. i HOPE
Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lie
Too many barriers
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks, too many crimes
Too many tears, too many lie
Too many barriers
Culpable
My parents are on their way back and I am sooo happy and excited that tomorrow is HARI RAYA HAJI!!! Wheee~ *I have to go to the toilet but I don't feel like going - okay that's quite redundant!*
It's a happy Sunday, and I am so happy that mama closed the shop early today! Yeay again!
But, beside those happiness, there are also somethings I am uncertain about, still. :( Things happen for a reason right.
I was immotile. For once, I thought I was obtusely obedient.
Deranged - I wished It had never happened.
God, forgive me of my sins.
It's a happy Sunday, and I am so happy that mama closed the shop early today! Yeay again!
But, beside those happiness, there are also somethings I am uncertain about, still. :( Things happen for a reason right.
I was immotile. For once, I thought I was obtusely obedient.
Deranged - I wished It had never happened.
God, forgive me of my sins.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Left.
I had a very nice dream last night. Even when my stomach wasn't doing any justice to me.
I dreamt about my former bestie talking to me :) And my current bestie/bff/sister - whatever-you-call-it was still there... For me. And HER talking to me like a normal friend is such a relief. Sad that she can't talk to me the same. Anyways.
I woke up today due to nenek's phonecall. She got to know from Ayah Aim and Mama Gi that I did not follow my family to Rompin, Pahang. She sounded quite shocked though. Especially when she got to find out that I was sleeping alone last night. Kinda scary though, sleeping alone in this house... Eek.
You know, I just hate this gastric thing not going away. Shoo lah. dun bother me can?? I wanna go my nenek house to eat later. You think she cooked today? (ahha, muke pun salah kalau nenek tak masak) But she has some kenduri to attend to. So Im not that sure.
Today, Sarah, Ziza and me have our site analysis to do. Hehehe... And we plan to go swimming. Ahaahha. So kental. But should be fun right. hahaha. See how first lah. Bikini or diving suit? Of course the latter!! hahaha. What ther.
Anyways, I shall learn to be independent now. Maybe sleeping over Ziza's. Maybe nenek's. Unless someone there wants to accompany me at my house tonight... haha.
*I tend to get depressed when sick. Please do not agitate me cos if i lose my patience, you never know what can happen. You know i am not like that. Im talking about you, the one reading this. YEAH. YOU!!!*
Now stop acting like you don't care.
I dreamt about my former bestie talking to me :) And my current bestie/bff/sister - whatever-you-call-it was still there... For me. And HER talking to me like a normal friend is such a relief. Sad that she can't talk to me the same. Anyways.
I woke up today due to nenek's phonecall. She got to know from Ayah Aim and Mama Gi that I did not follow my family to Rompin, Pahang. She sounded quite shocked though. Especially when she got to find out that I was sleeping alone last night. Kinda scary though, sleeping alone in this house... Eek.
You know, I just hate this gastric thing not going away. Shoo lah. dun bother me can?? I wanna go my nenek house to eat later. You think she cooked today? (ahha, muke pun salah kalau nenek tak masak) But she has some kenduri to attend to. So Im not that sure.
Today, Sarah, Ziza and me have our site analysis to do. Hehehe... And we plan to go swimming. Ahaahha. So kental. But should be fun right. hahaha. See how first lah. Bikini or diving suit? Of course the latter!! hahaha. What ther.
Anyways, I shall learn to be independent now. Maybe sleeping over Ziza's. Maybe nenek's. Unless someone there wants to accompany me at my house tonight... haha.
*I tend to get depressed when sick. Please do not agitate me cos if i lose my patience, you never know what can happen. You know i am not like that. Im talking about you, the one reading this. YEAH. YOU!!!*
Now stop acting like you don't care.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Paranoia...
What If I break your heart?
Would everything be the same again?
Would you still be there when I'm in pain?
Or would you just leave me in vain?
Words seems so sweet last night.
Gifts touches me to my heart.
Pretty lucky of me to have these people around me.
But unlucky of me, I can't seem to make 'em happy.
When the rain falls again,
I shall not worry about being wet.
But later, when lightning strikes,
I'd still have to be brave myself.
Why do things happen?
Things happen for some reason.
Sometime it is retribution.
For the bad that you had done, or for the good.
Sometimes things also happen as a test.
Its only up to you and me.
How do we face this?
Like I said, Its up to us. The rest is for HIM.
Would everything be the same again?
Would you still be there when I'm in pain?
Or would you just leave me in vain?
Words seems so sweet last night.
Gifts touches me to my heart.
Pretty lucky of me to have these people around me.
But unlucky of me, I can't seem to make 'em happy.
When the rain falls again,
I shall not worry about being wet.
But later, when lightning strikes,
I'd still have to be brave myself.
Why do things happen?
Things happen for some reason.
Sometime it is retribution.
For the bad that you had done, or for the good.
Sometimes things also happen as a test.
Its only up to you and me.
