Friday, February 29, 2008

Yay! Got my new MP4 Player!

Its small and thin... and black!
Ugh... I'm a minimalist... Look at my things!!
But I love it!

Anyway, currently putting songs into it, converting videos from youtube...
Ouh I just love the Internet...
Thanks cuz for helpin me out... Have a great time in Australia!

So... I've done my paper making! Wohhooo!
And we had a water fight in the studio...
We as in, Me and ziza and sarah...
So kecoh!

Ziza threw lots and lots of paper+water mixture on me...
Making my heart boil cos my shirt had those... paper marks or what would you call that...
And I can't get it off until I reached home!!! So paisey! People in the bus kept looking at me...

There was one funny part whereby the water which I actually wanted to throw to Ziza, went to the lecturers instead... Harith was like 'OI!' and Aida was like 'What? they having water fight uh? haha!' Paisey siaaa....

I got fed up cos I could not throw enough water to ziza...
Then I kicked her butt! Sarah got butt-kickin' from me too!
But she was innocent...
And as soon as I finished my paper...
ME and Ziza went home...
But of course we did apologize to each other after that!! haha...

And guess what... With great news comes bad news...
My family and I did not go out for dinner today...
Why? Something popped up last minute!
My mother and my aunty watched 'The leap years'!!!
MG!!! I planned to watch it with sarah today!
I could've watched it already!!
My sis made planes to watch it today too...
But we thought we r goin to have dinner..
So... yea... DAMN...
Mother! How could you?!
But nvm... We r going to town tmr rite???
Pls bring us to town! If not... haha...
(Extortion uh ni budak.. Bagi pelempang pun okay gak...)

So basically thats my day... Unforgettable memories...
:D

-And he is still not online yet... Balik lambat kot?

Yea zima, lagi lagi ku JATUH cinta

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Yippeeeee....

:D
Learned a lot of things about him today... :D
Wow... He is like the guy version of me!
We love to do the same things!
We have the same taste too!...
Gosh... All this in 4 days...
Not sure if I am going online tomorrow...
Going out to celebrate my parent's 18th wedding anniversary!! yay!
And my mp4 has come... Wheee... Shall take it tomorrow or something...

:D Okay.. now I have the mood to write...
Lalala... But I don't know what to write about...
How??

Ouh okay... Maybe I should write about...
My 3D Art Fundamental class tomorrow...
Boohhoo... So sad... Me, ziza, shaad, Sheryl, hafiz and lydia is in the RED zone...
MEaning... we are failing... but its only assignment...
Me and ziza, we are going to do better!
Go FIGURE!!

-So disappointed with myself... But he brought my smile back:DD

OMG

This is soooo frustrating!
I hate this!
I'm not chatting with him for like 2 days now...
GOSH...
I shall just wait lah...
Take it slowly...
Haha...

Been paper making in school...
I did 3 and another 2 tomorrow...
So... Now I have another task...
Find 6 pics from magazines of different sizes for tomorrow's class...
Ugh...

Im so tired... :(

Sorry if my posts are boring these days...
Somebody took my inspiration with him...

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Sehari tak bersama, ku rasa curiga...

So frustrated...
:(
Tak tidur lah gayanye...

Boohooo...
Have to wait till tomorrow...

Soooo tired la deyy!

Took my first afternoon nap of the year...
Haha...
Soo tired!!!

Now I am still tired,
I would like to go back to lalaland...
But, i'll have to finish my work first...
Priority mahh...
haha... Merepek!

So anyway...
Basically, Me and Ziza have this "Great minds think alike" thing...
Hahaha...

Yay... Im gonna get a new MP4 soon...

Soo happy lar...

-I'm still waiting... faster laaa...

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Hee

So happy larrr
Chatt with him today...
:D
One step.
Great chat...
Take it slow...

Monday, February 25, 2008

He stole my heartttt... hahahaha

OMG!!!
I shall wait for another how many years to come...
Heee... (Gatal!)

Anyway, got loads to tell, so little time...
I'm rushing to do my assignment actually...
Hee...

So. Firstly...
Visual Presentation Essentials (VPEss)
Bloody bapok-ish lecturer...
Thats all that I have got to say cos...
I do not want to accumulate more sins...
Talking about him is just a waste of time and sins...
Hehe...

Secondly,
3D art fundamentals.
Hahhaha... My dear lecturer...
Why is your lil fly opened??
We are not laughing about your hair...
:I
Tried to warn you through sms so you would not be paisey...
Ouh but that bitch got ya...
Sorry... hehe... but it was quite a laughter...
And... At least you have been a fool for just...
Let me see... -a few minutes!
Haha... NVM... Dun be paisey...

So...
What about my title for today?
Lets just say, that I have found HIM
but he doesn't know...
He is the PERFECT guy for me...
All I can say for now he is a LIBRA...
Hehe

They say Libras and Capricorns can have a long-lasting relationship...
I shall just wait for him to finish his NS days (opps! Is that a hint there?)
Cos... They say... Do not ever date a guy who is undergoing NS...
Financially low and... No time... hehe...

Doa-doa jerlah yer agar jodoh berpanjangan...
For now... Lets just be friends...
:D

Sunday, February 24, 2008

heee

Sarah... you made me smile too today...
Hehe... Saw you at changi...
kentut uh kau!!! bebual takde kuat lagi perr?
But anyways... you peeps made me happy when i was down...
Glad to have friends like you guys...
:DD Alhamdulillah

:D

This friend of mine may not know this
But as I was chatting with her,
I was crying behind this screen...
Pissed off with my father...

