Allah, Teguhkanlah hati ini...
Kerana tentu aku akan merindui kehadirannya.
Allah, Berikanlah aku ketenangan...
Kerana sungguh, aku tidak akan tenteram tanpa suaranya.
Hati ini merasa pilu, walau berjauhan hanya sehari.
Tidak dapatku mengerti perasaan hati ini.
Walau dapat ku kawal, namun, cintaku padanya membuatku melambung...
Satu perasaan yang sukar dialami...
Allah, berkatilah cinta ini.
Terima Kasihku kepadaMu kerana memberi peluang keemasan ini...
Dan untuk anugerah yang tidak dapat diganti.
Kasihku padamu, adalah sejati.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Universal Studios Singapore
Good Evening people :)
Long time since I've last blogged (properly)!
Guess what? I went to USS today with my brother (Mikhail) and my bestie's family and relatives. Of course, that includes my BF (her brother). I don't know why I'm telling you all this indiscreetly but, Just so you know...
Anyways, today was the day. THE DAY! The day that I broke a record in the books of Amyra Azist's records. Hurhur. I actually rode 3 'roller coaster' rides. The Revenge of the Mummy, The Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure and the Canopy flyer.
The first ride that we took was The revenge of the Mummy and it was (to me) the scariest! I thought that it would be more of like the Panasonic at Escape Theme Park where the ride would not involve making me... never mind. The whole setting was dark with some special lightings at first... And not forgetting some mummy dolls. Of course there were high speed and wild turns... I kept shouting until one part where the carriage stopped abruptly and reversed downhill so fast that my stomach was coming out from my spine. (ok thats exaggerating but it was almost like that.) I couldn't shout anymore after that part because I was already very, very scared. I kept having the feeling that I was either falling or flying because the safety harness was loose for me (I think). And I hate it as it makes the ride more scarier. I remember during the very, very scary part, my hair was like the ghost in Ju-on (We have the picture but its not with me) and I closed my eyes very, very tight and looked down all the way. But when ride almost ended, I shouted "I want more! I want more!". It's the feeling you get when you have conquered your fears and you feel like you want more. The funny (very funny) part, is that my legs did not agree with me wanting to have more. When we were about to get out of the carriage, my knees were like jelly and I couldn't stand up properly. I had to use the strength from my hands to get out from the carriage. When there was nothing else that I could hold on to, I fell on my knees and I kept laughing because it has been such a long time since I've had that feeling. And my bestie and BF thought I was laughing very hard till I drop to the floor. haha. Funny.
Until our journey back home, my bestie still laughs over the fact that I shouted that I wanted some more but my legs couldn't handle it... hmph.
The next ride we took was the Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure. And I got wet. :( It was a very slow at first, but then there was a Flash Flood (in the story line). That was when the 'boat' elevated to like 3 meters or so, and then we went down a tall slide. hahaha. And that was when the wet part comes in.
The last ride was the Canopy Flyer. It was the hanging roller coaster and it took only 33 seconds. And I shouted all the way. That was how 'not scary' the ride was. But it was still scary to me though. Great thing is that, now I am not that scared of heights. Its more to like, I am scared of speed... It gives me that rush... adrenaline. But still I am not 'Afrit' yet.
So tired now. :) toodles
Long time since I've last blogged (properly)!
Guess what? I went to USS today with my brother (Mikhail) and my bestie's family and relatives. Of course, that includes my BF (her brother). I don't know why I'm telling you all this indiscreetly but, Just so you know...
Anyways, today was the day. THE DAY! The day that I broke a record in the books of Amyra Azist's records. Hurhur. I actually rode 3 'roller coaster' rides. The Revenge of the Mummy, The Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure and the Canopy flyer.
The first ride that we took was The revenge of the Mummy and it was (to me) the scariest! I thought that it would be more of like the Panasonic at Escape Theme Park where the ride would not involve making me... never mind. The whole setting was dark with some special lightings at first... And not forgetting some mummy dolls. Of course there were high speed and wild turns... I kept shouting until one part where the carriage stopped abruptly and reversed downhill so fast that my stomach was coming out from my spine. (ok thats exaggerating but it was almost like that.) I couldn't shout anymore after that part because I was already very, very scared. I kept having the feeling that I was either falling or flying because the safety harness was loose for me (I think). And I hate it as it makes the ride more scarier. I remember during the very, very scary part, my hair was like the ghost in Ju-on (We have the picture but its not with me) and I closed my eyes very, very tight and looked down all the way. But when ride almost ended, I shouted "I want more! I want more!". It's the feeling you get when you have conquered your fears and you feel like you want more. The funny (very funny) part, is that my legs did not agree with me wanting to have more. When we were about to get out of the carriage, my knees were like jelly and I couldn't stand up properly. I had to use the strength from my hands to get out from the carriage. When there was nothing else that I could hold on to, I fell on my knees and I kept laughing because it has been such a long time since I've had that feeling. And my bestie and BF thought I was laughing very hard till I drop to the floor. haha. Funny.
Until our journey back home, my bestie still laughs over the fact that I shouted that I wanted some more but my legs couldn't handle it... hmph.
The next ride we took was the Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure. And I got wet. :( It was a very slow at first, but then there was a Flash Flood (in the story line). That was when the 'boat' elevated to like 3 meters or so, and then we went down a tall slide. hahaha. And that was when the wet part comes in.
The last ride was the Canopy Flyer. It was the hanging roller coaster and it took only 33 seconds. And I shouted all the way. That was how 'not scary' the ride was. But it was still scary to me though. Great thing is that, now I am not that scared of heights. Its more to like, I am scared of speed... It gives me that rush... adrenaline. But still I am not 'Afrit' yet.
So tired now. :) toodles
Saturday, October 16, 2010
USS bLunDers!
Guess what?
I was booking the USS tickets online so that we would not have to queue up to buy the tickets as they have the print at home tickets function. I only got the confirmation document to download so I supposed that the tickets would be sent through e-mail. But my bf waited and waited for the tickets to be sent but there was nothing. Then we somehow realised... That I had entered the wrong e-mail address! Aiyoyoyo! Luckily, (ahaha) the difference was an underscore. (Still?!) But it was so clumsy of me. I called the hotline quickly to tell them to send the tickets to the correct email. Lucky... haiyo!
I was booking the USS tickets online so that we would not have to queue up to buy the tickets as they have the print at home tickets function. I only got the confirmation document to download so I supposed that the tickets would be sent through e-mail. But my bf waited and waited for the tickets to be sent but there was nothing. Then we somehow realised... That I had entered the wrong e-mail address! Aiyoyoyo! Luckily, (ahaha) the difference was an underscore. (Still?!) But it was so clumsy of me. I called the hotline quickly to tell them to send the tickets to the correct email. Lucky... haiyo!
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
pain
I don't feel well at all... I can't eat, I can't sleep. Maybe it is because of all the things that has been happening to me. I've lost my home, Lost my cat, Lost my bestfriend... I feel Like I've lost my life and that my life had ended. (I know, I'm not supposed to feel this way. But I want to get back up.
I don't want him to see me in this state. I don't even want him to know that I am in this state. I can't take care of myself, that's for sure... I can barely breathe on my own.
I'm sorry, I just can't bear to let you see me.
I don't want him to see me in this state. I don't even want him to know that I am in this state. I can't take care of myself, that's for sure... I can barely breathe on my own.
I'm sorry, I just can't bear to let you see me.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Professor Klumpz
Mr. H a.k.a Prof. Clums(y) forgot to bring his Contact lens case and solution :) Absent-minded right? But I pity him so much that I will bring it to him tmr. I feel so worried for him right now, cause I do not like it when these kind of things happen to myself. So troublesome.
Nvm, I will bring it to you k habibi :)
Nvm, I will bring it to you k habibi :)
Friday, August 13, 2010
Pota-toes
Oh how I love the internet connection today :DD
Today marks the second day of Ramadhan. Unfortunately, for O'braims Angels, we were not able to celebrate the joy of welcoming this holy month. :(( But of course, in every thing that happens, there will always be a reason/wisdom behind such. For now, I can only think of... We can taste the food that we cook? And make sure that it's nice before we sell it. :)
Anyways, something in the paper today intrigues me. What's up with kids and crocs? Some kid's toe got stuck in the escalator again! Who's fault is it? The mother blames the shoe company, the shoe company resists. And my sister said blatantly, "they should make insurance for the shoes so that the insurance can cover (cover what? the toe? Apparently, there are insurances that covers for loss of body parts and death. That's what we have too, my dear Nina...) just like cars. Why people buy insurance when they buy cars, but not when they buy shoes?" Good question Nina. I also dunno. Dont ask me!
I think the mother is to be blamed. You know why? The kid did not stay inside the yellow box. He should be a little bit autistic (For his own safety), and the mother did not hold his hands! Almost all escalators in Singapore has warning stickers. And now you want to blame the shoe company for making anti-slippery shoes? You know why they make shoes anti-slippery? Have you ever wondered why people who work in coffee shops or kitchens like me find them useful??
Before you start blaming other people, find your faults first! Shame on you!