How do we face this?
Like I said, Its up to us. The rest is for HIM.
Uncontrollable
Why.
There are so many things that I can't control today.
In pain, my tears.
They are my witness.
In fear, my thoughts.
They are my enemies.
How.
I don't want to be sick.
My body is not listening to me.
But it is all my fault.
Why am I feeling this way?
No Appetite.
No strength.
So weak.
I wish this all would end soon.
*Pergi lah makan, tergoleng-goleng... Macam mana nak baik?*
-The words from Ibu which made me laugh while in tears.
There are so many things that I can't control today.
In pain, my tears.
They are my witness.
In fear, my thoughts.
They are my enemies.
How.
I don't want to be sick.
My body is not listening to me.
But it is all my fault.
Why am I feeling this way?
No Appetite.
No strength.
So weak.
I wish this all would end soon.
*Pergi lah makan, tergoleng-goleng... Macam mana nak baik?*
-The words from Ibu which made me laugh while in tears.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
You
If anyone can make me feel guilt like never before, even when I'm not
It's you
If anyone can make me feel like I'm not worth it, even before I know it,
It'll be you
If anyone can make me feel sick, like I never had,
It will still be you
But its a wonder, how despite all these things you do to me without you knowing it
I still keep on loving you.
Love makes us stronger, at the same time, it makes us weaker.
In fact, weaker than we had ever imagined.
Is that fair? It would be...
When you know that the one you love, loves you too.
And I wonder again, do those who claim to love me,
Love me the same?
Its not the materials.
Its not the words.
You'd only find the answer when you feel love.
That's how it should be.
Time is running out.
Yes I do believe in karma.
In Fact I believe in it more than you know it.
Thank you very much.
It's you
If anyone can make me feel like I'm not worth it, even before I know it,
It'll be you
If anyone can make me feel sick, like I never had,
It will still be you
But its a wonder, how despite all these things you do to me without you knowing it
I still keep on loving you.
Love makes us stronger, at the same time, it makes us weaker.
In fact, weaker than we had ever imagined.
Is that fair? It would be...
When you know that the one you love, loves you too.
And I wonder again, do those who claim to love me,
Love me the same?
Its not the materials.
Its not the words.
You'd only find the answer when you feel love.
That's how it should be.
Time is running out.
Yes I do believe in karma.
In Fact I believe in it more than you know it.
Thank you very much.
Monday, December 01, 2008
I cut my hair
When december comes for the past few years, I guess, my hair will be short. I think... its the 'trend' of my hairstyle circle.
Asal december je pendek, asal pendek je, mesti december!!!
*This is my december... This is my time of the year...* - heard of that song?? one of my faves!
So yeah. I made a vow to myself -
The hair dresser cut my hair short and thin because she claims that my previous hair had no 'body/shape' and that the split ends are already too long.
Okay! You know what, hairdresser, Im going to your shop every month to trim. and make sure you take good care of it for me because i wanna keep it long! Kalah kan model shampoo ok! hahaha.
Ganbatte ya Amirah!
So. The vow is to keep my hair long and healthy so that in december 2009, i wont have to cut my hair short.
*My dear adik2, please stop saying my hairstyle look like Abang Adik's... because mine is so much nicer. ahaha. and because he had already cut and highlighted his. Wheee....~
Asal december je pendek, asal pendek je, mesti december!!!
*This is my december... This is my time of the year...* - heard of that song?? one of my faves!
So yeah. I made a vow to myself -
The hair dresser cut my hair short and thin because she claims that my previous hair had no 'body/shape' and that the split ends are already too long.
Okay! You know what, hairdresser, Im going to your shop every month to trim. and make sure you take good care of it for me because i wanna keep it long! Kalah kan model shampoo ok! hahaha.
Ganbatte ya Amirah!
So. The vow is to keep my hair long and healthy so that in december 2009, i wont have to cut my hair short.
*My dear adik2, please stop saying my hairstyle look like Abang Adik's... because mine is so much nicer. ahaha. and because he had already cut and highlighted his. Wheee....~
The scent of his perfume still lingers until now...
It has been a tiring day for me yesterday...
Went to Bugis before heading down to Central and then... the adventure starts. haha. First time taking care of Venalie with adik. -he and his 'yahudi nak mampos' worker.
So anyways, I'm actually wondering how come some one far away can tell that I am tired and how come someone near to me can't? Why are some people just selfish? Am I selfish?
Forget it, its only a matter of time... Surprise surprise!
P/s: I am not always free you know.
*Kalau dah jodoh?*
Went to Bugis before heading down to Central and then... the adventure starts. haha. First time taking care of Venalie with adik. -he and his 'yahudi nak mampos' worker.
So anyways, I'm actually wondering how come some one far away can tell that I am tired and how come someone near to me can't? Why are some people just selfish? Am I selfish?
Forget it, its only a matter of time... Surprise surprise!
P/s: I am not always free you know.
*Kalau dah jodoh?*
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