I hate it when he makes such a big fuss when I use the com...
Like hello! I'm not surfing porn or doing anything baddd....
My bro uses the com for games and he goes to sleep!
Even though he has slept in the night!
What the!!! Arghhhh I hate it!!!

So this friend of mine made me laugh...
ZizyZieza says:
lagu seribu kenangan 1stt uh.. kat charts
Sketcher sEed says:
ouh yer
ZizyZieza says:
yes
Sketcher sEed says:
kau nga dgr ria online eh
ZizyZieza says:
tk
ZizyZieza says:
thru hp
Sketcher sEed says:
:)

thanx ziz...

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Bidadari hatiku By B8

Lirikan Matamu Menawan
Mempesonakan Kau Ku Girangkan
Senyuman Manis Mu Bagaikan
Bunga Di Taman Indah Menyerikan

Tiada Kata Yang Dapat Ku Luahkan
Seindah Mu Oh Juwita Ku
Hanya Dapat Ku Membayangkan
Kejelitaan Mu Di Lubuk Hati Ku

Bridge:

Bagaimana..Jikalau Semua Ini
Tidak Lagi Bersama Dengan Ku
Ku Berdoa...Agar Dikau Mengerti
Yang Ku Setia Terhadap Mu

Chorus:

Sayang Dengarkanlah
Dikaulah Bidadari Hatiku
Lautan Api Kan Ku Renangi
Hanya Untuk Ku Memiliki Mu

Sayang Dengarkanlah
Dikaulah Bidadari Hatiku
Lautan Api Kan Ku Renangi
Hanya Untuk Ku Memiliki Mu
Hanya Untuk Ku Memiliki Mu......

-Just waiting for that one special guy to come and sing me this song...-

Perpisahan By Anuar Zain

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama
Sering kala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah julang bahagia
Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu
Oh…oh…..
Yea…yea…..
Masih tercari-cari
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

setiap wanita itu cantik

Allah berfirman:
"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita,
ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa.
Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia;
namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "
"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam
untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan
yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "
"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk
membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah,
dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan
kelelahan tanpa mengeluh"
"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk
mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan,
bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "
"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk
mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya
dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya
untuk melindungi hatinya "
"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk
mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik
takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya,
tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan
ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu "
"Dan akhirnya,
Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan.
Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."
"Kau tahu:
Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,
susuk yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya."
"Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya,
kerana itulah pintu hatinya - tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

:S

Hmms...
What should I write about?

Loneliness lagi?
Dilemma lagi syiok!!

Heh... So!
Part ni, kalau korg sanggup nak baca, bacalah...
KAlau tak sanggup, Sanggup kannn!

Aku tak tau lah kenape niari aku takder mood nak blog dalam bahasa Inggeris...
Tapi takper... Aku tak kisah...
Cume... Fikiran aku berpinar2...

Kenapa mcm jasad ini sudah tak bernyawa?
Tak boleh dinafikan hasrat tidak dapat kuluahkan kepada sesiapa pun
Entahlah kenapa. Malu? Takut dipersenda? Aku memang pengecut... Betul tak Ziza?
Diam. Kau pun sama! haha...
Hehe... Gurau jer... jangan martial art aku nanti kat skola k. Pls... hehe

Bila hati tak tenang, semua, serba-serbi tak kena...
Kalau kita cuba lupakan, mesti dia datang balik...
Ada aja yang akan mengingatkan kita pada sesuatu yang ingin kita lupakan.

Tapi, bukan ke melupakan masalah itu sama saja seperti melarikan diri daripadanya?
Hari ini, ada dua perkara yang aku sedar.

Yang baik, Aku dapat meningkatkan keyakinan diri aku.
Yang buruk, Aku sedar yang aku selalu lari dari pada masalah.
Entah lah... Aku takut... Takut kan ape aku pon tak tau...
Kentut betul lah ni budak...

Boleh tak aku luahkan isi hati aku menerusi kod-kod berikut? haha... mcm pernah dgr...

kepalaku berpinar-pinar
Tidak dapat aku menyatakan
Apa sebenarnya yang ku rasakan
Adakah ini kesal atau runsing semata2?
Nyanyian tiada bernada
Nada tiada riang
Hancur berderai segalanya

Ingin ku bernyanyi lagi
Untukmu yang terindah
Namun ku takut
Akankah sejarah kian berulang
Ku hanya impikan yang terindah
pergilah yang lampau...

Friday, February 22, 2008

Ice cream ed

I screamed
Im hungry.... thats y i spelt it liddat...
haha... Damn i sound like one bloody chinese

Anyway, I was bored...
while eating some snacks (Damn messy, thats the situation of my table...)
i logged on to friendster and see azizah's 3++ friends...
PFFT...

(shit i almost fell from the chair!)
Ok so. I chanced upon an old bestie's page...
I actually screamed while looking at her pics...
I don't know why... I screamed
"Ahhhh! Cannot take it!!!" But i dunno why...
PFFt...

Dah tu jer crite aku? boringnye! hehe

Thursday, February 21, 2008

When

When I am busy...
People want me to entertain them

When I am Sleepy...
people don't want me to sleep

Ok forget it... Lets cut it short!

Wouldn't it be nice if you could find a partner...