Today marks the second day of Ramadhan. Unfortunately, for O'braims Angels, we were not able to celebrate the joy of welcoming this holy month. :(( But of course, in every thing that happens, there will always be a reason/wisdom behind such. For now, I can only think of... We can taste the food that we cook? And make sure that it's nice before we sell it. :)
Anyways, something in the paper today intrigues me. What's up with kids and crocs? Some kid's toe got stuck in the escalator again! Who's fault is it? The mother blames the shoe company, the shoe company resists. And my sister said blatantly, "they should make insurance for the shoes so that the insurance can cover (cover what? the toe? Apparently, there are insurances that covers for loss of body parts and death. That's what we have too, my dear Nina...) just like cars. Why people buy insurance when they buy cars, but not when they buy shoes?" Good question Nina. I also dunno. Dont ask me!
I think the mother is to be blamed. You know why? The kid did not stay inside the yellow box. He should be a little bit autistic (For his own safety), and the mother did not hold his hands! Almost all escalators in Singapore has warning stickers. And now you want to blame the shoe company for making anti-slippery shoes? You know why they make shoes anti-slippery? Have you ever wondered why people who work in coffee shops or kitchens like me find them useful??
Before you start blaming other people, find your faults first! Shame on you!
Monday, August 02, 2010
It's a damn cold night...
Nina i like wearing her hoodie in the middle of the night, while reading her mathematics notes... Weird Anyway, I am so glad that I bought my adapter and life has been going back to normal after a few setbacks :) Life, has never been great. These moments I shall cherish! I am so happy that my bf accompanies me to the most boring-est places on earth without complaining! And he treats me to great food and the things that I want to do... He takes care of me like how my mom takes care of me. haha. Funny. Now I feel like I have a lot of mothers including my aunt and my god-ma... a.k.a his mother
We went to Sim Lim Square just now. I bought a psp charger for my brother but it could not work... Well, at least, I thought so... So we returned to Sim Lim and waited for around 45 minutes just to know that the psp's charging point is spoilt! To repair, it would cost $120. Thanks uh eh!
And so, headed to all time favourite - O'braim - while my darling went to cut his hair...
I have a small cut on the tip of my middle finger and it hurts whenever I touch something!!
Btw, I have been bothered by wild smses. These two guys keep bothering me even if I don't entertain them and they know that I am attached! And then Bf will always ask me what they want... And if i am entertaining them (replying to their smses) I think he does not trust me... hahaha! But on the other hand, I think he just cares for me so much and is afraid of losing me. I know, my Bf so the opposite of cute.
Anyways, I got to think of something now. Got to give him words of wisdom so that he would wake up tomorrow and have inspiration to continue his puny life in camp. Soo sad! I wish he does not have to go to camp. So that I can see him everyday :) He is having his evaluation tomorrow so we cant talk much on the phone as per usual... :((
But nevermind :) I shall just wait and wait.... And wait :))
We went to Sim Lim Square just now. I bought a psp charger for my brother but it could not work... Well, at least, I thought so... So we returned to Sim Lim and waited for around 45 minutes just to know that the psp's charging point is spoilt! To repair, it would cost $120. Thanks uh eh!
And so, headed to all time favourite - O'braim - while my darling went to cut his hair...
I have a small cut on the tip of my middle finger and it hurts whenever I touch something!!
Btw, I have been bothered by wild smses. These two guys keep bothering me even if I don't entertain them and they know that I am attached! And then Bf will always ask me what they want... And if i am entertaining them (replying to their smses) I think he does not trust me... hahaha! But on the other hand, I think he just cares for me so much and is afraid of losing me. I know, my Bf so the opposite of cute.
Anyways, I got to think of something now. Got to give him words of wisdom so that he would wake up tomorrow and have inspiration to continue his puny life in camp. Soo sad! I wish he does not have to go to camp. So that I can see him everyday :) He is having his evaluation tomorrow so we cant talk much on the phone as per usual... :((
But nevermind :) I shall just wait and wait.... And wait :))
Friday, July 23, 2010
Star-Karat
Guess what?
I was 40 minutes late for driving lesson today... o_O
Possibly the most expensive driving lesson I've had.
It cost me:
$24 - Taxi fare (to and fro plus booking fee)
$12 - Ezlink/nets flashpay (Lost it...)
$65 - Lesson
Thanks uh eh!
I was 40 minutes late for driving lesson today... o_O
Possibly the most expensive driving lesson I've had.
It cost me:
$24 - Taxi fare (to and fro plus booking fee)
$12 - Ezlink/nets flashpay (Lost it...)
$65 - Lesson
Thanks uh eh!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Hello imaginary world.
I had my 5th driving lesson today :) How fun! I've always looked forward to my driving lessons. I enjoy driving 149. I don't know why... Though, It stalls most of the time (The engine stalled twice just now!) But I feel like we are one! haha... how poetic.
I signed up for the One Team Package. Comfort Driving Centre offers this package whereby you just add $5 to your driving lessons, and you'll get a fixed car, with max. of 5 instructors. I have two fixed instructors. These instructors are chosen based on their competent teaching techniques. One of my instructor is a Malay (Mr. H), and one is Chinese (Mr.D). I prefer Mr.H teaching techniques. He finds my faults and then he will tell me the correct procedures. Mr.D's technique is acceptable too. He will tell me the correct technique first and then we will practice and practice until we get it right.
So far, I love my time table structure. One week with Mr.H, 2 lessons. Another week would be with Mr.D... Just for 1 lesson. So I have the daring instructor who lets me drive like a smart-alack for two lessons, and then there's one lesson with the instructor who make me do the same thing over and over again (like left turns only) for 100 minutes as practice. Its like the secondary school days where the teacher gives the students lots and lots of TYS to complete!
Anyway, that's about driving. I have a medical check-up tomorrow and I am quite excited for it, I don't really know why. But at the same time, I feel like... I don't really want to go because I am scared. :D (But its free!)
I signed up for the One Team Package. Comfort Driving Centre offers this package whereby you just add $5 to your driving lessons, and you'll get a fixed car, with max. of 5 instructors. I have two fixed instructors. These instructors are chosen based on their competent teaching techniques. One of my instructor is a Malay (Mr. H), and one is Chinese (Mr.D). I prefer Mr.H teaching techniques. He finds my faults and then he will tell me the correct procedures. Mr.D's technique is acceptable too. He will tell me the correct technique first and then we will practice and practice until we get it right.
So far, I love my time table structure. One week with Mr.H, 2 lessons. Another week would be with Mr.D... Just for 1 lesson. So I have the daring instructor who lets me drive like a smart-alack for two lessons, and then there's one lesson with the instructor who make me do the same thing over and over again (like left turns only) for 100 minutes as practice. Its like the secondary school days where the teacher gives the students lots and lots of TYS to complete!
Anyway, that's about driving. I have a medical check-up tomorrow and I am quite excited for it, I don't really know why. But at the same time, I feel like... I don't really want to go because I am scared. :D (But its free!)
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Can I wake up at 12 later?
Hello imaginary readers Has been so long since I've last blogged... So I guess no body would've realise that I had updated :) Its been a few months upon graduation and I've just passed my Basic Theory Test in less than 4 minutes with a score of 50/50 :D Gonna break another personal record for ftt. If possible... hehe. Anyway, I'm taking my Class 3 license now. YES. 3. Not 3A, thank you very much :) I made a best friend at work :) his name is Riz. I think he is gay. He calls my boyfriend 'sayang'. Hehe. Maybe, my boyfriend is... nvm.
I miss Mama Nur. I wanted to call her but I get too occupied with work and driving and myself! Even Bf is angry with me today cos I did not say much during our phone conversation just now. :(
And this guy from facebook is freaking me out!
I miss Mama Nur. I wanted to call her but I get too occupied with work and driving and myself! Even Bf is angry with me today cos I did not say much during our phone conversation just now. :(
And this guy from facebook is freaking me out!
Monday, June 07, 2010
I just ate Ginger.
Ouh how I despise the taste of ginger and now its reeking all over my mouth! Anyway, here was my day. Since it was my off day, I decided to cancel my plans with Raudhah just to go out with my family. Very much sorry Raudhah. We spent half a day at e!hub. Bowling, accompanied by Magic Wok. Been so long since I've had dinner with my family. :) After which we went to Zone X and spend a lot of $$$ on nothing. But I got a yellow elmo from the happy holder. You know that thing which moves and picks toys and throw them down the chute. Very funny you know. And that thing, is a wallet stripper. hahah. We enjoyed the arcade so much that we almost forgot about the time! So when we got tired, we went to FairPrice and got ourselves Ice creams. Magnum gold, almond and Ecuador. So that was my 'off day'. Proud of myself :P
Thursday, June 03, 2010
Kemana kau menghilangkan diri
I had just made someone's life miserable (hehehe!) But I'll make it up to him tomorrow... I wonder how he would react tomorrow cos I intend to rebond my hair... Mama (His mom) suggested that I rebond my hair so that my hair would look kept and I would have a nicely executed bob. Right now, its all in a mess... Cute thing is, Mama suggested that I do this before he comes back from camp. Alah! Cute kan his mom. hahaha, (mak angkat aku jugak) Anyways, I am taking my Driving License at last! BTT would be 13 July (I know, so far away) and then right now, I have done all four e-trial tests, that I am afraid I would forget the answers by then. Hmph. Insyallah I won't :) Right now, I'm having prac lessons :) and I am so Enjoying it! K thats all for now, Cya later alligator!
Monday, May 17, 2010
One of 'd' Best Date
Current Obsession: Kid Nation (reality tv series)
Had a great 'date' just now :) Could say that I went home yesterday just to sleep for 7 hrs and then woke up to see him again :) hehehe.
Went to watch robin hood with his family... and his aunt whom we call mummy. Daddy and hykel followed to. (Btw thanks daddy for the ride *winks*) I slept during the whole show cos I was so tired! I did not sleep the night before, watching Kid Nation on youtube. Aiyo. hantu sey.
Then today was my 'once a month date' thing. 8D Initial plan was to go lilliputt to play golf... hehehe. But, it changed totally! Noon: Watched 'The Last Song' which made me cried like crazy! Then we went to Big Splash by bus. Stopped at the wrong bus stop and we had to walk!!! like more than 1 km can? *faints* Then we went to the lilliputt to find that the place was 'infested' with small human beings! *dies* In the end, we felt like it was embarrassing to even be in that place. hahaha. 'Trust me sayang, adults can play too!!' So we chilled at KFC instead... (WTT!) Still, at KFC, there was a family with kids. Not that I hate kids or anything. But I get pissed off by the parents cos I feel like they are teaching the kids wrongly... How can 10 kid shout at the same time? And all from different directions, how to eat in peace? (I know, how can I expect every kid to behave like my 4 angels?) Anyway, we cabbed to parkway parade cos I am an idiot at routes. Seriously. And then we searched for a barber like mad. Walked the whole parkway parade to find a QB house or similar to that cos he needed to cut his hair before book in or his weekends would be busted. So we went to marine promenade, the shop houses opposite PP.
Got his hair cut, then we went back to PP. And it was raining! I hate the rain nowadays. They are so indecisive. I should blame it on myself and the other human beings for making the earth sick such that the weather becomes unpredictable. Sorry mother earth, I will learn to become a 'planet vegan'. SAVE MOTHER EARTH!!!
Ok, now. We went through the rain and i was freezing like mad, so I bought myself a very nice green 'dress' which color reminds me of my secondary school skirt. hahaha, But nolah, this one is much better looking. And I changed into that... So that I won't freeze to death *so exaggerating!* Then we had bbq stingray which is not that nice (O'braims better) and then guess what? When we took the lift down to the L1, there was a DAMN HUMONGOUS QB HOUSE!!! We were like 'WHAT???' *high pitch* God knows the feeling. Then we cabbed back home... and when I reached home, I started on our scrapbook :) Can't wait to show him. Hahaha... Things that I propose to do that he made me do that I do for him!~
Had a great 'date' just now :) Could say that I went home yesterday just to sleep for 7 hrs and then woke up to see him again :) hehehe.
Went to watch robin hood with his family... and his aunt whom we call mummy. Daddy and hykel followed to. (Btw thanks daddy for the ride *winks*) I slept during the whole show cos I was so tired! I did not sleep the night before, watching Kid Nation on youtube. Aiyo. hantu sey.
Then today was my 'once a month date' thing. 8D Initial plan was to go lilliputt to play golf... hehehe. But, it changed totally! Noon: Watched 'The Last Song' which made me cried like crazy! Then we went to Big Splash by bus. Stopped at the wrong bus stop and we had to walk!!! like more than 1 km can? *faints* Then we went to the lilliputt to find that the place was 'infested' with small human beings! *dies* In the end, we felt like it was embarrassing to even be in that place. hahaha. 'Trust me sayang, adults can play too!!' So we chilled at KFC instead... (WTT!) Still, at KFC, there was a family with kids. Not that I hate kids or anything. But I get pissed off by the parents cos I feel like they are teaching the kids wrongly... How can 10 kid shout at the same time? And all from different directions, how to eat in peace? (I know, how can I expect every kid to behave like my 4 angels?) Anyway, we cabbed to parkway parade cos I am an idiot at routes. Seriously. And then we searched for a barber like mad. Walked the whole parkway parade to find a QB house or similar to that cos he needed to cut his hair before book in or his weekends would be busted. So we went to marine promenade, the shop houses opposite PP.
Got his hair cut, then we went back to PP. And it was raining! I hate the rain nowadays. They are so indecisive. I should blame it on myself and the other human beings for making the earth sick such that the weather becomes unpredictable. Sorry mother earth, I will learn to become a 'planet vegan'. SAVE MOTHER EARTH!!!
Ok, now. We went through the rain and i was freezing like mad, so I bought myself a very nice green 'dress' which color reminds me of my secondary school skirt. hahaha, But nolah, this one is much better looking. And I changed into that... So that I won't freeze to death *so exaggerating!* Then we had bbq stingray which is not that nice (O'braims better) and then guess what? When we took the lift down to the L1, there was a DAMN HUMONGOUS QB HOUSE!!! We were like 'WHAT???' *high pitch* God knows the feeling. Then we cabbed back home... and when I reached home, I started on our scrapbook :) Can't wait to show him. Hahaha... Things that I propose to do that he made me do that I do for him!~
Monday, May 10, 2010
I want you to be here
Maybe if you were by my side, It would be much easier for me to sleep every night.
Shall I blame you for being the cause of these dark eye circles and eye bags?
Can I listen to your voice every morning but hate you for calling me late at night?
and then, that would mean that I am being selfish now, aren't I?
I can't believe it. I can't accept the fact. That even after 1 year, 5 months and 10 days, you still make me think of you... Like as if I 'hypothetically' fell in love for the first time! (It took me months to really fall for you ;) )
I hate you for making me feel this way.
Seriously :P
*I will complain to MinDef and ask "why my boyfriend have to stay-in everytime?!"*
Shall I blame you for being the cause of these dark eye circles and eye bags?
Can I listen to your voice every morning but hate you for calling me late at night?
and then, that would mean that I am being selfish now, aren't I?
I can't believe it. I can't accept the fact. That even after 1 year, 5 months and 10 days, you still make me think of you... Like as if I 'hypothetically' fell in love for the first time! (It took me months to really fall for you ;) )
I hate you for making me feel this way.
Seriously :P
*I will complain to MinDef and ask "why my boyfriend have to stay-in everytime?!"*
Sorry girls, this might bore you!
Apart from topics about NS, what else bores girls like ZizyZieza to the max of the core? Soccer! Hahha. Can't believe it but I am so gonna blog about the premier league tonight. hahaha. Girls, it might help if you put in some interest into topics that guys are interested in... Especially if you wanna have great quality fun and healthy enjoyment with your partners! :) (Who am i? a love psych? Oh i forgot i used to work as an assistant for the Mahkamah Syarie consultants... JK! )
Every guy in FB is like going crazy about how Chelsea won. Some can't accept the fact as they rooted on MU. I rooted for chelsea ever since I got together with my BF. Used to be a MU fan. Whatever he likes, I will like (sub-consciously) So now I root for the Blues :) Sweet kan? Hehe. *Crazy*
Anyway, Chelsea 8-0! woo hoo baik per! The new paper's prediction was accurate :) Ok here's the funny, embarrassing and *slap forehead* moment.
We were at the shop I think, then we talked about Soccer. hahahaha. Mama (hakam's mom) and Hakam were talking about Jose Mourinho and Inter and what not. After their long conversation about how Jose won some titles and gained controversial popularity due to his outspoken nature, I cut in and asked "eh? Jose menang berape Goal?". And they were stunned. Mama was like "Amyra tau tak Jose tu siape?" I was like... 'Obviously I dunno. I thought they were talking about a Brazillian player or something like that. ' Then they laughed at me... and now it's becoming a joke. hahaha. Whenever they talk about soccer, there will be some one asking " So berape goal Jose score?" Ya Allah, I wanna dig a hole and hide my face!
"Hehe... Cute lah you ni" ~That's all you can say?! Thanks eh! :/
I give a salute to mama cos she is more knowledgeable than me about stuff like this. Soccer and current affairs regarding hollywood... Ah, What do I know? Business and politics?! Like how Sands are doing well in Singapore but not in Las Vegas? And how people are going bonkers over the MOE's mother tongue assessment weightage reduction... I feel so old already... BLEAH!
btw, I'm starting to get tired of the Berita Harian. Don't you think that they have nothing to talk about actually?
Every guy in FB is like going crazy about how Chelsea won. Some can't accept the fact as they rooted on MU. I rooted for chelsea ever since I got together with my BF. Used to be a MU fan. Whatever he likes, I will like (sub-consciously) So now I root for the Blues :) Sweet kan? Hehe. *Crazy*
Anyway, Chelsea 8-0! woo hoo baik per! The new paper's prediction was accurate :) Ok here's the funny, embarrassing and *slap forehead* moment.