Who knows how to treat you the way you want them to,
Who could read you like a book and never misinterpret you,
Who would give his all and embrace you every time, Protecting you,
Who will never take his eyes of you...

I shall wait for that moment to come.

Amin.

:I

Had a great time at Mama's holiday bungalow
Even drew it for my final assignment
to meet tomorrow's dateline
Damn I'm lifeless

Hungry
Irritated
Lonely
Sounds depressing, I know...

Should I try calling the stress-free helpline?
Haha... Tak payah laaa...

God I am bored. God! Please bring me a new companion...
I am so bored... I hate being alone... Ughhhhh.....

-Knowledge is only potential power and it will always be until it is applied.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

This is an Irony

However...
There is and irony to whatever I wrote in the previous post...

I also believe in...

Loving the guy who loves me...

My father said it is better to love someone who loves you than to love someone whom you love, but he/she doesn't love you... :(

These words are heartbreaking but its a fact...

"Aku junjung petuamu, Cintai dia yang mencintaiku..." Cinta by melly goeslaw and Kris Dayanti.

Ah shit! Blajar dulu lahhhh....

What we talked about...

Superficiality (Looking at guys)

Hahaha... What a topic to talk about...
But I'd love to share this...
Why people are superficial
Well to me, there are only 2 reasons...

One: They think they are too good
Two: They have seen enough...

I must admit...
I am superficial...
Because I have seen enough...
And I am tired of seeing, For NOW...

I think I've wasted so much time in looking at guys deeply
And we both end up hurting each other or getting hurt in some way...
That is so pathetic And I am So SICK of it.
That's why I'm like this.

When the time has come where I start to think seriously of relationships,
only then I'll stop being superficial.

Man... I did not know that I am shallow until Sarah brought up the topic...
Haha...
Well, it's not wrong to be superficial when you are not serious about getting a BF yet, right?

I always believe that the perfect partner would be someone whom you always have to see everyday in your life...
Your day would be meaningless or shall I use 'Bad', if you don't see him/her for one day...
Right? I mean, that is one of the reason why it is called love.
If you do not mind not seeing your partner for at least 3-4 times a week, I shall say, its just lust...
Awww. Sad.

Well, at least I had real Puppy LOve... hahaha... What the!

Hope comes after letting go.
And when you hope... That hope will bound to crash somehow...
But remember...
God never let things happen without a reason...
I still hold on to that!

Heart peelings... Chiows

Monday, February 18, 2008

Last night

Had course bbq...
The only fun parts:
-Pool! (Fidz lost to me! the score was 3-2! haha, Saw cute guy :S and a guy was... nvm...)
-Guitar (Sean got jealous of us who could play the guitar... :0
-Hips dun lie... haha... One stupid dare sarah came up with randomly! We had to shake our hips on one foot with people watching us
- Last but not least, throwing water at sarah... Tulah... kpo sgt... hehe

The food isn't good at all.. I went home with my stomach still growling... haha
Shit man... It was only good because of my friends and PERRY! Stupid joke he made...

Hahahaha

I dunno why I like Imelda... :s
She is so pretty larrr esp in this vid...




Arghhhh....

HL also likes this girl...
And I...

Nvm...

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Jonas Brothers



I just love S.O.S!
And Joe Jonas!! Ain't he cute???
Ziza! Aku chop ni! Haha... lame!

Give me a good reason y is there a need to go to the merlion park??
Argh! I had enough of Environment Design...
Mom said not to bring 'work' home...
But... that doesn't mean that I have to bring 'work' out right?

Ah forget it... Environment Design is all around me anyway...
Can't run! Even on my prayer carpet, there's a two-point perspective of the Ka'abah and I keep telling myself, 'That perspective is wrong! It has 2 imaginary vanishing points! Arghhh! Wrong! Wrong! Wrong!!!"

So thanks to Mr. King of Philippines (What we call our Drawing essentials lecturer), Aku nak sembahyang pun tak khusyuk!!!!

Yipppeeee

I'm going to my grandmother's house later after the noon prayers. :DD I miss my aunt so much... My cousin too... Hmms...

Tomorrow, the course will be having a bbq :DD Downtown east, here we come!!
But planned to play 8-balls with fidz before anything happens :D I miss the cue and the white ball lah! Hope I'd get to beat fidz :DD I haven't smelled the scent of victory for quite a while now... hehe... And I so hope that my touch is still there... (*Hopes so much!*)

-Hope comes after letting go-

When we think...

I just wanna share with you guys something which had caught my attention while reading BH yesterday. It is about two things which the writers wrote in this segment 'SYIAR'. First, 'Lima tahap iman', which made me think a lot for a while... Second, 'Ganjaran besar orang yang mendermakan hajinya'. This article, makes me feel small for a while... It is a story about this guy by the name of Rabi' bin Sulaiman. When you read it further, you'll realise how Great and Fair, the Almighty is. Here are the links... :D Sorry, I find it tedious to put them down here. Anyway its just a click away... So don't procrastinate already! Go and click!!!
Lima tahap iman

Ganjaran besar seorang yang mendermakan Hajinya

Thursday, February 14, 2008

:D

Tomorrow, we are going to T3!
But... Also, tomorrow, another week of school ends...
So sad...
I wanna see my friends!

Anyway... I am confused today...
I do not know exactly why...
And I hate uncertainty...
I feel suffocated...
I don't know why...
It's like there is no room to breathe...
Maybe it's the pressure the tv shows give me...
Haha I know this sounds weird...
But hey! what can I say? I AM WEIRD!