We were at the shop I think, then we talked about Soccer. hahahaha. Mama (hakam's mom) and Hakam were talking about Jose Mourinho and Inter and what not. After their long conversation about how Jose won some titles and gained controversial popularity due to his outspoken nature, I cut in and asked "eh? Jose menang berape Goal?". And they were stunned. Mama was like "Amyra tau tak Jose tu siape?" I was like... 'Obviously I dunno. I thought they were talking about a Brazillian player or something like that. ' Then they laughed at me... and now it's becoming a joke. hahaha. Whenever they talk about soccer, there will be some one asking " So berape goal Jose score?" Ya Allah, I wanna dig a hole and hide my face!
"Hehe... Cute lah you ni" ~That's all you can say?! Thanks eh! :/
I give a salute to mama cos she is more knowledgeable than me about stuff like this. Soccer and current affairs regarding hollywood... Ah, What do I know? Business and politics?! Like how Sands are doing well in Singapore but not in Las Vegas? And how people are going bonkers over the MOE's mother tongue assessment weightage reduction... I feel so old already... BLEAH!
btw, I'm starting to get tired of the Berita Harian. Don't you think that they have nothing to talk about actually?
Sunday, May 09, 2010
Please accept me for who I am
I may sound Arrogant, Snobbish, Defiant, Ungrateful...
But those are what you want to hear, what you want to see...
I am not like that. I know. I want to be the best and I try.
I can't be perfect, and even if i have the credibility, life is not that fair for me.
I only depend on Him and it's hard for me to express how grateful I am to you.
I know I am lucky to have such great people who care for me in my life.
It seems like there are a lot of people who has my interest at heart. And I am so grateful for that. :)
Alhamdulillah.
I just want to say that, whatever I do, I will always pray that it is good for me, and I know. And I will always think before I act. That is a promise. So please, stop worrying. I want to live my life in full contentment before I die.
But those are what you want to hear, what you want to see...
I am not like that. I know. I want to be the best and I try.
I can't be perfect, and even if i have the credibility, life is not that fair for me.
I only depend on Him and it's hard for me to express how grateful I am to you.
I know I am lucky to have such great people who care for me in my life.
It seems like there are a lot of people who has my interest at heart. And I am so grateful for that. :)
Alhamdulillah.
I just want to say that, whatever I do, I will always pray that it is good for me, and I know. And I will always think before I act. That is a promise. So please, stop worrying. I want to live my life in full contentment before I die.
You have to learn to let go.
I find it funny. How I am still so lonely yet I still feel care from people. Maybe they care for me but they just don't support what I do... Or they don't believe in me? Or are they scared of the truth? Or am I just being ignorant? Or what??
I am so confused and no one's helping me. You know what is pulling me together? You should have guessed by now if you have been paying attention. :)
I am so confused and no one's helping me. You know what is pulling me together? You should have guessed by now if you have been paying attention. :)
Saturday, May 08, 2010
:))
Today went out fine... Although it started with a shock.
Papa (Mama nur's husband) was admitted to the hospital so we rushed to Johor at 8.30 am in the morning. We only reached Johor at around 11 am and then we had breakfast at ayah's favourite spot before we went on to Hospital Sultanah Aminah. I felt so grateful for being born in Singapore. Even though I support the opposition party, hahahaha. I must commend on the health and security system here. So different from Malaysia. Ayah said the situation there reminded him of Singapore a couple of years ago where the health system was not as 'standard' as now. I pity papa. I wish he could be admitted to a Singapore hospital instead. :(
But on the bright side, today could be one of the best days of my life :) Because I got to spend my time with the people dear to me!
Papa (Mama nur's husband) was admitted to the hospital so we rushed to Johor at 8.30 am in the morning. We only reached Johor at around 11 am and then we had breakfast at ayah's favourite spot before we went on to Hospital Sultanah Aminah. I felt so grateful for being born in Singapore. Even though I support the opposition party, hahahaha. I must commend on the health and security system here. So different from Malaysia. Ayah said the situation there reminded him of Singapore a couple of years ago where the health system was not as 'standard' as now. I pity papa. I wish he could be admitted to a Singapore hospital instead. :(
But on the bright side, today could be one of the best days of my life :) Because I got to spend my time with the people dear to me!
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Am I romantic or what?
I have a problem.
I want to do alot of things, but I don't know where to start.
This is a big problem.
Ok. Always do what I use to do.
Write it all down and plan what to do first.
1) Start collating pictures before next outing with him cos if not, Im gonna get wallup-ed!
2) Ask mama nur for my aunt's number. I need to take that graduation gown.
3) Memorise Surah Yasin
4) Finish those books. So that I can buy new ones.
5) Which reminds me, I should sign up for that Times Bookstore card.
6) Gain more weight!
Now that I've wrote it down, it seems like my mind is straightened out. :)
Yeay! Now I miss him and I want to give him a subtle surprise this weekend when he comes back :)
*Im hungry btw. Should wake my sister up to accompany me to cook up something for the tummy.
I want to do alot of things, but I don't know where to start.
This is a big problem.
Ok. Always do what I use to do.
Write it all down and plan what to do first.
1) Start collating pictures before next outing with him cos if not, Im gonna get wallup-ed!
2) Ask mama nur for my aunt's number. I need to take that graduation gown.
3) Memorise Surah Yasin
4) Finish those books. So that I can buy new ones.
5) Which reminds me, I should sign up for that Times Bookstore card.
6) Gain more weight!
Now that I've wrote it down, it seems like my mind is straightened out. :)
Yeay! Now I miss him and I want to give him a subtle surprise this weekend when he comes back :)
*Im hungry btw. Should wake my sister up to accompany me to cook up something for the tummy.
The Power Of Love
"Eyes. Heart. Mind.
The best gifts from God.
But which one would you use most?"
You inspire me.
It's like the light at the end of the tunnel.
With you smiling at me,
it makes me pinch myself a thousand times
Wondering if I'm in a dream.
When the hearts break,
I know I would be spared.
Cos everytime before we could,
We knew parting couldn't be beared.
I just love the way you tried to get me when no one else could.
How you made me fell, stutter everytime we meet.
And everytime I wonder, if you were an angel from above.
Guiding me through my thick and thin.
Being patient with me, even when I'm in the brink of madness.
Temperamental. That's what the dictionary would define.
And You turned my world into divine. Something I had never seen.
And I don't remember loving anyone as much as I do to you.
You just turn me into someone new.
And I always wonder if that is heaven sent.
Love is blind, I know.
Love is pure, I see.
Love is eternal, I feel.
Loving is not using your eyes or mind.
It is and has always been~ in your heart.
Unconditionally.
PS:
Amy Loves You.
The best gifts from God.
But which one would you use most?"
You inspire me.
It's like the light at the end of the tunnel.
With you smiling at me,
it makes me pinch myself a thousand times
Wondering if I'm in a dream.
When the hearts break,
I know I would be spared.
Cos everytime before we could,
We knew parting couldn't be beared.
I just love the way you tried to get me when no one else could.
How you made me fell, stutter everytime we meet.
And everytime I wonder, if you were an angel from above.
Guiding me through my thick and thin.
Being patient with me, even when I'm in the brink of madness.
Temperamental. That's what the dictionary would define.
And You turned my world into divine. Something I had never seen.
And I don't remember loving anyone as much as I do to you.
You just turn me into someone new.
And I always wonder if that is heaven sent.
Love is blind, I know.
Love is pure, I see.
Love is eternal, I feel.
Loving is not using your eyes or mind.
It is and has always been~ in your heart.
Unconditionally.
PS:
Amy Loves You.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
How's life right now?
Missed my laptop! My cousin kidnapped it for like three days?! Ok now that its back safe and sound, I am so relieved.
Ibu's friend came to our house and asked me what am I doing now? Trust me, that question is like a taboo question for me because I don't really know how to answer. And people being people, just want to hear what they want to hear. So just now, my answer sounded like this.
Ibu's friend: Dik kerje kat mana?
Me: Kat Sengkang
Ibu's friend: Sales eh?
Me: Ya... (Something like that, I guess)
Ibu's friend: Oh, Buat ape? Makanan eh? You masak ke serve?
Me: Yah. uhm... I think both kot?
Then I smiled and I walked out of the house, off to work.
I don't know why now I feel like I can face the world. I must say, it is a good feeling. Like I know what I want. And I know it. I just know it. Like I don't feel uncertain anymore.
You know. Everybody has dreams. Get married, have a good life, retire peacefully and what not. Mine is so simple. Yet, its the most difficult. Be a good muslim. Heaven is my strive. But im going so far away from it, I don't think I can do it. Even now, I feel like I should put a halt to my 'hijab plan'. I don't think i am ready to bring the 'muslimah' title. He is not ready, So I can't be ready.
I don't really know why, but I think I am making things difficult for myself. :) Funny. I really think that I am achieving personal and communal success through this choice of path. Working with my Godparents who happens to be both my boyfriend's and best friend's parents. I feel like, when I am with them, I learn so much about life and being a muslim. That's what I like, It's exposure, if you could put it that way. Of course, my parents would like me to work in a design firm. But I just have no interest in design anymore. I think design is an utter waste of time if it were to be made as a full time job. I think I'll do more facebook than I'll do working. Trust me. And it leads to an unhealthy lifestyle while meeting different snobbish people from the other companies and having to work with them. I just don't see it in myself.