My lecturer said we were supposed to sleep at 5pm today...
PFFT. He doesn't want us to be late tomorrow...
Imagine! We have to be in school at 8.15 AM tmr!
Crazy!
8.15... Im still at home...
Applying make-up or still bathing! haha...
What the hell...

I have my individual assignment to do...
Man, its a design critique essay of 1000 words...
Well, not that I can't handle it, but I hope I'll do it right...
Eeee... so excited for tomorrow... Dun ask why! I don't know!
And I am hungry!

Like Kak Ana said, "Dekni Makan jer banyak! Tapi tak gemok2!" (Oh sorry! Jangan jealous yeah... Haha!

Videos to share...

Itu Kamu - Estranged


The drummer... CUTE! Hot! and everything nice... :D

Dibalik Awan - Peterpan


I love Peterpan's music video... If you analyze it properly, the clip producer has done a good job in conveying the message... It is clear and concise, however, it is hard to really grasp the essence of the story because there is no logic. But, still... This is WOW! I give the producer a standing ovation... :D

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

:DD

I love his version of Al-fateha.
Its verry... Uh i don't know exactly how to describe it...
But if you have the chance to go to Mecca, and hear his voice...
He could make you cry even if you do not understand what he is saying...
Enjoy!

nice voice he has...

Empty Promises

See...
I cried alone.
No one was there for me except for my family and my darling Fifan...
You weren't there when I fell today... Full stop.

My nose is running.
And My auntie is on tv.
And I have to improve on that stupid presentation...

Bloody hell...

LALALA...~

Had A bad day... Really bad one!

My day was a day when more than 5 bad things happened to me... Bloody hell
I shall not describe them as it hurts to remember these kind of stuff and the best thing to do is to just FORGET IT! So here I am... Typing away... and trust me, I cried alone behind the closed doors of my bedroom silently, the second I reached home... Enough of crying, I got over it... How come?

- Every 1 minute of crying or sadness is equivalent to 60 seconds of happiness... Life is too short to waste more than 60 seconds, crying... haha
- Allah will give someone a challenge only if he/she could overcome it with patience.
- Allah is Fair

And I am Elmo.
Got this email... lol...
What cartoon character are you?

Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at the end and look for your results.

Do not cheat by looking at the end of the e-mail before you are done .
Then forward this to all your friends ( including the person who sent it to you ) and change the subject of this message to what character is you.

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)

2. What is your favorite type of music?
a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
b) Alternative (1 pt.)
c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
d) Country (5 pts.)
e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?
a) Comedy (2 pts.)
b) Horror (1 pt.)
c) Musical (3 pts.)
d) Romance (4 pts.)
e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?
a) Waiter (4 pts.)
b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
c) Teacher (3 pts.)
d) Police (2 pts.)
e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time?
a) Exercise (5 pts.)
b) Read (4 pts.)
c) Watch television (2 pts.)
d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
a) Yellow (1 pt.)
b) White (5 pts.)
c) Sky Blue (3 pts.)
d) Dark Blue (2 pts.)
e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?
a) Snow (3 pts.)
b) Pizza (2 pts.)
c) Sushi (1 pt.)
d) Pasta (4 pts.)
e) Salad (5 pts.)

8. What is your favorite holiday ?
a) Halloween (1 pt.)
b) Christmas (3 pts.)
c) New Year (2 pts.)
d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
a) Paris (4 pts)
b) Spain(5 pts)
c) Las Vegas(1 pt)
d) Hawaii(4 pts)
e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
a) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for! Put your character in the subject line and forward to your friends and back to the person that sent this to you.
Very interesting to see 'who' your friends are!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield:
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:
You are fun; you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you ' re never out of style, y you are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:
You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it' s funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:
You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points ) You are Dexter:
You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

my sister gave me two sticks of pocky... :)

Here I am being happy...
There Is my Dear friend, sad...
Why?
Believe in HIM.
There is always hope...
Its your choice...
Talk to yourself more...
Write more poetry of sadness...
Think. That is the most important thing.
Think of what have happened till things went wrong.
Things happen for a reason...
Do not call it fate until it is really beyond your control...
For only cowards do so.

I remembered.
In my secondary school days...
I did not want to take my o's.
I was scared, lazy, blablabla...
My morale was damn low...
People looking down on me...
Treating me as if im shit...
Then I self-consoled myself...
I told myself, by sec4, the world will end. Confirm.

But no. It did not. I still have to take my o's.
Who pulled me up? People around me... And MYSELF.
Life is about making choices.
Its the people around you whom you choose to consult...
Its the choice of how willingly you want to get that help...
It is the choice of the millions of choices you can make...
You just have to make the right, rational and logical choice...
There never is a shortcut in achieving happiness...
And the future comes only one day at a time...

That is 1/100 of my life story, but the most meaningful one...
The story where I fell and I managed to pull myself up...
All thanks to HIM up there. He gave me a brain bigger than a bird's, bigger than that of a prawn... Just to think...

Keep holding on.
Just stay strong my friends.
I'll be here for you.
You'll make it through. Insya'Allah

Credits for inspiration:
Siti Sarah, My friend, Sister, My gift from God...
Not forgetting my other treasures too...
I do not need to name you...
If you think you are one of the treasures God presented me with, you will be. :D

Happy Happy mood mood!

I Am So CareFree today...
The only thing that is smothering me now Is the fact that I haven't done my prayers...
Well I've just finished my research...
Waiting for darling Ajijah to send me my ppt...
Waklu.com betul...

It seems to me now that I'll have to go online again at night... lols
What the toots...
Luckily its Tuesday!
No tutoring!!
Wheee....

Tmr presentation... :(
And for the first time in my life, I finished a bowl of Instant noodles -Chicken Myojo
Kesian budak nie eh... Slalu makan tak sampai stengah mangkuk... Padan lah kudud!

But nevermind! I'm eating more, exercising more and happy more! I dunno y i am happy...
No boyfriend, not married, not having my first child yet... I just don't know what is wrong with me!
Doctor!! Help!! I'm excessively happy!!!

Malu kaper babes...
Waklu! Kikih

Monday, February 11, 2008

Lalalala~

So happy today I dunno why...
Haha... Budak giler on the loose!!! BEWARE!

I got one random question!
What is your facial REGIME?

Mine? Easy peasy...
Kao Biore facial scrub to unclog pores
Followed by Clean and clear deep action cleanser and oil something3....
Toner by Artistry...
Moisturizer by Credit Beauty... :D
And besides that, I use:
Kose's nose pack once every 3 days...
Facial mask (purifying and relaxing) once every week...
And I can't live without my oil blotter (Pink -Clean & Clear) and NexCare 3M Acne patch and my Clean & Clear speed acne clearing gel... :P
Big Clean and clear fan huh?!!!
Whats yours?

I've been fighting acnes on my forehead and right cheek for about 2 months or so now... PFFT... Bloody hell... Mom said I should not think too much about it... The more I think about it, more will grow. EEE DOWANNNN!

But they are getting better now... My secret?
Hehehe...
Besides Oil blotter, Speed acne clearing gel, acne patches and washing my face with 3-4 times a day, I do the Ablution! Ahahaha...
Really... After I pray, people keep telling me "Eh berseri muke... Aper buat?" Then I'll be like... HUH?? I have just finished praying... But the people at school dont see it lah.. Maybe they see it but they just ignore... lol. Waddertoots.

Oh and I practice something my father thought me. Wash hands 3 times (Bismillah) Wipe face with water 3 times from chin to forehead in a circular motion while saying "Nur Allah Sheikh Allah, Berkat doa ku LAILAHAILALLAH, Ku semangat Cahaya seri naik ke mukaku, senyum dipandang manis dan berseri"

I don't practice the sayings but I only practice the movements of the hands while washing my face... It kinda uplifts the whole thing and doesn't pull it downwards... Konon2 seri naik lahhh...

So yeah... that is what I always do...

And I think I have a curse or gift I can't make it out.
Its just that I can't be complacent or in Malay (Cakap besar) cos once I do so, the opposite will happen. Like one time, My cousin asked me, "why is your face so clean?? What do you use??" Then I answered, "nothing, just tap water..." She told me, "If you don't wash your face properly with soap, acne or pimples will start to pop out..." I put away her words and said, "Nah... nothing will happen.... I'm sure"
ZZZ....
Ah amik kau... Sure?! ni acne seme dah keluar... sure bak hang! Tulah orang dah cakap degil!!! Sakarang tgk aper dah jadik?! Kecik2 taknak mampos, dah besar menyusahkan aku!! ~ Why am I talking to myself like this in my blog? People are reading okay... Waddertoots....

Waddertoots. Whaddatoots. Wadatoots. Waddetoots. wadetoots. Aiya! MAderrtoots lah... haha. Which one better? Change my blog name to wadatoots.blogspot.com nak? Taknak uh... tak senonoh jek... hehe...

I'm Bored so I'm randomly behaving like crap in my blog... Aiyo kesian budak nieee...
School ended early... I did nothing at school except for a few sketches... And learned how to sketch a cylinder in perspectives. WOOOW... PFFT... (Haha... action uh... mentang2 cikgu cakap die bagusss... si mapedom kat dalam class tu lagi baik... Cikgu cakap dier pandai, leh gi advance level like me... But when asked to sketch one point perspective, dier gi buat 2 point lak... Tu lah action... org dah ckp taknak dgr... Amik kau baht! Haha... tApi takper... Belajar dari kesilapan. Like the saying "Its through imperfections that they are perfect." Alamakkk.... Tak leh angkat seyyyy! Literature lah pulak budak biol nieee... haha... EL-LEH kapeerrr....(new phrase from CMYK tv sitcom on suria:P) Huda cute uh. KK biol.

Seblum aku biol lagieee kat sini, Seblum aku terbawak2 biol aku sampai metta school, LEbih baik aku blah dari sini... Kalau aku continue, takkan habis nyer... project pon lom jalan... ishk3... Y is smell mcChicken uhhh?! Org tgh lapar2 niekkk... aisyoooo...
klah... Chiowsinchi! :D

Sunday, February 10, 2008

What is it with this people who are not updating their blogs???
In my frequently-visited-blogs-list, Basically everyone did not update their blog!
Okay thats It... Im going blog hunting...
PFFT...

Boring day...

Did not go out...
And Trust me...
Whatever I did, did not go my own way...
Until I cried to God for the depressing situation...
LOL... And until then, things have been better...
Thank God!

Azizah is back from her holiday...
Yeay! In fact I am chatting with her right now...