I have fun while working at O'braim. And I learn... A lot. Be it about life, be it about happiness... Sometimes marriage and a lot about business. Hahaha. And most importantly, I learn about how I should think and bring myself. What should I display, and what is good/bad.
Smile, and you will receive lots of smiles back. Frown and a huge argument awaits. Just don't laugh like crazy, else a slap awaits you. hahaha. Die die die. Different people with different attitudes and different perception. I tell you, my life is a very entertaining one. I can blog about what happens on that day for a whole night and still not finish blogging. The controversies, the jokes... The tears and laughter... All in one.
I'm still wondering why Ayah Aim likes my maternal grandmother. maybe its because she is very simple? She is the only one who supports me when I made the decision to work for O'braim. Trust me.
Ok so till we meet again,
Salam :)
Ibu's friend came to our house and asked me what am I doing now? Trust me, that question is like a taboo question for me because I don't really know how to answer. And people being people, just want to hear what they want to hear. So just now, my answer sounded like this.
Ibu's friend: Dik kerje kat mana?
Me: Kat Sengkang
Ibu's friend: Sales eh?
Me: Ya... (Something like that, I guess)
Ibu's friend: Oh, Buat ape? Makanan eh? You masak ke serve?
Me: Yah. uhm... I think both kot?
Then I smiled and I walked out of the house, off to work.
I don't know why now I feel like I can face the world. I must say, it is a good feeling. Like I know what I want. And I know it. I just know it. Like I don't feel uncertain anymore.
You know. Everybody has dreams. Get married, have a good life, retire peacefully and what not. Mine is so simple. Yet, its the most difficult. Be a good muslim. Heaven is my strive. But im going so far away from it, I don't think I can do it. Even now, I feel like I should put a halt to my 'hijab plan'. I don't think i am ready to bring the 'muslimah' title. He is not ready, So I can't be ready.
I don't really know why, but I think I am making things difficult for myself. :) Funny. I really think that I am achieving personal and communal success through this choice of path. Working with my Godparents who happens to be both my boyfriend's and best friend's parents. I feel like, when I am with them, I learn so much about life and being a muslim. That's what I like, It's exposure, if you could put it that way. Of course, my parents would like me to work in a design firm. But I just have no interest in design anymore. I think design is an utter waste of time if it were to be made as a full time job. I think I'll do more facebook than I'll do working. Trust me. And it leads to an unhealthy lifestyle while meeting different snobbish people from the other companies and having to work with them. I just don't see it in myself.
I have fun while working at O'braim. And I learn... A lot. Be it about life, be it about happiness... Sometimes marriage and a lot about business. Hahaha. And most importantly, I learn about how I should think and bring myself. What should I display, and what is good/bad.
Smile, and you will receive lots of smiles back. Frown and a huge argument awaits. Just don't laugh like crazy, else a slap awaits you. hahaha. Die die die. Different people with different attitudes and different perception. I tell you, my life is a very entertaining one. I can blog about what happens on that day for a whole night and still not finish blogging. The controversies, the jokes... The tears and laughter... All in one.
I'm still wondering why Ayah Aim likes my maternal grandmother. maybe its because she is very simple? She is the only one who supports me when I made the decision to work for O'braim. Trust me.
Ok so till we meet again,
Salam :)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I'm bored
I want to post some pictures that I took, but its so... Anyway.
just put it as, I am lazy to upload the pictures. Will upload soon okay!
So, The last time we went out was when we went to Sentosa.
We had fun with the luge... haha. Saw RWS, Had a really fun time...
Sad thing we couldn't do SegWay. Okay! I am so going to do SegWay and megazip next time.
But next month's outing would be Lily putt. Hmm Gonna check out if they have a website.
And Darling wants to do Ice Skating? Hhaha. Where? Not Explorer Kid's for sure...
Okay! Lets do some research shall we?
I miss him, I always think of him after all that has happened just now :)
just put it as, I am lazy to upload the pictures. Will upload soon okay!
So, The last time we went out was when we went to Sentosa.
We had fun with the luge... haha. Saw RWS, Had a really fun time...
Sad thing we couldn't do SegWay. Okay! I am so going to do SegWay and megazip next time.
But next month's outing would be Lily putt. Hmm Gonna check out if they have a website.
And Darling wants to do Ice Skating? Hhaha. Where? Not Explorer Kid's for sure...
Okay! Lets do some research shall we?
I miss him, I always think of him after all that has happened just now :)
It's near 4 and I've yet to sleep!
I know I've promised you not to vent my anger at you. But oh dear, I couldn't help myself. I hate it when I do that to you, because I know you do not deserve it. We both know. After telling you all that was hidden in my tiny heart, I can't believe you trust me. I did not expect that. I've never felt love so strong from someone else except from my mother or aunt. But you trusted me, you believed me and forgave me. You even told me you would protect me... I feel so grateful. So honoured, so blessed to be with you.
I will never bring myself to betray you or hurt you. This, I promise myself :) Allah has His ways of working His magic.
I love you. I know you know :)
I will never bring myself to betray you or hurt you. This, I promise myself :) Allah has His ways of working His magic.
I love you. I know you know :)
Monday, April 26, 2010
Nenek's birthday
It's nenek's birthday today, and I had a surprise for her which made her almost cry... I think, that was the best birthday present I gave to anyone in my life, accidentally. When nenek saw it, she hugged me real tight. I was moved, almost in the verge of tears :) Will post some pictures soon.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Dan aku fikir-fikir, dan terus memikir
Ya Allah,
Dugaan apa yang telah kau berikan kepadaku?
Apa kah hikmah disebalik semua ini?
Kejadian-kejadian yang berlaku,
Sumpah setiaku kepadaMU?
Ya Zahir,
Kau yang memandang segalanya,
Namun hanya kau lah yang tahu segala yang tertulis di benak ini.
Lindungi lah hambaMu yang kian lemah,
Dibaur debuan asap neraka mengaburi mata.
Aturkanlah langkahku, untuk meniti titian yang kian rapuh
Bagaikan berjalan di atas seutas benang,
merentas langit yang tinggi,
Sungguh ku tak berdaya.
Rintangan dan badai yang harus ku lalui,
Demi Yang Hayy, Demi Yang Qayyum.
Akan ku harungi dengan penuh jiwa dan raga.
Dugaan apa yang telah kau berikan kepadaku?
Apa kah hikmah disebalik semua ini?
Kejadian-kejadian yang berlaku,
Sumpah setiaku kepadaMU?
Ya Zahir,
Kau yang memandang segalanya,
Namun hanya kau lah yang tahu segala yang tertulis di benak ini.
Lindungi lah hambaMu yang kian lemah,
Dibaur debuan asap neraka mengaburi mata.
Aturkanlah langkahku, untuk meniti titian yang kian rapuh
Bagaikan berjalan di atas seutas benang,
merentas langit yang tinggi,
Sungguh ku tak berdaya.
Rintangan dan badai yang harus ku lalui,
Demi Yang Hayy, Demi Yang Qayyum.
Akan ku harungi dengan penuh jiwa dan raga.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Life...
Life has never felt better I guess.... No stress about school, no stress about not having enough $$$... hahahaha.(Gerek Kan)... But then, as I move on, new challenges arise and I have to face them one by one. No matter how tough, no matter how disheartening, no matter how discouraging!
I am so happy today because mr.H is on luggage off tomorrow. :) So, we'll be going out with his family :)) Yeay! (I can't believe it, I had just came back from having supper with his fam an hr ago. And now I can't wait to see them? hahahah)
But seriously, I so can't wait. We are going to Vivo tmr I guess. :)) SHOPPING! ahhahah. (Like I shop every day, nowadays! Hello?!) Im enjoying life while waiting for graduation. :) Im thinking of working for O'braim and at the same time do some freelance (like as if that freelance is going to happen!) but hey! You never know. Wealth and fortune is in God's hands. :)
so, Tawakallah.
I am so happy today because mr.H is on luggage off tomorrow. :) So, we'll be going out with his family :)) Yeay! (I can't believe it, I had just came back from having supper with his fam an hr ago. And now I can't wait to see them? hahahah)
But seriously, I so can't wait. We are going to Vivo tmr I guess. :)) SHOPPING! ahhahah. (Like I shop every day, nowadays! Hello?!) Im enjoying life while waiting for graduation. :) Im thinking of working for O'braim and at the same time do some freelance (like as if that freelance is going to happen!) but hey! You never know. Wealth and fortune is in God's hands. :)
so, Tawakallah.
Saturday, April 03, 2010
Insomnia
I still cant sleep and its near to 5. I think I am stressed out or depressed? or just simply nocturnal? I wanted to watch santau but was too scared. haha. So suspense. Shall just wait for tomorrow.
Ok, back to why I may be stressed. My parents want me to continue with my studies. Thats not the main problem. The main problem is that they do not seem to understand my dreams. My realistic dreams. They want me to have my own design firm. They want me to embark to Malaysia or Australia. But I will have to do that alone? I'm not an 'alone' type of person. Why can't they see that?
My realistic dreams include managing my own restaurant.
i don't know.
uncertain.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Wont see you on friday
I am feeling like a total outcast in my family now. My parents are talking about me with my relatives on facebook. Behind my back? That's funny and sad at the same time. The effect? Tears. All of this started because I decided to work WITH O'braim, my GodParent's business.
My family thinks im working FOR them. And because I want to be near to my boyfriend or i don't exactly know what they think. But what I'm sure is that they don't understand me. Sometimes I get fed up because they think i am stupid or something? I get fed up that I do not even bother. After all the good that I've done? Nothing comes out worth it. Trust me, it has always been like that. And it is very depressing. Imagine, if you have cleaned the house and your parents say you have not cleaned it and that you are lazy and what not, would you like it? After all the effort and hard work you have put in... My life is like that. In simple words, nobody.... Zilch! No body, appreciates me. If you happen to read this post and you appreciate my existence in your life, please tag me. So I know. Otherwise...
So, we have a family gathering this friday. And we are going to JB. Ya I said we. But now, its 'they'. I have decided not to go because I had just found out my father had been updating his status about me in his FB and my aunts are like talking behind my back. Hypocrites. They seem like they understand me in front of me but it so happens that they are talking behind my back.
I am so upset. I feel like running away until I can show my face. I feel so... so... SAD. Well, I guess I'm better of gone, until i can clear my name, If not they'd call me the infidel after dreamcrasher or living off someother's fortune.
My message: I don't know what the future holds for me. I have been given choices. And I chose the one nearest to Allah. If you can't accept what I am doing, then I don't have any loss because 1) I am happy with what I am doing, 2) I give donation to elders (does your child give their grandmother money? or do they ASK her for money? 3) I help my parents. 4) I do not do drugs or smoke or whatever nonsense. (Even if I do, that's my problem, But I DON'T) 5) I am going to have a diploma in hand, If my initial plan does not work out smoothly, I will sit in that chair and chop passports to get 1.8k every month juat to keep your mouths shut.
Why are you always talking about me? I will drive that Jaguar one day and trust me, all of you will be going like "oh tu anak sedara aku!". Just wait until that day comes and BOOMZ! I will have the last laugh.
Dreamcrasher Signing off.
Friday, March 05, 2010
3 days
Another 18 more days.
Maybe the gap is leaving us both depressed. That's why there's tension. I want to be happy, you want to be happy. We want to be happy like we always do. Its hard knowing that we can't talk so much on the phone now... I know. And I can't sleep, I can't eat... I just can't be normal. And my feelings, they are shaky. I don't have you to talk to. I don't have you to listen to me and my dreams. I feel like I don't have you like I did before.
But honey you know what? This is another new obstacle we have to go through. And I don't want to give up. After all we've been through... I don't care what you bring back for me cos bringing yourself back home is enough for me. I pray that you are safe and sound over there. I pray that tomorrow, I'd have the chance to apologise to you. I pray that I will start loving myself more than you love me... So that I will be healthy and lead a very happy life :D. Amin.
Regret for listening to you: A day. Regret for not talking to you: A life time.
Forever and Always... Missing you.
Maybe the gap is leaving us both depressed. That's why there's tension. I want to be happy, you want to be happy. We want to be happy like we always do. Its hard knowing that we can't talk so much on the phone now... I know. And I can't sleep, I can't eat... I just can't be normal. And my feelings, they are shaky. I don't have you to talk to. I don't have you to listen to me and my dreams. I feel like I don't have you like I did before.
But honey you know what? This is another new obstacle we have to go through. And I don't want to give up. After all we've been through... I don't care what you bring back for me cos bringing yourself back home is enough for me. I pray that you are safe and sound over there. I pray that tomorrow, I'd have the chance to apologise to you. I pray that I will start loving myself more than you love me... So that I will be healthy and lead a very happy life :D. Amin.
Regret for listening to you: A day. Regret for not talking to you: A life time.
Forever and Always... Missing you.
Thursday, March 04, 2010
To the ENT
Had referral to Changi General Hospital for my ear implications. Guess what was the implications? There's like a stone in my right ear, and there's a heavy bruise in my left ear.
First, one of the doctors wanted to conduct a hearing test. But he told me that he cant do the test as i have to clean up my ear first. So, I waited for Dr Peter Lu. He told me to sit on this chair... And then he used like a vacuum thing to suck out all the wax and dirt. There was one point of time where he accidentally placed the sucker on my bruise and I almost cried. hahaha. All the way, I told myself, all of this is going to be over in a minute. But that 'minute' was like ages!
Moving on, He proceeded to my right ear. He started cleaning it like nobody's business... then suddenly, he stopped because there was a hard thing inside my ear. So, I had to go to the room with the microscope above my head. And there I was, lying on the bed. So. He sat beside me and took the microscope and then looked into my ears. There was one part, he asked the nurse for a hook. A HOOK??? What the toots is a hook man? I was scared. I was hoping he would put me on anesthetics or something... The scenario reminded me of the movie 'Awaken' I think. About that guy who did not fall asleep while he was being operated. Nice movie. Anyway. In the end, he took out that stone. Hahaha. Finally. No I can hear much better.
For my left ear, however... There is a hole in my ear drum... so the doctor gave me ear drops to fill it up. There's sponge in my left ear now. So its blocked... And, you wanna know what is the cause of all these? Flu. Because there is so much phlegm in my body, it had affected the ear, causing infection. :( See what a flu can do to you? And how did he know that I had alot if phlegm in my body?
The doctor gave me anesthetics for my nose.... and then he put in the microscope into my nostrils. So he saw a lot of phlegm.
Disgusting story... I know. But hey, you never know... It might just happen to you :)
*Insyallah tak*
Anyway, Thank you for loving and caring so much about me.
You love me more than I love myself.
And I thank Him so much for that.
Thank God for you and your sister :)
First, one of the doctors wanted to conduct a hearing test. But he told me that he cant do the test as i have to clean up my ear first. So, I waited for Dr Peter Lu. He told me to sit on this chair... And then he used like a vacuum thing to suck out all the wax and dirt. There was one point of time where he accidentally placed the sucker on my bruise and I almost cried. hahaha. All the way, I told myself, all of this is going to be over in a minute. But that 'minute' was like ages!
Moving on, He proceeded to my right ear. He started cleaning it like nobody's business... then suddenly, he stopped because there was a hard thing inside my ear. So, I had to go to the room with the microscope above my head. And there I was, lying on the bed. So. He sat beside me and took the microscope and then looked into my ears. There was one part, he asked the nurse for a hook. A HOOK??? What the toots is a hook man? I was scared. I was hoping he would put me on anesthetics or something... The scenario reminded me of the movie 'Awaken' I think. About that guy who did not fall asleep while he was being operated. Nice movie. Anyway. In the end, he took out that stone. Hahaha. Finally. No I can hear much better.
For my left ear, however... There is a hole in my ear drum... so the doctor gave me ear drops to fill it up. There's sponge in my left ear now. So its blocked... And, you wanna know what is the cause of all these? Flu. Because there is so much phlegm in my body, it had affected the ear, causing infection. :( See what a flu can do to you? And how did he know that I had alot if phlegm in my body?
The doctor gave me anesthetics for my nose.... and then he put in the microscope into my nostrils. So he saw a lot of phlegm.
Disgusting story... I know. But hey, you never know... It might just happen to you :)
*Insyallah tak*
Anyway, Thank you for loving and caring so much about me.
You love me more than I love myself.
And I thank Him so much for that.
Thank God for you and your sister :)
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Dear Allah,
Ya Malik, Through your utmost powers and willingness, please bear him safety throughout his outfield days. Ya Rahman, Shower him with your blessings and guidance, such that he becomes your most faithful one. Ya Razzaq, Grant him his good supplications so that his family would enjoy his fruits of labour. Ya Aleem, Lead him to the wise and knowledgeable ones and refrain him from the sly and cunning. Ya Muhaimin, Bring him joy and laughter through is thick and thin, so long as he knows that You are always by his side, protecting him. After all, you are Al - Sami' of supplications.
May praises be to Allah s.w.t and His Prophet s.a.w.
May praises be to Allah s.w.t and His Prophet s.a.w.
Here comes goodbye
For three weeks at least.
No more late night calls, but more prayers for his safety.
No more late night calls, but more prayers for his safety.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Tears in heaven
I wish I could take back my words.
Just like how you took yours from me.
It seems like a hobby, the way you make me give up and in.
You make me cry and laugh at the same time.
Keep me wondering if this is what I deserve.
After all that I've done and what we've been through.
I can't sleep and its not your fault. Its mine.
Just like how you took yours from me.
It seems like a hobby, the way you make me give up and in.
You make me cry and laugh at the same time.
Keep me wondering if this is what I deserve.
After all that I've done and what we've been through.
I can't sleep and its not your fault. Its mine.
Just as stars were shining so bright
It's 2:17 am in the morning and I am stressed out. I have never been on an extensive emotional roller coaster such as this. Have you ever felt like you thought your prayers had been answered and you can't believe that something that you had given up on, was coming true? But just as you were about to start believing, big news came and you can't live your dream. Heh. Pam. Boomz. *Glass shatters* Oh my god. Tragic. I don't know what or how to react right now.
Another one more will come... And you will feel the same way that I do, and by that time, I hope you won't regret. Because maybe by that time, we won't feel the same.