And umm...
I had been flipping through the Female Magazine
Which belonged to my mom... God, it was so thick!

Out of boredom, I read every single word I could find...
Even those teeny weeny little words which states the model's name at the side of the page... LOL... Waddetoots... I know...

And I found out something... The kaffeyah (the scarfs guys in the middle east wear on their heads, usually red in colour) is in trend and the Hollywood best dressed stars are wearing them... LOL! Whaddatoots! Orang dah pakai bertahun dahulu, diorg baru nak pakai... I am not bragging, I mean serious, I wear it during Hari Raya in 2004/5 i think... LOL Guess I am ahead of trend... Trend setter tuu namanya... Haha...
Nonsense. But If I think through it properly, I wore skinny jeans some months before the trend started... Whoaa.... Bangga uhhh... haha... tak lah merepek ajek!

So... Another article struck me. And I saw these words which sounded like "Chemistry is when you 'mirror' the other person". Then I wondered... No wonder I cant forget those guys who had that 'mirror' impact on me! Like my first love... Si Farhan tu... The first time I met him, I liked him a lot... And I started to 'mirror' him, and he 'mirrored' me... Lol... No wonder... And my sec sch crush... I 'mirrored' him, he 'mirrored' me, but we never went out together... I still can't forget him... :( He is the most perfect and cutest guy I've ever met... Oh so sweet lah... Only I will remember those moments we had... No one ever knew because It was kinda low profile... He made it look as if there really is nothing happening in the eyes of the others... But I guess I made it obvious... He is so mysterious! I like! Okay enough about him... If I talk about him, I'll never stop...

Umm... Oh yea. About my clothes. They are ruined!!! Just because of one bloody pair of pants... The color of the pants went down... PFFT. Now my Mango and I.P.Zone shirt is ruined. I used clorox and it became worse! Condemned already lah... Like one of the Malay's sayings, "kerana nila setitik, susu binasa..."

So sad lah...

And I dunt celebrate valentines...
You know what valentine's means?
The great one or something like that...
There is the reason why in this blog...
Go check suzairhe's blog if you really wanna know,
The link is on the exits... :D
Its just that valentines is 'syirik'...
If you ask that person, "would you be my valentine?' It is the same as asking that person "Would you be my GOD?"
Haha... Luckily I've never celebrated it...

Moral of the story? Amirah still remembers her past.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Lessons

Currently fed up of doing my research...
Nothing has been going my way today...
Maybe it is because of my current condition...
Tired, stressed... Man, those descriptions make me look as if I am old... And damn it reminds me of the Halal foods booster advertisement on TV! LOL!

Imagine, I reluctantly washed the clothes cos I was damn tired. Not realizing that the pipe where the water from the machine goes out from is not placed inside the toilet! Instead it was on the kitchen floor... Pfft! The kitchen floor was covered with water after a few darn minutes... I was woken up from sleep by my sister who shouted at me for my carelessness... Mann I'll admit that today, for once, I am the stupidest person on Earth! I just feel so stupid! I can't get things done today... Why? Because I am tired. And I think I am so damn full of excuses such that I can fit my excuses (If only they were a physical matter) into the Bedok resevoir... Haha... Like real!!

Today, A lesson learned... No matter who you are, Clever, Rich, Royalty or whatsoever, treat every one damn person the same... Do not treat them differently just because they look filthy in your eyes... Why? Because there is no man on Earth who never make mistakes! Even the Kings and Presidents and what-have-you, make mistakes! In fact, the bigger your responsibility, the bigger your mistakes are... And... When you make a bloody mistake, who covers up for you? They are the people whom you see filth in. They are the same people who would save your bloody arse when you badly need it... and if you don't treat them properly, I'd just bloody pray that you can save your own bloody arse.

When I messed the kitchen up, it was my sister whom I had always thought of as academically stupid, saved my arse... And today, I learned how to appreciate her. Luckily she helped me clean the mess because basically I did not know how to clean it up by my own bloody self... (Do you feel the sense of anger and regret that I am having here? I don't like the feeling! It's like telling myself I am shit! I don't want you guys to feel the same one day, thats why there is a very big emphasis over here... and if you won't heed this advice, trust me, you'd feel worse than that of a horse poo... A dinosaur poo maybe...) PFFT. I know... You don't have to say it... I am Useless!

Anyhoos, I shall thank my sister here and in real life, which I've already did. (and she gave me a smirk! -I deserved it anyway...)

Oh and my mom's friend, Kak Mariana wore one of my slipper and she left hers in my house... Lol... WTH

I want my slipper lah! hehe

Blue hearts goes camping!

YOU ARE A BLUE HEART PERSON
A person with a Blue Heart is an emotional person. Such people make affectionate lovers and are usually sensitive and are cautious drivers. They are introspective, reflective and have a primary concern for self.
http://apps.facebook.com/heart_color/

yea okay... whatever you say
Now I'm dark if you may
Very tired too I could say
It was a very tiring day...

Lol... I can make a poem out of this too?