Now you know.
Another one more will come... And you will feel the same way that I do, and by that time, I hope you won't regret. Because maybe by that time, we won't feel the same.
Now you know.
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
When you start missing somebody
I was window shopping with my girlfriends (Azizah and Sarah) and when we went to Cotton On, there was this one particular section in the shop which has this distinct scent of his perfume. I swear, I felt like I fell into his embracement. And it was such a good feeling. I felt like being loved and secured. Is that how you define 'miss', mama? When you hear his voice when its just silence accompanying you all night long... When you feel his presence, but its only you and these four walls.
He is one in a million and he is my one and only.
He is one in a million and he is my one and only.
إشتقت إليك, عبدالØكام
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Future
Sometimes I ask and wonder. What the future would be? Some people would put it as end of the world - like the movie 2012, Some would say that the earth would be at its weakest point. My Idea of the future would be... Islam would rise again. We would lead the world. Something a lot of people are afraid of. But thats my view of the world's future.
But My parent's question for me would be 'What are you going to do after graduation?'. Not only my parents ask me that, may uncles and aunties do to. You know, its like... The KFC advertisement on tv now, When the grandmother asks the boy whether he has a girlfriend or not and 'interrogates' him... But he just ate the KFC chicken to buffer out the 'noise'. Unfortunately for me, my uncles and aunties are 'Super - Canggih'. Now, they use facebook! Don't have to wait for Hari Raya or any gathering. I will still be bombarded with these kind of questions.
I guess some would think I want to get married after I graduate. And oh so many of them disagree. Haha. I'm not going to get married okay. I will only after I have let my family taste my wealth. haha. I still have my dreams. And I am working on it still. Even if I want to get married, it would be a complicated process and I will work hard towards my dream wedding and my dream 'life after marriage'. So it takes a lot of preparation for now. I'm working backwards you know.
As for my career, hmm... I am not ashamed of my dreams - just embarrassed to tell. Let's just leave it as, for me to know, for you to find out. Like I said, I'm working backwards. It all starts from My Dream Eternity Life (In the Hereafter)
But My parent's question for me would be 'What are you going to do after graduation?'. Not only my parents ask me that, may uncles and aunties do to. You know, its like... The KFC advertisement on tv now, When the grandmother asks the boy whether he has a girlfriend or not and 'interrogates' him... But he just ate the KFC chicken to buffer out the 'noise'. Unfortunately for me, my uncles and aunties are 'Super - Canggih'. Now, they use facebook! Don't have to wait for Hari Raya or any gathering. I will still be bombarded with these kind of questions.
I guess some would think I want to get married after I graduate. And oh so many of them disagree. Haha. I'm not going to get married okay. I will only after I have let my family taste my wealth. haha. I still have my dreams. And I am working on it still. Even if I want to get married, it would be a complicated process and I will work hard towards my dream wedding and my dream 'life after marriage'. So it takes a lot of preparation for now. I'm working backwards you know.
As for my career, hmm... I am not ashamed of my dreams - just embarrassed to tell. Let's just leave it as, for me to know, for you to find out. Like I said, I'm working backwards. It all starts from My Dream Eternity Life (In the Hereafter)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Chicken Lover's Casserole
So I made one of my all time favourite (two in one!), in which I still have yet to name it... It took me less than half an hour to make it, even though it states there preparation takes around 1h 15 mins. The casserole, just fyi, is actually served as Baked Rice in Swensen's. I can't believe that I've badok-ed that dish almost everytime I visit Swensens just to find out that it is easy to prepare and its much more Tastier and Cheaper! So money saved, Cravings satisfied plus bonus quality time with the family :) Should cook more often... hehe.
Preparation wise, it was not tedious though. Could have just used Campbell's cream of mushroom but I decided to make my own because... I wanted to? After all, if anything is instant, it wouldn't be 'I cooked' now, would it? The mushroom soup turned out great though, Praises be to Allah, and - and... The mozarella was great. Now we just have to remember that we don't use Mozarella for cheese fries... :) We Use Cheddar, Nina!
Maybe, Next up would be... Ayam lemak cili padi?! Favourite! Mmhmm! Have fun looking, I know its tantalising. I drooled while taking the picture. But it did not drop on the food! *Ziza, I know you would go "E-e-ewwwww-w-w-w" (like a sheep) heh.
Preparation wise, it was not tedious though. Could have just used Campbell's cream of mushroom but I decided to make my own because... I wanted to? After all, if anything is instant, it wouldn't be 'I cooked' now, would it? The mushroom soup turned out great though, Praises be to Allah, and - and... The mozarella was great. Now we just have to remember that we don't use Mozarella for cheese fries... :) We Use Cheddar, Nina!
Maybe, Next up would be... Ayam lemak cili padi?! Favourite! Mmhmm! Have fun looking, I know its tantalising. I drooled while taking the picture. But it did not drop on the food! *Ziza, I know you would go "E-e-ewwwww-w-w-w" (like a sheep) heh.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I can't believe this...
As I was on the phone with my boyfriend, I was looking through the recipes for my Casserole. I so can't wait to try this recipe because I am craving for something creamy, juicy, and 'fattening'! Haha. I've done pastas and lasagnas but never baked rice. So its something new and this made me realise something.... hmm. That's a good start... *Talks to self*
I've prepared my shopping list and I'm ready to go. I have to try this recipe by this Friday so... We'll see! Wish me luck :))
I've prepared my shopping list and I'm ready to go. I have to try this recipe by this Friday so... We'll see! Wish me luck :))
Backache
I ended up not going to school because of my backache. How did I get it? Well, I woke up with 1/4 of my body hanging from the right side of the bed. So, my head was resting on air. The only support that I had was my back (right below the armpit area). So, what a devastating way to wake up! (Should be thankful that I wake up!)
The funny thing was, I did not realise or rather, I could not feel that I was sleeping like that. Maybe the fatigue? Could be.
So my day was blissfully spent watching a movie that I had longed to watch 'Julie & Julia'... :) Quite an inspiration though... It has inspired me to cook. Should cook eh! Long time no cook! I wanna cook cream mushroom with chicken topped with cheese... eat with rice, sounds delicious!
Now I just need to know when... :))
The funny thing was, I did not realise or rather, I could not feel that I was sleeping like that. Maybe the fatigue? Could be.
So my day was blissfully spent watching a movie that I had longed to watch 'Julie & Julia'... :) Quite an inspiration though... It has inspired me to cook. Should cook eh! Long time no cook! I wanna cook cream mushroom with chicken topped with cheese... eat with rice, sounds delicious!
Now I just need to know when... :))
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Confessions
I have to tell this to the world. I detest people who love to shout and who likes to scold. Everything can be settled with control. Shouting is almost equivalent to barking like a mad dog. And I can't stand people who don't know the meaning of embarrassment or being ashamed. Oh God, what is the world coming to?
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
depressing
I think I will need Anti-Depressants.
School has been ever so Depressing and Demoralising.
Now its home.
We have this issue of what I am going to do in future.
I had thought for such a long time.
But this decision I am about to make is disrespected.
Can I do what I like and not do what I don't like?
I am done doing something that I hate. I faced the fact, I am never good at design.
At least thats what the lecturers told me.
We are going through a huge ordeal at home already. Please don't add this on me.
If not for my faith in Allah s.w.t, I might have self-destruct and you might have seen and experienced an unforgettable nightmare.
All these years, I've never complained. I kept strong even when the odds are against me. Let me fight. I want to fight. Fight for a brighter future. Don't let me stay imprisoned. I don't want that. Please don't add to my sorrows. If you let me continue with my dreams, I promise you, I'll be the best that I ever can.
I'm sorry, I'm just not as passionate about design as I am before.
At least, Let me find other things that I can be proud and good at.
Just face the fact like how I had to face it (except that I had to face it terribly, you don't have to)
I AM NOT GOOD AT DESIGN!
School has been ever so Depressing and Demoralising.
Now its home.
We have this issue of what I am going to do in future.
I had thought for such a long time.
But this decision I am about to make is disrespected.
Can I do what I like and not do what I don't like?
I am done doing something that I hate. I faced the fact, I am never good at design.
At least thats what the lecturers told me.
We are going through a huge ordeal at home already. Please don't add this on me.
If not for my faith in Allah s.w.t, I might have self-destruct and you might have seen and experienced an unforgettable nightmare.
All these years, I've never complained. I kept strong even when the odds are against me. Let me fight. I want to fight. Fight for a brighter future. Don't let me stay imprisoned. I don't want that. Please don't add to my sorrows. If you let me continue with my dreams, I promise you, I'll be the best that I ever can.
I'm sorry, I'm just not as passionate about design as I am before.
At least, Let me find other things that I can be proud and good at.
Just face the fact like how I had to face it (except that I had to face it terribly, you don't have to)
I AM NOT GOOD AT DESIGN!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I shall...
Take 30 minutes to draw my sections and elevations. So 4 drawings... that would take 2 hours. Can? hahaha. 30 minutes. yah right. I mean, can lah... must have the skeleton, at least... right? Then I'll have to do my building detail. So that would take around 2.30 hrs in total. So Ganbatte ne!
Now then I know. When you are depressed, your response time is longer. When you are depressed, you will look vacant. What ever you used to do fast, you'll do it slower. Yah.
Gotta love myself more. Give myself alot more attention. Love me.
Now then I know. When you are depressed, your response time is longer. When you are depressed, you will look vacant. What ever you used to do fast, you'll do it slower. Yah.
Gotta love myself more. Give myself alot more attention. Love me.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Man Jadda, Wa Jadda
The tears that fall this time, are not tears of sadness.
But tears of enlightenment.
Allah swt has enlightened and presented me with alot of blessings.
Maybe, that's the reward for patience.
If you read today's BH, there's an article about a Malay lady, Hidayah Amin. She is the author for 'Gedung Kuning', a new book about Malay heritage which focuses on the culture of the Malay House found near Masjid Sultan. Now the house serves as a restaurant (Tepak Sireh). *Now I aspire to hold my future wedding dinner there. LOL*
How I see much of myself in Hidayah. But she gets to go to University and gets a lot of scholarship. My world crashed last year :) Nope. I'm not going to complain. Things happen for a reason. And Allah s.w.t is the most Fair. World is unfair, but Allah s.w.t is.
Hidayah is one of the ways to how Allah s.w.t shows me the right path, a consistent prayer of mine. Maybe that is His way of telling me that I should not give up on whatever I had started on. And I should maybe write a book someday? Hahahaha. Insyallah, you'll never know!
Masyallah...
I won't give up learning about the Malay and Islamic history, Insyallah. Only to Him I surrender.
But tears of enlightenment.
Allah swt has enlightened and presented me with alot of blessings.
Maybe, that's the reward for patience.
If you read today's BH, there's an article about a Malay lady, Hidayah Amin. She is the author for 'Gedung Kuning', a new book about Malay heritage which focuses on the culture of the Malay House found near Masjid Sultan. Now the house serves as a restaurant (Tepak Sireh). *Now I aspire to hold my future wedding dinner there. LOL*
How I see much of myself in Hidayah. But she gets to go to University and gets a lot of scholarship. My world crashed last year :) Nope. I'm not going to complain. Things happen for a reason. And Allah s.w.t is the most Fair. World is unfair, but Allah s.w.t is.
Hidayah is one of the ways to how Allah s.w.t shows me the right path, a consistent prayer of mine. Maybe that is His way of telling me that I should not give up on whatever I had started on. And I should maybe write a book someday? Hahahaha. Insyallah, you'll never know!
Masyallah...
I won't give up learning about the Malay and Islamic history, Insyallah. Only to Him I surrender.
Friday, January 08, 2010
Yeah I've fallen for an angel
Oh my gosh, I don't know why my stomach is having some problems. Aiya.
Anyway, I wanna go and have a look at the new City Square Shopping Centre near farrer park mrt... hmms, who's with me? hahaha. lame.
Seriously, I've been having bad stomach aches. Gastric maybe.
Just some note-to-self. I think I have been behaving well socially. No flirting, No defiancy, Being happy always... But I am procrastinating when it comes to work. The starting is always the problem! You know, these few days have been productive for my FYP though. (Hah, I still can't believe that I am taking FYP.... I feel like I am still a junior) I've never thought I would start producing this early, I mean... Oh my god? Submission is on Thursday and we are doing work from wednesday?
If my Lecturer did not drag us to the com lab and we'd still have to go for 'consultations-only' I tell you, I will only start drawing on the next wednesday!
See how bad I am. hahaha. Bad girl. :(
Anyway, I wanna go and have a look at the new City Square Shopping Centre near farrer park mrt... hmms, who's with me? hahaha. lame.
Seriously, I've been having bad stomach aches. Gastric maybe.
Just some note-to-self. I think I have been behaving well socially. No flirting, No defiancy, Being happy always... But I am procrastinating when it comes to work. The starting is always the problem! You know, these few days have been productive for my FYP though. (Hah, I still can't believe that I am taking FYP.... I feel like I am still a junior) I've never thought I would start producing this early, I mean... Oh my god? Submission is on Thursday and we are doing work from wednesday?
If my Lecturer did not drag us to the com lab and we'd still have to go for 'consultations-only' I tell you, I will only start drawing on the next wednesday!
See how bad I am. hahaha. Bad girl. :(
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Happy Brithday Mama!
Hehe. Today is mama Gi's birthday :)) That's Ziza's mom aka my Fairly God Mother. haha.
Anyways, I was supposed to go to lalaland - 'yang tersayang' - at around 10.30 just now, because I need to go to school early-early tomorrow. But here I am, blogging. heh.
Mr.H is staying out this few days, so no call from him. Not long till he goes for his overseas training for around 2 months or less. I must train myself. haha. Not to be to attached to his calls. And I must focus on other things... That would make me happy... Like my family, and his family... especially his sister, ziza, and my sister nina. hahaha. If its the three of us, together, im gonna make it 'DA BOMB!'
Maybe, when we go out this monday, I should get nina to tag along... how bout that?
We are going Badoque Cafe! hehehe
Anyways, I was supposed to go to lalaland - 'yang tersayang' - at around 10.30 just now, because I need to go to school early-early tomorrow. But here I am, blogging. heh.
Mr.H is staying out this few days, so no call from him. Not long till he goes for his overseas training for around 2 months or less. I must train myself. haha. Not to be to attached to his calls. And I must focus on other things... That would make me happy... Like my family, and his family... especially his sister, ziza, and my sister nina. hahaha. If its the three of us, together, im gonna make it 'DA BOMB!'
Maybe, when we go out this monday, I should get nina to tag along... how bout that?
We are going Badoque Cafe! hehehe
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
With an open heart
I am sad. I miss Mama dearly. This is serious.
When you don't see the person whom you see everyday, you will feel the loss.
You will miss the great impacts they had made in your life.
How they made you change your ways.
I miss my best friend. I looked through my earlier blogposts. What fun we had before. I guess, everything changed because of me. Maybe I took things so seriously. Maybe because I made a huge fool of myself. Maybe because I lost myself. So I lost her. Maybe.
But Im gonna change all that.
Miss you loads bestie, will you forgive me and shall we start a new?
I promise I will joke and not take your words to the heart.
I promise I will go shopping with you and entertain you like mad.
I won't just look and go when I shop with you k.
Hahaha. If you say I les or anything i wont take it to the heart cos i know i'm not. hahaha.
So will you take my hand? (not literally)
I'm not les, Im not bi.
I love my bestie sincerely.
Because she is my bff.
She always reminds my of the 'true path'
and thats why i love her and her mom.
But I also love my sis and my mom lah.
Anyway.
I love you people. I love you!
When you don't see the person whom you see everyday, you will feel the loss.
You will miss the great impacts they had made in your life.
How they made you change your ways.
I miss my best friend. I looked through my earlier blogposts. What fun we had before. I guess, everything changed because of me. Maybe I took things so seriously. Maybe because I made a huge fool of myself. Maybe because I lost myself. So I lost her. Maybe.
But Im gonna change all that.
Miss you loads bestie, will you forgive me and shall we start a new?
I promise I will joke and not take your words to the heart.
I promise I will go shopping with you and entertain you like mad.
I won't just look and go when I shop with you k.
Hahaha. If you say I les or anything i wont take it to the heart cos i know i'm not. hahaha.
So will you take my hand? (not literally)
I'm not les, Im not bi.
I love my bestie sincerely.
Because she is my bff.
She always reminds my of the 'true path'
and thats why i love her and her mom.
But I also love my sis and my mom lah.
Anyway.
I love you people. I love you!
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Now then I realise
I have not many friends! ahahahahahahaha
Well, I do have friends lah, but I can't find friends who would hang out with me when I am bored... you know, just chillax or something...
I think I brought this upon myself. Cos all this while, I've been working or studying... and my circle of friends is like 3 -4 people? Pathetic. I know I have more friends than that k.
You know, I won't let myself be upset cos I don't have people to entertain me. haha. I made up my mind... I'm not going to join my cuzzins go clubbing or lepak. Im going to start figuring out my dreams... and be busy. Start doing assignments and stop procrastinating. Be a high-achiever. Thats gonna make me not worry about not having friends to go out with or no boyfriend to entertain me. If this is how I have to live my life, and if it is good for me, and if it is the path that Allah swt has shown me, then I'll walk and I'll lead the way.
Right into the arms of Allah.
Well, I do have friends lah, but I can't find friends who would hang out with me when I am bored... you know, just chillax or something...
I think I brought this upon myself. Cos all this while, I've been working or studying... and my circle of friends is like 3 -4 people? Pathetic. I know I have more friends than that k.
You know, I won't let myself be upset cos I don't have people to entertain me. haha. I made up my mind... I'm not going to join my cuzzins go clubbing or lepak. Im going to start figuring out my dreams... and be busy. Start doing assignments and stop procrastinating. Be a high-achiever. Thats gonna make me not worry about not having friends to go out with or no boyfriend to entertain me. If this is how I have to live my life, and if it is good for me, and if it is the path that Allah swt has shown me, then I'll walk and I'll lead the way.
Right into the arms of Allah.
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