Went out with the coolest people on earth
Kak Mariana, kak Linda, Abg Fauzi 3G, Abang Faisal, and my family...
Overnight at Pasir Ris Park (PRP) Hah... Gerek kannn....
So then I did not sleep until 4 and the wind... It was so cool like air con... haha...
I was shivering and i wanted to pee in the middle of the night. Aiyo.
So cold larrr! I did not go to the toilet cos it was so quiet... and, Tahan lah satu malam... ape lagi!
When I woke up, my toes were blue... lol and I cycled to the toilet, which was quite far, with my bro's bike. But trust me... The environment was good... haha... Can we do it again?!
Then pack up, the people went back to my house and karaoke... now they are watching 'Kekek sey'... Mmg kekek. :D

Nobody contact me these few days and it is boring... So damn boring...
Only that yesterday I msged fie bcoz i was bored...
PFFT.
Ahhhh... Why does it go like this?
When I am bz, I'll be too busy, and when I'm not, I'll be too free...
I think it is true that humans are never satisfied with themselves...
:I

Now I am so damn tired... I can sleep straight away... lol
But i don't want to... there are some things I have to do... Like my darn research...
I think I'll do it later after I surf at around 5.40?
Ok can. :D

Moral of the story: I am bored!

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Oh great! its done!

Enjoys people...
Wont update tmr... and the day after... so...
KAlau rinduwuwuwuwu....
Ringan2 kan lah tangan dan jangan serik menjenguk blog kite yer.
:D



Kau pergi tinggalku sendiri
Mengharap kedatanganmu kembali
Tiada kata bicara
Tangisanku tak berhujung

Kini kau hadir
Inginku semula
Berniat mengubat duka lama

Aku menangis lagi
Mengingatkan janji
mu yang lama
Ku tak mahu diulang

Maaf kasih ku tak mampu berdusta
Memberimu harapan yang palsu
Ku serik bercinta
Biarku sendiri
Waktu kan memulih hati ini

Yea yea yea yea

Waktu kan memulih hati ini...

So touching lah dis song...
Reminds me of my first love...
Boohooo....
Emo lah...

aku bukan untukmu



I'll upload the song which I've wrote today when I have the time.
Right now its still processing in imeem. So. Tmr... I'll be gg off to the beach! Yeah baybeh... Overnite satu malammmm.... hmmm... hehehe... What thoughts...

I miss my aussie cousins lah

Just said hi to hairi and he was so happy...
Sho cuteee!

Anyway I wrote a song in less than 10 mins just now.
Siap record lagi...
But a few changes has to be made...
Feeling so emo today...
Boohoo...

Okay so...
I really want to have music for this song.
I named it Tangisan tak berhujung.
Normal stuff...

Guy dissapears
Girl waits and cries
Some years later guy came back
Girl had mixed emotions
But she hated that guy to the max cos he disappeared
In the end, Girl rejects guy.
:D

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

mother daughter relationship... hahaha yea rite

Went to school today and gladly, it ended early because of CNY. What I did today... hmss. LEarn how to draw two point perspective, which was quite okay cos i was the first to get the drawing right... haha. Yessa...

Mr.Ronald looked at Azizah's work and he said it was wrong. He was quite indecisive actually, then turned to my paper and said, "That is....", and he showed a thumb's up. WOW! I was sighing with relief cos I hated doing things over and over again. Trust me. That thing we were drawing was a house which has a minang kabau roof!

So I happily went home... And saw Ibu. She asked me one very random question.

Ibu: Where are you from?
Me: From school lar... where else?
Ibu: No performance today uh?
Me: No! We learned how to draw instead... -.-"
Ibu: Ya Allah! Boringnye.... Ingat pergi dating tadi...
Me: Mana ade... Takde boyfriend pon... nak dating aper?
Ibu: Then go find one lah...
Me: For what? Waste my time and money only...
Ibu: Why waste money? Your bills I pay what... Where you got money...
Me: Then... Waste your money lah... Haha!

What the toots! hahahaha.... Ader ke mak yang cakap ngan anak dier macam tu... Pelik uh mak aku ni...

So. I plan to go to town today but hey. Shops are closing for the celebration... Haiz... I'll be stuck at home. So anybody who feels bored, pls give me a ring k. I'll be needing it. :D

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

PFFT!

Project cerpen...
Warkah untuk Ibu...
Syarif and Alyph sleeq! Whee! :DD

Anyway... my laptop screen is getting worse... Pixelated uh...
Bloody hell...

Then at tv3... Ader satu cerite nie! best giler...
Remember the controversy about Sharifah Amani cutting her hair botak??
Yea the drama's called "sin,der,ela" :D
Nice lahhh....

Ahhh I have neww missions lahhhh
:DD

Monday, February 04, 2008

Why??

Why do I keep falling in and out???
Just by sincere words??
Why??
I fall easily for sincerity, honesty... etc.
He is too good for me...
You know... those innocent and naive type.
Oh so cute...
I was moved to tears after reading his post...
:(
My oh my... I don't know lahh...
So weird. After one goes, another comes...
PFFT.

And I have to tune that guitar for my sister cos I messed it up! haha...
Sorry2.

So here it is,

I can't make up my mind
I want you here but I want you there
You're too good for me
I know this isn't fair

I won't let my desires conquer me
cos it hurts when I make the wrong move
It tears me apart when I have to let you down
So baby, just let me follow the groove

I can't believe all these things are happening too fast
All these while I thought I could stand on by my own
But I know, nobody's gonna be there
When I trip and fall over a stone...

Please understand me...
All I need is that you know me some more
Oh I'd love it if you could read me like a book
So honey, let's walk off that door

Hypotension strikes back!

This time...
It was revenge! Haha.. What the...
Anyway, I was on my way to Kallang in the MRT with Zizyziza to do our project, which was due today! LAst minute!! Along the way, the train was packed and my head started aching. Damn it sucked. I kept thinking when would the stop come. I had to stand, mind you. So, somewhere in kembangan or something, darkness crept and I passed out for about a few minutes until I found myself on the floor. LOL! Paisey! Luckily it wasn't on the bus, and that ziza was asleep. While standing!! WTh... Padahal kawan dier kat seblah pengsan, dier tak tau... PFFT! Haha... I felt weak for another 4 hrs or so until i got myself a panadol... And Poof! After a few minutes, I was back to normal. Thanks to my friends who supported me, and pringles! haha!

But it was fun passing out. Can I do that again? Please?! But this time, in front of some cute guy which will help me! hahahaha.... what the!

Bloody CNY!

I'll be stuck at home cos my father is working...
The shopping malls are closed for two bloody days!
And if it rains... I can't go anywhere...

My God! Nampak gaya, dok umah jer lahhh...

So... Thought of going to town tomorrow cos I want to buy some stuffs but my friends wanna do something else instead... like... Our project? haha. I mean... it's okay... projects are far more important than shooppping!

I wanna learn how to do a blogskin this holiday :D
Somebody! Teach me please! haha...

My laptop is bothering me like hell... I mean seriously! argh!!! When will my mom get for me a new one?!

God!!!! I can't live like this.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Whattadooo?

I have no mood to do anything
I don't know why...
I haven't even had lunch!

Dayumn!

Have you ever felt like....

Aah.... nvrmind.

I wanna make my father some coffee...
Draw (assignment)
And sleep.

Tomorrow is gonna be a bloody long day!!!

Last wors: FARK!

Back to reality

So...
I had to make my leave.
I don't know to whom I am going to turn to...
But.
I'll just follow with the flow.
Whatever was written for me.

I can't run from God.
For sure.

Memang susah kan nak membuat semua orang bahagia
Bintang-bintang ada kelihatan menghiasi awan yang gelap
Di temani bulan purnama yang kian mengambang
Sungguh Ayu.
Sayu hati tak dapat kukata.
Apa yang dapat ku kata?
Aku tidak menentukan takdirku.
Dia yang menentukan segalanya.
Bintang-bintang yang sedia ada...
Kini tiada makna bagiku lagi...
Aku rasa amat kecil.
Di atas dunia yang luas...
Tiada penghujungnya.

Berikanlah aku ilham
kerana kata-kataku kini
Tidak lagi berinti...

I don't know how to describe this feeling.
How i wish they would stay longer.
Everyday with them makes my life meaningful
But hey. I can't stop them and they can't do anything.
So. I'll just appreciate the people who are within my reach...
And still not forget the people who aren't.

I miss them so much!

Mann...
They came with something and left something behind for us.
Their Aussie accent. ><

Sekarang kita kat sini dok terbawak2 loghat orang Aussie...

But... It was a sad departure but we didn't shed tears cos we know...
We're gonna see them soon, insya'Allah, and that this isn't goodbye.
Zul's sending me some pics...
The one's we took... lol.

Man... It was so touching when the lil kids kept asking "when are you guys coming to perth" or "Will you guys be coming to see us one day?"

Of course we will. And it makes me happy to hear that they loved staying with us and that we are the best-est cousins they had...

So sweet!!!! And I miss them so much already! :'D

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Aku bukan untukmu

Dahulu kau mencintai ku
Dahulu kau menginginkan ku
Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkan mu
Dan ku mohon maafkan aku

Aku menyesal telah membuat mu menangis
Dan biar kan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdir mu
Pasti itu terbaik untuk mu

Janganlah lagi kau mengingat ku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku...

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku..

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Harap kau mengerti
Pergilah kau bersama nya
Anggap ini seperti takdir yang memisahkan
Dan Dia yang menguji.

Aku disana

Aku sedia mengundur diri
Dan memaafmu
Anggaplah ini satu mimpi
yang datang sekadar untuk menguji...

Friday, February 01, 2008

My friends

Dah besar dah kawan2 aku...
Aku sayang korang laaa...
Banget-banget! Gitu-gitu lho!

Zizy makin lama makin lawa... makin best!
Sarah makin lama makin biol...
Farah makin lama... makin... uhhhh
Makin banyak lah aku kacau dier!

Ni lah orang-orang yang buat aku ketawa hari-hari...
Nangis kadang2... eh. Tak. Tak pernah kot...

Haha... Macam nak nangis sey...
Kalau dah tiba waktu kita tinggalkan dunia poly...
adakah kita akan mesra seperti dulu...
Aku harap sangat2!
Jangan biar jarak memisahkan kita.
Aku sayang sangat kat diorg...
Dah jadi mcm kakak2 aku dah...
Sarah kakak first...
Zizy kakak 2nd.
Farah... kakak tiri yg slalu kene buli ngan aku...
hahahhaa... Taklah. Main2 jer...
:D

Moral of the story: Amirah sayang korang!

Yay!!!!!!!!

yappadeeya yappedeedoo!
My Environment Element module is over! Whee! So happy lar can!

But the sad thing is... My cousins from Perth are flying back home tomorrow... Dayumnnn!
Their flight would be at 12mn. PFFT bummer. Maybe I'm going out with sarah... We had plans to go ice skating. Maybe I'll not go anywhere...
:( then at night I go send my cousins... boohhoooo sobsob. And when they're gone...
It'll be damn boringgggg.....!